Wednesday, December 22, 2010

A love letter

To: MR. "i have no idea who you are"

Dear sir,

REQUEST TO APPEAR AS SOON AS POSSIBLE
_______________________________________

I refer to the above matter.

Please be informed that my mother had mention about our wedding for numerous time. Thus, it will be much obliged for you to appear before me as soon as possible. Your presence would be much necessity at this time so that i have someone in mind when my mother talk about our wedding once again.

I also would like to enlighten you that, regardless where you are, it is mandatory for you to be presence before me.

Your cooperation in this matter are highly obligated.

Your prompt attention and urgent action upon this matter are highly appreciated.

Thank You.

Yours Faithfully,

Thursday, December 9, 2010

when my mom ask me about M.A.R.R.I.A.G.E

ting tonggggg....hellooo anybody home......

hello dusty blog. so sorry for not updating u about two months!! i'm so busy with my new life and KL sux!! i dun hv internet at my place here. sigh~~

anyway..im currently striving and surviving as a chambie at this coolest office. everybody seems so nice here. =D

ok straight to the topic of marriage, last night i was on the phone with my mom. i was telling her about my future planning on becoming one most successful lawyer. i also told her that i think i want to work abroad.

then my mom ask me " abih tak yah kawen??" at that point of time, i'm speechless. it feels weird when my mom asking me about marriage which is something that i never think of. once i hung up the fon, i started thinking bout it. seriously i never thought that my mom will concern about me getting married since she always treat me like a young naughty girl.haha

as always i answered her in a ridiculous way when she ask me about marriage. my common answers are"tunggu la dekno ngorat anak menteri" or "dekno nak kt ashraf muslim je. mak gi ar masuk meminang dia"

i bet my mom suddenly become concern about my marriage because i already finish my study. thus, the next thing to concern on is about marriage. no momm...i need to build my career first. let me have something in hand then maybe i can think about marriage. and i'm still young to0o. i'm just 23. i have plenty of time to dive in the sea of man and find someone that fit me best. =D "people said, there's a plenty fish in the water :D"

but for now, seriously i dont really into marriage. maybe i cant find any suitable partner, or maybe because i feel comfortable living on my own. - no commitment-

however, i cant say anything bout something in future. i'm not a fortune teller~!! :D

we'll see in 4 to 5 years time. maybe i'm married or maybe i'm still single and ready to mingle.

* to meet a guy that really can take u as u are and being so much understanding is so difficult. if i do find one, it's either he's TAKEN or he's GAY. heheh


A Man's World - Jadyn Maria feat Katy Perry

heeeeeey, ay ay ay ay ay ya (x3)
i bought him a drink before he could get away,
and in the morning sewed his jeans, they look better on me anyway
yeah i got the beauty but i got the brains,
so don't play with me boy cause i'll beat you at you're own game.

CHORUS:
it's a man's world but i'm the type of girl
really doesn't matter cause i can do it better
in a man's world but i'm the type of girl
it won't even phase me cause i'm that kind of lady (x2)

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
know where i'm going, don't need directions.
sit back boy, i'll teach you a lesson.
i'ma kiss you first, don't need your permission.
cause girls like me break the tradition.

it's a man's world but i'm the type of girl
really doesn't matter cause i can do it better
in a man's world but i'm the type of girl
it won't even phase me cause i'm that kind of lady (x2)

you gotta be
kiddin' me
to think that i should be listening
every word
you're telling me
... it's not working
they must be outta their mind
they must be crazy
this could be just a waste of time
cause it's a, cause it's a

it's a man's world but i'm the type of girl
really doesn't matter cause i can do it better
in a man's world but i'm the type of girl
it won't even phase me cause i'm that kind of lady (x2)



Wednesday, September 29, 2010

is this the end?

i save my blog for quite a long time to wait for this moment. to write up about the day that i will walk away left Multimedia University.

i just finished my very last paper today and i highly hope that i will pass all the 7 subjects. the feelings are so mixed up now. it does not seem be the happiest moment but why i should be sad when it's over? it is something that what i waiting for all this while.

after all, what i'm thinking is the precious moment that i've got with my fellow "better than the best" friends.

2006

it's started up so weird. when i know no one here. my first friend in MMU is Freda. i met her during we want to register course. and yeah we talk to a each other and found that we're on the same track.

next person that i met was Sue. one drop dead gorgeous lady. i went for a lunch with her and freda before we want to our first class. she's very kind and cute :D and the first time i saw her, i really thought she's a chinese.



next, when i went up to the class, i say a guy sitting at the wall with sleepy face. my first thought of that guy is "eh mcm abang la dia ni." not that his face like my brother but his style is not much differ than my brother. as we enter to the class, during the ice-breaking, i came to know that this guy name is faisal. this the "look alike brother" boy is at first looks so snobbish that i cant stand him. he only reply a word everytime i ask him question. i hate him. haha. then, we became closer went we're in the same group for philosophy and actually he's sooo much talkative that what i' thinking.

then i came to know other's friend like keat, which confused his name with eng lian. i still remember that keat said his friends said he supposed to take law as he loves to talk. *if i'm not mistaken*then i know chiam, as she talks a lot in class and of courseeeeeeeeeee andrew. haha. the big guy with a tag line ketandusan kasih sayang.

as class started i've mingle with all my classmates. there are only forty of us if i'm not mistaken and it's not hard to be friend with everyone.


after about 2 months in mmu, i'm closed to redza. he's one funny guy that i met. and we can talked for hours. he's a good friend of mine that always helps me during exam :) after that, i closed to rima as she's redza's sista. hehe. rima is one funny and easy going girl that i know. we enjoy doing stupid things together :)

and the listtsssss of friends goes on like
jing en, doreen, hasnur, intan, tan, sahana, jing jau, winnie, vageetha etc.

