Thursday, August 26, 2010


hello! i am single. yes. single and not so available :D

i always confront with cliche question about boyfriend.
everytime i meet my schoolmate, the first question that they ask is not how are you? but do u have boyfriend!?

and i will definitely give this cliche answer
"tak de sape nak kat aku :p"

my friends will then reply "ala ko tu jual mahal."

but i have this gay friend that said to me "tu la jual mahal sgt. dah tak laku" *this is fucking hurtful statement nok~!!haha*

anyway it's not about jual mahal, tak laku or takde sape nak. it's about finding the person that i can live with for the rest of my life.

i have this princip that if i gonna have a boyfriend, he will be the person that i'm gonna marry with. so maybe thats why i am single now..

i'm not type of person that can simply accept a guy to be my bf and we broke off and after that, i'll meet another guy, being with him, then broke off again, meet another guy, being in a relationship again, and i dont know how many exes i will have.haha.

actually, i'm not looking for a boyfriend but i am looking for a future husband. yes. i want a forever relationship. not just a relationship or long term relationship. i am serious when it comes to relationship ;)

as for that, i need a guy that can handle me at my worst. he knows how to chill me up when i just started to burst my anger and just by a single word from him everything will be so fine. and i will never get bored when i with him.

most important thing, he also does not only take me as his gf or his new gf, but he will take me as someone that he also wants to be with for the rest of his life.

by now, i still wait for my future husband to come and take me away from this single life :D

The Only Exception by Paramore

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream


You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

Friday, August 13, 2010

13th August

hello bloggers and readers. today is 13th August and it's the 3rd day of Ramadhan. overall my Ramadhan just ok. i've been a bit messed up with assignments. not to forget, illness.'s been a long time that i dont have any fever or flu but yesterday, i have this freaking terrible flu, sore throat and a bit of fever. i hate the flu so much! haha.'s not about my fasting and sore throat that i'm here. but it's because of this date. 13th August 2009, i've lost someone that i love and had so much meaningful to me. yeap my lovely grandma had passed away a year ago.

it is a year ago and i still remember her face, voice and stories. she's one tough woman that i know. she raised up 9 childrens and none of them had lack of education. my mom once said that my grandma didnt know how to write and read. but she never let her children missed education. she'll do anything to put her children in school.

my mom had been sent to English medium school just to ensure that she get a proper education. however, she only went to the school for one year and later she insisted to change to Malay medium since being in English medium school required lots of expenses.

one day around last year, when my grandma still can talk and enjoy telling stories, she was complaining on my mom attitude that refuse to go to the english medium school. apparently she didnt know the reason why my mom insisted to change school. when my mom told her that at that time the school fees is too expensive, my grandma suddenly getting a bit angry with my mom and said that she dont care about the fees. she just wants the best for my mom. well, i love her spirit in giving her children the best education.

besides education, my grandma also known as very particular and meticulous when it comes to cook. my mom told me that, none of her siblings including her can actually follow the way of my grandma's cook. my grandma had cook for school canteen before and she also will make nasi lemak. my mom and my aunties will sell it at their school. she sounds very patient in raising up her children.

my grandma also known as very firm and she scolded her children alot. she looks very soft but deep inside she's very strict with her children. sometimes, i can see her in my mom. their character more or less are the same.

neway, i do miss her story telling sessions. even though i've heard about it countless of time, i dont mind. i still enjoy listened to it and laugh at it.

dear pah, may you rest in pieces. i miss you.