(sorry if i miss out any names. 2006 is just my beginning)

i still remember the business project of car wash. how helpfull we all when everyone came and helps to wash cars. we're one. and we enjoy helping each other.


the english drama also was unforgettable. it is certain that we PL40 are so talented and we're better that the real actor/actress. we sing, we dance, we do jokes. i miss those time :)


2007

the're nothing change with me. i do enjoy with my fellow friends. they're just crazy as i am. during this time, i getting closer to intan since she's rima's best friend. so indirectly i close to her because we do go lunch together. me and intan always be a person that wants to slim down. we went to gym sometimes and we joint aerobics club.hehe.

aih..i hardly remember what happen in 2007. seems like i'm mentally tired and it's hard for me to remember things that happen three years back.

what i can remember is at this time, i always went out chill with rima, redza and andrew. and by this time, i also had mingled with people beside my classmate such as my roomates which both of them are married, one had just deliver a baby girl on end of july :)

afta all, 2007 just went well and my friendship with my friends are getting stronger day by day.

2008

i could say that 2008 is one of my best year as i've been very good in studied. when i refer back to my 2008's notes, it's so neat, my handwriting are so finedd and i do study hard. hehe.

i dunno what spirit that had possessed me at that time. ouh in 2008, i've become sue's roomate and it just made our friendship getting stronger. i think she's my best roomate :D

during 2008, i also became closed to nik. the smallest classmate i think.haha. we always went for dinner together at kedai kuning and talk for long hours. we also do stupid things sometimes like skipping class and went to saloon to dyed hair and just for the sake of lazy.

ouh..i met my crush in mmu!!haha. but afta all...it just a crush.hurmmmm.

2009

i think 2009 is my worst year. in terms of study to be exact. haha. i always lost in class. you may check my 2009 posts and i'm such a person that emotionally unstable.

maybe because i feel lonely staying alone at ep. haih. i still remember the fucked up feelings. i thing i want to skip this awful year. fuck 2009!!!

2010

so much better year for me. thank God. this year i have so much fun. this is my final year and only in this year i'm getting closer to my other classmates like jing en, doreen, jing jau and hasnur. thanks God i moved to ixora. if not i'll be dead alone in ep!

hasnur - is my PA when i need mcD. in the middle of the night when my stomach sing some awful song, i will just call hasnur and said "ano lapa" and of cos she will reply "u nak order apa?" she undertstand me already.

jing jau - i enjoy went shopping with her. she's one shopaholic that i know. and she's a picky too. she's always spend a lot of time in choosing stuff and thinking whether to buy it or not. she's also is one of funny friend that i have especially when she try to speak a proper malay. it's ok jing jau..ur bahasa is much better than hasnur!!

jing en - i think jing en is eng keat female version.haha. they forms such a great love relationship. both are funny and loves to talk crap. and i do enjoy listen to their jokes. i found jing en to be very enthuasiastic in what's she's doing. she also is a very kind friend that love to send encouragement msg during everyone are stress out for exam.

doreen - she's smart but can be blur sometimes. haha. doreen is such a very helpful friend. i still remember that she help me and freda to print the bundles for mooting. her kindness are so much appreciated.

after all, in 2010, my best friends during alpha are still my best friends now plus with new best friends that always support me, make me laugh and always there for me.

friends...i'm not sure if this is the end. i highly hope, the friendship last forever. hopefully we can still chill enjoy high tea after mentally exhausted at the office. i pray that we will forever keep in touch.





i really want to dedicate this song to all of you when the time come. and now, it's the time. and this song specially dedicated to all of you. :)


"Graduation (Friends Forever)"


And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly



Tuesday, September 7, 2010

meaningful

people around us can never understand why there's thing that is so meaningful to us.

when i said that i lost my baju kurung. the very first expression that people may say is 'haha~!!how can that be?' haih..it's a sad case. people will never understand how meaningful that baju kurung for me and how it has lots of sentimental value in it.

it also is the same case where i lost my most loyal boyfie - Abu (my pc). people hardly understand why i've been totally sad and lost when my pc was complete dump. they didn't know how much my pc means for me. some may call me crazy for giving name to my pc :D

or as example of serious case, where people can never understand why we still fight to be with someone that we love. they may say that we are crazy or they may say that we can find someone else. but the issue is not about there is someone else, but it is a matter of meaningful.

and maybe people will said that we're crazy for still using old school hp when ppl around are using touch screen hp, qwerty keyboard hp, but i'm still using my old nokia silde hp that i've bought in 2006. the reason is meaningful.

last but not least, song. some songs it may sound very meaningful to me, but for my friend, it such a lame song with very poor of musik arrangement. *whatever*

obviously, people can never understand or actually know things that are meaningful for us. maybe it's our duty to tell people around us that these are the things that are meaningful to us.

this post is tribute to my lost meaningful baju kurung :(


ANDAI KAU PERGI by INDIGO


Dikau pernah berkata
Akulah segalanya
Tanpaku tak mungkin kau bahagia

Namun di sebaliknya
Setelah ku percaya
Kau bersikap dinginku terpinga

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Dengan sepenuh cinta
Daku tanam di dada
Dengan harapan terbina istana

Apakah di mindamu
Mengapa kau membisu
Hanya katakan kau masih menyinta

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Daku tak mengerti
Mengapa kau bersikap sebegitu
Andainya
Kau tahu hatiku
Betapa penuh di dada menyintamu

Sayang
Ku masih tidak mengerti
Ke manakah hilangnya cintamu
Jiwaku resah dan sepi
Andainya kau pergi

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku




Friday, September 3, 2010

an inspirational letter to a friend

Dear friend,

when things go fucked up, pls remember that

..i'm here to wipe your tears.
..i'm here to make you laugh.
..i'm here to lend my shoulder.
..i'm here to listen to your deepest word.
..i'm here to hear your young and stupid story.
..i'm here to turn the lemonade into caramel.
..i'm here to make you feel better.


all i need from you is to be strong and just ignore all those NONSENSE!! and MOVE ON~! it is normal to have a long period of emotional unstable, i understand that. i FULLY understand that~~! you can cry..cry as much as you want, you can curse as much as you want, you can shout out loud.

but please never let yourself lose to this fucked up things. this is not the end. let's take it as one of precious experienced and just lets call it lesson learned :D

remember, you still have parents and family that always support you and your friends to cheer you up. you're still young to be this sad!!

dun worry dude, there's a plenty of fish in the water. *huggssssss*


Love Hurt by Incubus

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
I don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still as a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I'won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive




Thursday, August 26, 2010

s.i.n.g.l.e

hello! i am single. yes. single and not so available :D

i always confront with cliche question about boyfriend.
everytime i meet my schoolmate, the first question that they ask is not how are you? but do u have boyfriend!?

and i will definitely give this cliche answer
"nope."
"tak de sape nak kat aku :p"

my friends will then reply "ala ko tu jual mahal."

but i have this gay friend that said to me "tu la jual mahal sgt. dah tak laku" *this is fucking hurtful statement nok~!!haha*

anyway it's not about jual mahal, tak laku or takde sape nak. it's about finding the person that i can live with for the rest of my life.

i have this princip that if i gonna have a boyfriend, he will be the person that i'm gonna marry with. so maybe thats why i am single now..

i'm not type of person that can simply accept a guy to be my bf and we broke off and after that, i'll meet another guy, being with him, then broke off again, meet another guy, being in a relationship again, and i dont know how many exes i will have.haha.

actually, i'm not looking for a boyfriend but i am looking for a future husband. yes. i want a forever relationship. not just a relationship or long term relationship. i am serious when it comes to relationship ;)

as for that, i need a guy that can handle me at my worst. he knows how to chill me up when i just started to burst my anger and just by a single word from him everything will be so fine. and i will never get bored when i with him.

most important thing, he also does not only take me as his gf or his new gf, but he will take me as someone that he also wants to be with for the rest of his life.

by now, i still wait for my future husband to come and take me away from this single life :D


The Only Exception by Paramore


When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing





Friday, August 13, 2010

13th August

hello bloggers and readers. today is 13th August and it's the 3rd day of Ramadhan. overall my Ramadhan just ok. i've been a bit messed up with assignments. not to forget, illness. yeap.it's been a long time that i dont have any fever or flu but yesterday, i have this freaking terrible flu, sore throat and a bit of fever. i hate the flu so much! haha.

anywaaayyy..it's not about my fasting and sore throat that i'm here. but it's because of this date. 13th August 2009, i've lost someone that i love and had so much meaningful to me. yeap my lovely grandma had passed away a year ago.

it is a year ago and i still remember her face, voice and stories. she's one tough woman that i know. she raised up 9 childrens and none of them had lack of education. my mom once said that my grandma didnt know how to write and read. but she never let her children missed education. she'll do anything to put her children in school.

my mom had been sent to English medium school just to ensure that she get a proper education. however, she only went to the school for one year and later she insisted to change to Malay medium since being in English medium school required lots of expenses.

one day around last year, when my grandma still can talk and enjoy telling stories, she was complaining on my mom attitude that refuse to go to the english medium school. apparently she didnt know the reason why my mom insisted to change school. when my mom told her that at that time the school fees is too expensive, my grandma suddenly getting a bit angry with my mom and said that she dont care about the fees. she just wants the best for my mom. well, i love her spirit in giving her children the best education.

besides education, my grandma also known as very particular and meticulous when it comes to cook. my mom told me that, none of her siblings including her can actually follow the way of my grandma's cook. my grandma had cook for school canteen before and she also will make nasi lemak. my mom and my aunties will sell it at their school. she sounds very patient in raising up her children.

my grandma also known as very firm and she scolded her children alot. she looks very soft but deep inside she's very strict with her children. sometimes, i can see her in my mom. their character more or less are the same.

neway, i do miss her story telling sessions. even though i've heard about it countless of time, i dont mind. i still enjoy listened to it and laugh at it.

dear pah, may you rest in pieces. i miss you.





Tuesday, July 27, 2010

being 23

last friday on 23rd July at 6.20pm i am officially 23 years old. so far after being 23, i can feel that there's nothing much changes in my life. i am still
- one lazy person

yes. i am still one lazy person that always skipping classes, not copying notes in class, not doing tutorial and always blur when lecturer asking question. hehe. well that's me and never change even from primary school. i always finding the easiest way to do things and if that thing is just too complicated i'll just ignore it.

- playFool

being playfool is just so0o me. haha. i love talking craps and makes stupid jokes. from school to uni..i think i never being serious. actually being serious is boring and doesnt mean that im playfool i cant do job well. it just for me being serious means u're stressing urself.

- sleeping beauty

this is me~if people ask me to describe my self, i would say that i am the ultimate sleeping beauty. haha. sleeping is one heaven things in this world. lying on bed with lots of pillow around you, gloomy bedroom and very pleasant whether just makes me sleepy. i can sleep more that 12 hours.. but now, i try to avoid sleeping in a long hours as it is not good for your health and brains.


anywayyy~~~after all..23 is just a number, getting old is all about how u bring urself :)



Saturday, July 17, 2010

mak saya sayang saya.

i have a mom. she's one of most garang person that i know. but deep inside, i know she loves me more than stars in a sky.

she do pamper me a lot though most of the time she scold me. yea..she scold me because she loves me. and i love her too. =D

i suddenly feels like to write how much my mom loves me here. because......

just now around 6.30 pm, my mom called me. she called me because my little brother told her that my fb status stated "berdarah hidung"! ouh mom!!u just love me damn much. she called me and right away asked me "idong kamu berdarah ke?akir kata kamu tulih kt pesbuk idong kamu berdarah?"

and me just laugh and said "tak la mak...mane ade.memain je tu" LOL. the reason of that status because i saw one beautiful girl. i mean damn beautiful. so "berdarah hidung" just a hiperbola statement that i just saw beautiful girl.hehe.

when i said the status only "main2" then my mom sounds very relief. she then said "ouh igt kan idong kamu berdarah. yang slalu darah idong ni min (my lil brother) je."
neway i just couldn't explain to my mom the reason behind the status. haha. my mom will say "gilo". haha

the phone call just now was very touchy for me. haha. it just obviosly shows that my mom cares me a lot.

sometimes my mom just called me and ask "kamu sakit ke?" haha. very random right. when i said no. i'm just ok here..she will then said "ouh. ntah la mak rasa mcm kamu tgh sakit."

dear mom...your lil daughter fine here..just missing you a lot. cant wait to go back home. ;)



I Miss You by Incubus

To see you, when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same
as I do is a three-fold utopian dream.

You do something to me, that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line, if I said
I miss you ...

I see your picture, I smell your skin on
the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
but already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.




Wednesday, July 14, 2010

end of part 1

yeahhh..this trimester going to be end soon. woohooo.. nex week is the mid sem break that's mean it will be the ending of the part 1 of this sem.

as a whole, taking 7 subjects does not that crazy or make people die. so far, i still can cope with the schedule (but i do skip classesss) ;p

throughout this part 1 of my final semester, i've being very busy with world cup. yea thank God that the world cup end already and i am effing happy cuz i've made a good decision to support spain. yeah iker casillas the best. and paul i love you. hehe

i'm glad that i watch world cup with my fellow lovely friend which i bet this is the last time we watch world cup together. the next world cup on 2014, only God knows if i'm still alive to watch the world cup again. if i'm still alive, i have no idea i'm gonna watch it with who. may be new friends, my family, boyfriend or husband?? o0ps! ahaha.

orite enuff for world cup. just now, i've just finished 2 midterms. and totally feel free now though i have another 2 fucking tough midterms nex week. i'm gonna break awhile and maybe will start study tomorrow. God plsss...i need some courage to study.

and, end of nex week, i'm going back to my beautiful home town kuala kangsar. how i missssss my home, my mom and dad, others family and of course mom's curry.hehe. it's been a long time that i've stuck in melaka. i need some fresh air and good quality water for my body and HAIR!! gosh! the water quality in melaka is damn bad! fucking bad. especially in this effing ixora. i cant wait to goin back home. ;]

ouh neway just now i just had a pre-birthday celebration with rima ellani. i love the place. i dunno the exact name of the restaurant but i call it saddam and sometimes colloseum. well it based on the names of the food there. the names of the menu there are kinda weird. some call mee racun, nasi goreng shah rukh khan and last but not least mee basah di puncak. haha. weird is it.

but the foods are superb. so far i never feel regret chosing that restaurant. the fried rice, udang tepung, soup and drinks all are very well prepared. thanks rima for the most enjoyable pre-birthday celebration.hehe.

anyhuuu, i'll stop here. feels like want to play games. dunno what game yet. maybe super mario.haha. daaa.. till we meet again. ;D



malam kita by KRU

Sepurnama... telah kita tempuh duga
Dengan kesabaran
Kini... tiba sekali lagi
Hari yang dinanti kini tiba pasti

Ku bersyukur... kepada yang Esa
Serta anugerahnya
Girang... terasa jiwa
Kerana restu bersamamu cinta

( korus )
Gilang gemilang sinar cahaya purnama
Ketika malam kita bersama
Melengkap keajaiban di malam ini
Wahai teman bisakah kau rasai

Indahnya... hingga tak terkata
Bersama berdua
Moga... kita berpanjangan
Selalu seiringan sejalan

( korus )
Gilang gemilang sinar cahaya purnama
Ketika malam kita bersama
Melengkap keajaiban di malam ini
Wahai teman bisakah kau rasai

Embun pagi... membasahi pipi
Kita berdua di malam yang permai
Ku berdoa kita berdua
Selalu bersama

( korus )
Gilang gemilang sinar cahaya purnama
Ketika malam kita bersama
Melengkap keajaiban di malam ini
Wahai teman bisakah kau rasai



Saturday, July 3, 2010

happy birthday

haapppppy birthday to my dearie blog.
thanks a lot for being the ultimate place for me to share my thoughts.

however, in 2010, i didnt write here as much as in 2009. maybe i'm a bit bz. sometimes i do have things to share here but then i cant find times to write. and sometimes, i'm just being too lazy to write. i wish i can just transfer all my thoughts from my mind to this dearie blog.haha.pemalas!

as for now, i have nothing to share. i'm just bz with my classes and yeah world cup of course. haha. i love that the fact england and brazil defeated from world cup at early stage. but i'm still sad and dissappointed with italy my favorite team. now my aim is spain. hopefully they can go thru to final...hehe.

okaaiii blog. need to go. i've promise freda to go out with her. talk to you later. (see i'm bz.haha)

anyhu..i love this blog as it had becomes part of my life.

enjoy this fooking rock song on my blog bday.hehe


Roc Ya Body by Ping Pong Bitches

He's so young, Wasn't born too late
I know it's wrong but I couldn't wait
Saw him at the smimming pool
The body looked so hot
I couldn't keep my cool

Said I'll be your first - girlfriend
Let's go out tonight
Said don't tell your mama cos it isn't right

Three minutes later on the escalator
I kept waving to his friend, 'See ya later'
Hot as hell, burnin' up
Feeling your touch, Its never enough

Said I'll be your first - girlfriend
Let's go out tonight
Said don't tell your mama cos it isn't right

I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
Pretty boy, you're going to hell
I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
I'll rock your body and I'll ring your bell

You're so young, Wasn't born too late
I know it's wrong but I couldn't wait
Saw him at the swimming pool
The body looked so hot
I couldn't keep my cool

Said I'll be your first - girlfriend
Let's go out tonight
Said don't tell your mama cos it isn't right

I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
Pretty boy, you're going to hell
I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
I'll rock your body and I'll ring your bell



Wednesday, June 23, 2010

after 5 years...

this post is highly dedicated to my only ABU.


21st June 2010 - Abu physical memory had complete dump. yes! complete dump. my world blackout! lost! i try my best to safe Abu. i kno that he had tries his best to survive, but he just too critical.he is no longer alive. = (


throughout 5 years i spent my life with Abu, he always cheer me up every time i feel like killing myself or just running away from this fucking place. i love u Abu. u always be my emotional savior.


and of course, i cant live this world without Abu. he's my boyfriend, best friend and everything. 5 years in MMU, u're the one that always by my side. i will always remembered him as my most loyal boyfriend i ever had. u chill me up until your last breath.

yesterday, i found someone else that i'm pretty sure that it can replace Abu. yes. i met Natasha. Natasha is more softer than Abu.

However, since i love Abu more than ever, i transfer Abu's heart to Natasha. thus, even though right now, i'm with Natasha but the heart that Natasha's use to live on is belongs to Abu. At least, Abu's heart is still with me.

my wish, my relationship with Natasha will going smoothly and will be the best to each other.

As for Abu, of course i miss u. RIP ABU. = (


Di Pintu Syurga by KRU & Elite

Sekukuh... sekukuh mana ikrar kasih kita
Setebal mana masih ada sempadannya
Akan tiba nanti... harus ditempuhi
Apa daya kita melawan masa
Takdirnya... takdirnya dunia hanya sementara
Walau begitu cinta suci 'tuk selamanya
Ini realiti... hilang tak terganti
Namun ku tahu kau dan aku akhirnya kembali bersatu

*Chorus:
Andai daku pergi sebelummu
Kenangkanlah ku selalu didalam doamu
Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhir untukku
Ku berjanji kan menantimu
Setia menunggu di pintu syurga

Di sana... di sana menati gemilang cinta
Jadi lenyapkanlah titisan airmata
Tabahkanlah hati... mengharungi hari
Abadikanlah saat indah... kita kan tetap bersama




Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Epsilon 2nd Trimester.

starting 7th June..i have been officially a final year, final trimester student in mmu. hopefully i manage to go thru this final trimester. as i mention before, i'm taking 7 subjects which is not easy at all. and of course i need to be more focus and play less. and yea be more HARDWORKING!

apart from studying, i've plan earlier to be more consistent with my jogging activity. HOWEVER.........there's no MMU field. eff off okaaayy! the field is under construction and i bet may be it can only be used 2 months later. sigh. i am eager to jog and suddenly now i hv no place to jog. maybe hiking bukit beruang will be another option.hehe.

ouh..i also would like to share that, this trimester must be my super duper bz trimester. on thursday, i have 6 hours back to back classes from 1pm to 6 pm. gosh! readers...please pray for me. i really need a super duper strength this trimester.

for now, i really need to well prepared both mentally and physically since this trimester will be my very most important trimester. hopefully i'll pass all the 7 subjects and graduate at the end of this year ;D

anyway, enjoy this beautiful song.


Warning by Incubus

Bat your eyes girl.
Be otherworldly.
Count your blessings.
Seduce a stranger.
What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness...yeah

Over and over and over and over...........

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves,
Before its made illegal
When will we learn, When will we change
Just in time to see it all come down

Those left standing will make millions
Writing books on ways it should have been

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
Soon the water starting to boil,
Now I flinched and we all float face down

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
Pass you by




Sunday, May 30, 2010

walimatul urus

di penghujung mei..maka sejarah telah tercipta..akak aku telah selamat dinikahkan dengan pasangan yang di kasihinya. dan majlis perkahwinan telah berjalan dengan lancar skali.

makaa...aku nk wat post mortem skeyt.secara umumnya..aku rasa kenduri itu memenatkan dan meletihkan. the preparation adalah sangat membunuh.orang kuale kata "tumpo". bukan pe..nak siapkan umah kemas2 tu da letih..pastu gift2 nk bg kt org dgn bermcm2 peringkat persediaan adalah sangat memenatkan..sampai aku rasa mcm da serik dgn kenduri kawen.huhu.tu belom lagi dengan segala mcm arahan dan permintaan yang nak kena ikut. kadang2 aku rasa aku ni runner, pengapit dan juga orang suruhan. sumpah letih.

tapi yang syok tu mesti ada.heheh.aku rasa yg syok time tgk2 baju pengantin, time hias2 bilik pengantin dengan pakai inai.lagi satu bila semua saudara mara aku berkumpul kt umah dan maka terciptalah suasana yang sgt menghiburkan. da lama rasanya kiteorg ni tak bersembang sakan sambil sakat menyakat.hehe..best sgtt.

ouh ye..gambo2 perkahwinan adaaaa...tapi gua malas ar nk letak kt sini..kalo nak tgk pandai2 la gi pesbuk gua.kat situ ada banyaaaakk gamba.tapi gamba gua la..gamba pengantin tak byk.kalo nk tgk byk gi dekat pesbuk pengantin.haha.

ni hal kawen baru 1st half. 2nd half 6hb ni kt melaka.tp xpe laa..hat tu aku pi makan je.xde la ape sgt nk di buat.skang ni aku lega skeyt dpt rehat.kalo tak kaki mcm nak cabut.hehe.mcm org tua laak.

pepehal pon..tahniaah la kt akak aku pasaaaii da jadi bini org..tak sabo teman nak tunggu baby deme nnt.haha.

ok laaa..gua nak tido.letih daah.

mengkome layan le lagu nii..arab campo omputih.layan gak laa.hehe


Barak Allahu Lakuma - Maher Zain

We're here on this special day
Our hearts are full of pleasure
A day that brings the two of you
Close together
We're gathered here to celebrate
A moment you'll always treasure
We ask Allah to make your love
Last forever

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

From now you'll share all your chores chores
Through heart-ship to support each other
Together worshipping Allah
Seeking His pleasure

We pray that He will fill your life
With happiness and blessings
And grants your kids who make your home
Filled with laughter

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

بارك الله
بارك الله لكم ولنا

الله بارك لهما
الله أدم حبهما
الله صلّي وسلّم على رسول الله

الله تب علينا
الله ارض عنا
الله اهد خطانا
على سنة نبينا

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير







Monday, May 10, 2010

this is it!!

finaaaaaaaaallllyy..final exam is over! that's mean i just completed my fourth year 1st trimester which means the next trimester is my final trimester in MMU!!

hopefully i pass all the papers for this sem and next sem will be the ultimate craziest sem ever. i still cant imagine me - the laziest person ever, taken 7 subjects! woo0oow~~God bless me!

neway, i am currently enjoy each moment of today. i ate at sushi king when actually i need a sleep. i feels like a zombie there staring at all those sushis. but...thanks for jing en, doreen and freda for wake me up with stupid jokes. then i bought mask at faceshop just thinking that i need to pamper my self especially my face as i have abandoned them for a week.

when i got back, i just right way 'pengsan' until 6.30 where i have an appointment with this pretty beautiful lady lisa surihani. who doesnt want to date her right~hahaha.

as for now, i just online and enjoy my 'nothing to do' moment. actually i have things to do lar..i need to tidy up my messy room which is just not much differ as a paper recycle center. it's A LOT of paper on my table, my bed, under my table, on the floor....aaaihh..but i'm not goin to collect all the papers now. now is the ti,e for me and myself and of course my dear lovey dovey hard disk.

ok peeps... see u guys next time. i want to chill my self with some good musik and of course my possessive bed! till then...enjoy this song...


Drive by Incubus
Sometimes,
I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself
How much I'll let the fear Take the wheel and steer

It's driven me before And it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel

(Chorus:)
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my
Chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine
And hold my own and drive, ohh

It's driven me before And it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that when
I drive myself my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there
I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive

Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there
I'll be there




Wednesday, April 28, 2010

helllluuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~

phewwwitttttttttttttttttt...it's been like almost a month i've abondoned my blog. it's not that i'm too lazy or nothing to share..but i have so fucking lots of things to do. assignment, presentation, assignment, presentation, assignment presentation, mid term, and finally.....mock trial.

and today, i am totally free from all this thinggy. i feel bad for myself when i cant even started study and my first paper is next monday. yes. NEXT MONDAY!! so0o0..todaayyy i will start my revision and i'm going to torture my self for sure to absorb all the principles and cases as quick as i can.

hopefully my brain can corporate well with me to absorb and store well all the things that i'm gonna read later. i never start study this late.

anyway..actually i've lots of things to share here but i think that it just no longer fresh to share. so maybe next time when i have anything interesting to share i'll post it here.

for now, i need to study. if i come here later to write that's means i am fucking stress!!

okaayy enjoy this beautiful song. :)



Take It Slow by Estrella

i will keep you waiting
until you say something
baby don't be hating
i’m just doin my thing

no no no no, can u fill me in.

can i get your number
i will be your shelter
through the rain or thunder
break your heart i’ll never

love i’ll promise you forever.

c/o
maybe we can take it slow
i could show you what you’ve been waiting for
maybe we can take it slow
just let me show you what you've been waiting for

Sinking in each other
we will be together
lacing up my fingers
saving all my kisses for you, baby
you’re all that i need and
it’s got me thinking..




Friday, April 2, 2010

al-fatihah pakcik mokhtar

just now at 3 am i received fon called from my sist. obviously it's weird to received fon call from her early in the morning.but i dun expect that news. suddenly she said "weyh dekno, pakcik mokhtar da meninggal" i feel like my world stop for a while. and of cos i ask her to repeat that again. it's a big shock for me!!i dont expect this at all!!

i just feel down for losing one of my favourite comedian, and then yea i'm losing my beloved uncle. a person that always break the silence with his jokes, riddles and lots of "i have this friend" story.

of cos i'm crying like hell.i never expect this.and my hand is damn shaking.my heart beat so fast that i feel like to faint!!!losing someone is my weakness. thank GOD i have friend to share my feelings with. to faisal and eddy.thanks for those words. yea i know i need to be tough and strong to face all this.

and now i'm preparing my mental to face the situation in kuala kangsar later. of cos the emotion is running high. and i promise myself to be tough so that i can comfort my cousins as i know this must be hard time.damn hard time.

i hope and pray to Allah that may He bless my uncle and placed him among all good persons.

and of course, i'm gonna missed you pakcik mokhtar!! Al-fatihah.


In the name of Allah, the most beneficent, the most merciful

"All the praises and thanks be to Allah, the lord of the "Alamin" (Mankind, Jinns, and all that exists).* The most Beneficent, the most merciful.* The only Owner (and the only Ruling Judge) Of the Day of Recompense (I.e. the Day of Resurrection)* You (Alone) we worship, and you (Alone) we ask for help (for each and everything).* Guide us to the straight way* The Way of those on whom you have bestowed your

Grace, not (the way) of those who earned your anger, nor of those who went astray."





Al-fatihah

Al-fatihah kepada Allahyarham Din Beramboi. sangat2 sedeyh rasanya hati ini.i feel down all of sudden :(

baru kejap td aku attach video dia yang memang lawak gilaaa.yang aku tengok juta2 kali pon mesti aku gelak.tapi sekaraangg dia da tiada lagi...

macam stop kejap jantung ni bila dapat tau dia dah takda lagii. ingatkan faisal memain je bagi tau.sekali betoi2 dia da takdaa.what a lost~~

dan tadi jugak la habih aku layan semua episod spontan kat u tube sebelom aku attach video dia kat blog aku.

semoga abg din ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman. besar pahala abg din sebab selalu buat orang ketawa dan mengubat hati dengan lawak jenakanya.


i'm gonna missed u abg din!!u're the best!!!


Andai Ku Tahu by Ungu

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan, tolong panjangkan umurku

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan, jangan kau ambil nyawaku

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Andai ku tahu
Malaikat-Mu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku
mengucap kata taubat pada-Mu

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku dari segala dosa-dosaku
Ampuni aku menangisku bertaubat pada-Mu

Aku manusia yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga tak pantas di syurga

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Izinkan aku
mengucap kata taubat pada-Mu

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku dari segala dosa-dosaku
Ampuni aku menangisku bertaubat pada-Mu



Thursday, April 1, 2010

telinga syaitannn!!!




yea...tajuk post aku kali ni berbaur mistik sikitt. dan yang pasti post kali ini berkenaan dgn kawan aku sorang ni yang memang terlampau la hebat ilmu mistiknyaaa. tapi identiti kawan aku tu terpaksa la dirahsiakan atas sebab2 tertentu yek.

dia ni ilmu nyaaa memang tinggi. bela membela ni memang menda biasa. dia ada 4 kottt...selalu orang ada 1 pon susah nak maintain, dia ni sampai 4. dasattt. mengikut ceghita kawan aku ni yang hat 4 tu nama depa Nudin, Cristabelle, Minah dgn Francesco.

aku pon tak tau la cam na nak nasehat dia nii....taksub bebeno.sampaikann kemana saja dia pegi mesti dia bawak menda 4 niii.

ni video yang aku letak ni la yang buat dia taksub sgtt dengan bela2 niii.

kepada berkenaannn..insap la. aku ni kawan yang baiikk.tu yang aku nasehat kamu nii. lepaih ni kamu bawak2 le buang yang 4 tu.

dengan itu, wabillahi wataufiq wahidayah, wassalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. ;)

lagu ni aku tujukan khas kepada kawan aku tu..... ;D


Let There Be Love by Oasis

Who Kicked A Hole In The Sky
So The Heavens Would Cry Over Me?
Who Stole The Soul From The Sun
In A World Come Undone At The Seams?

Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love

I Hope The Weather Is Calm
As You Sail Up Your Heavenly Stream
Suspended Clear In The Sky
Are The Words That We Sing In Our Dreams

Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love

Come On, Baby Blue, Shake Up Your Tired Eyes
The World Is Waiting For You
May All Your Dreaming Fill The Empty Sky
But If It Makes You Happy Keep On Clapping
Just Remember I'll Be By Your Side
And If You Don't Let Go It's Gonna Pass You By

Who Kicked A Hole In The Sky
So The Heavens Would Cry Over Me?
Who Stole The Soul From The Sun
In A World Come Undone At The Seams?

Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love

Thursday, March 25, 2010

my greatest drugs!!!

1. my pc!!

- obviously i cant live without my pc. i'll feel something missing in my life if i dont use it for one day. and i'm gonna miss it like crazy when i'm goin' back to my hometown.

2 my musik

- i feel incomplete if i dont listen to my playlist for a day. i'm gonna miss it so0o bad. and i only enjoy listening to the musik i love thru my pc. dun ask me why cuz idk~ =]

3. apo?

- yeah for this greatest medicine i need to credited to my sis as she the one that introduce me to this wonderful magazine or comic?i think apo? is both comic and magazine. =) apo? always be the best medicine when i am emotionally unstable.

4. nescafe ice - must be the deep chill sensation manufactured by nestle.

- i love this drink from alpha. yea its taste do helps me to chill. and i will drink it when i need to stay up and study or just to feel good. basically apo? and nescafe ice have the same function and effect.

5. bed

- this is the last resort when all of the above are not working. the best things to do is lying on my bed and sleeep!!!


drugs which i wish to own.

1. punching bag!

- i love punching bag!!!! and i really want it so that when i'm stress, i can punch it like hell!!

2. guitar

- since i love musik. and one of my favourite instrument is guitar, so i wish to own a guitar. but...for now, it still pending until further notice. my mom not allowed me to own a guitar untilll i completed my studyyy. y lar maaakkkk?? :'(


yea for now that's all my greatest drugs. and now i am enjoying my self with all of them. pc, musik, apo?, nescafe and bed. punching bag and guitar are coming sooonn.hahaha.



Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched, helpless
As she turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go...




Wednesday, March 24, 2010

the lots of things!!!

homaigod!!it's been a long time i didnt wrote here.

it's not that i have nothing to share. but it just me that so damn effing busy. i have tonnessss of things to do.

and here is the list.

1. assignments
2. mid terms
3. mooting
4. law night
5. shopping [as it related to law night]
6. yea most of the time MOOTING!!


up till now...i still hv 3 assignments to go, 1 mid term, law night is coming this friday and i've done with my fucking mooting and soo does shopping.

ermm the shopping...i'm not so sure if i'm done.hahahaha. i'm thinking of buying some accessories but i'm not a person that loves them. they are just for the sake of law night. so0o i'm not sure bout that.hehe.

the mooting. yea i've done it!!completely done!!and as usual we lost!!hahaha. i dont care and i dont want to care. whatever sir "locus standi". i kno u loves so much locus standi until u keep asking that. wish to see u one fine day :)

then what??nothing.

actually there's a lot of things that i would like to share..but i cant remember them. nvm. maybe next time.

ok laaa.i just drop by to update something.or else i forget my blog password.hehe.daaaaa~~

just now, i've this sentimental mode and been listening to this sad love song. to all readers, enjoy this song =)


That's Why You Go Away by Michael Learns To Rock

Baby won't you tell me
why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore



Saturday, March 6, 2010

all the good things!!

2009

i hate 2009.
i hate this year!!
i feel like someone cursing me soooo bad!
i need sugar to add into my life!!
my emotional is running so0o high like it just took lots of ice!!
obviously i am emotionally sick!
i am fucking restless and sick of exam!!
lots of issues and lots of dissatisfaction heart!
lots of relationship problem!

2010

yea it's a good beginning.
good long day.
my emotion is under control.
a bit upset but then being compensate with something that obviously unexpected!!
all those 2009's misery seem like gone already!!
everything is just going well.
lots of unexpected things happen!! and i
In Joy And Sorrow by HIM

Oh girl we are the same
we are young and lost and so afraid
there's no cure for the pain
no shelter from the rain
All our prayers seem to fail

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

Oh girl we are the same
we are strong and blessed and so brave
with souls to be saved and faith regained
all our tears wipe away

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
(And my home's in your arms)
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
(And it is breaking my heart)
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
(My home's in your arms)
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
(And it is breaking my heart)