Saturday, March 21, 2009

kuala kangsar

kuala kangsar...the royal town of perak..


oh..indahnya dapat menghirup udara segar kuala kangsar

indahnya melihat sungai perak yang mengalir tenang


indahnya bersiar-siar di bandar kuala kangsar


gembira dapat berada di tempat ku membesar

tempat aku mengenal erti hidup


tempat aku mengenal baik buruk donia

benarlah kata pepatah

"hujan emas di negeri orang hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri"



Wednesday, March 18, 2009

aku sedar...

maaf...
pabila jari jemari
menari di atas keyboard
mengikut rentak hati
tariannya pasti tidak sesempurna mana
pasti akan menyakitkan mata yang memandang hasil tariannya

tiadalah ingin aku menyakitimu..
jikalau kamu maseh ingat kata-kata pujangga ku kepadamu..
"no matter what u always be my priority"
tiada pernah kata-kata itu lenyap

satu yang pasti disini
ku hanya kamu sedar..bangun dari mimpi indah ini
jangan terlalu asyik dengan sesuatu
ku gembira melihat kamu gembira
tetapi..
kegembiraan mu ini mungkin akan memakan diri

aku sedar...
tiada hak bagiku untuk menentukan hidupmu
waima menghambur kata-kata yang sangat pedih itu
aku juga sedar...
aku lebih hina dari kamu..
lebih kotor dari kamu..
cuma aku merasa aku ada satu tanggungjawab
untuk menyedarkan mu

adakah kamu sedar??
beberapa kali aku cuba menarik kamu keluar
keluar dari mimpi indah ini..
tetapi..
kamu makin jauh menyelami mimpi indah mu ini

tiada pernah aku menikam mu...
aku dan rakan2 teramat memikirkan tentangmu
pelbagai persoalan dan amarah telah kutelan

beban yang ku pikul
rasa bersalah atas apa yang terjadi pada dirimu...

tiada salahnya apa yang kamu lalui ini
aku gembira...tidak berpura2
cuma aku tidak mahu kamu terus hanyut..

regards, thefullofsin



*kamu...jangan jadi jenny.hanyut bersama marina.bila marina dah tiada lagi, she fuck her life so hard~maybe kamu tak sebodoh itu..tapi aku rasa bagaikan ada "moral obligation tu remind u"

i have put my word nicely to u before..tapi u dun realise it.sorry for the harsh words that i've thrown to u.yes the scars remain.OUR scars remain..

i really concern about u..[mesti kamu nak muntah baca ayat ni kan] tapi begitulah hakikatnya. mungkin caraku sama sekali salah.tapi aku da mati akal.bagaimana caranya untuk menarik kamu kembali kepada kamu yang ASAL~

jujurnya..aku kurang mengenali kamu yang ASAL..tetapi..rakan2 lain yang lebih mengetahui, banyak menegur sikapmu..they even surprise that u've change.but me??totally blur...sb aku tak kenal bagaimanakah kamu yang dulu sebenarnya.

dan aku..rasa bersalah menebal dalam diri ini tatkala ada yang mengutarakan kata2 "sejak dia rapat dengan ko habih rosak."maybe u cant remember this but i once said that the rule is this game is always for fun and be on top of the game.but it looks like u take it seriously.

aku yang hina dina ini menyusun sepoloh jari yang kotor ini memohon maaf atas kekasaran yang telah dilakukan.

Forgive Me by Evanescene

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I thought that I would die
It hurts so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret, I cry "I don't wanna lose you!"
But some how I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Some how I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry..

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you










Tuesday, March 17, 2009

perlukah??

perlukah jadi bodoh??TAK PERLU....rugi je belajar pandai2 tapi jadi bodoh! orang kampung yang sekolah pondok pon nak jadi pandai.maka jangan la jadi bodoh... [bodoh lagi pandai~]

pandai dalam study tak semestinya pandai dalam kehidupan, bodo dalam pelajaran tak semestinya bodo dalam kehidupan.

pandai dlm kehidupan lagi penting dari pandai dalam pelajaran...

belajar pandai2 tapi tak tau mana baik mana buruk dalam kehidupan lagi baik tak yah hidup..pergilah kamu mati dengan kepandaian kamu dalam pelajaran dan kegagalan kamu dalam kehidupan.

kegagalan dalam kehidupan tidak akan selama2nya..tetapi jika kita tidak sedar atau buat2 tak sedar atas kegagalan itu, kita akan tetap mengulanginya.mungkin kita tak terpikir pon bahawa apa yang berlaku itu adalah kegagalan dan kebodohan dalam kehidupan.

bila nafsu menguasai diri, cinta mengaburi mata, hati menutup fikiran dunia luar seakan2 tidak bermakna lagi pada diri mereka yang hati dan matanya telah buta..buta akibat terlalu asyik dengan chenta doniawi...

kemanakah penghujungnya chenta dan kebodohan ini???

chenta doniawi tidak akan membawa kita kemana2...mustahil ke sorga, tinggi kebarangkaliannya ke neraka..

chenta....membuat manusia jadi bodoh..bukan buta tetapi bodoh.

chenta yang wujud atas dasar terdesak dan tiada pilihan bukanlah chenta yang sebenarnya..

perlukah chenta begini???

chenta atas dasar terdesak dikatakan inilah pilihan ku..

tidak perlu menjadi orang yang terdesak dalam membuat pilihan.pilihan sentiasa ada..segalanya ditangan kita...tak perlu tergesa2..

tak mati tanpa chenta doniawi kerna chenta doniawi lebih banyak pahitnya dari manisnya.

fine by bunkface

why is it everytime i try
it always comes back as a lie
i could believe in the words that you say to me
but lately i think i wont agree

what makes the world go by
if you cannot crush my life

what holds you up so high
when you want it all the time

(C/O)
COZ WE WILL BE FINE
IN MATTER OF TIME
SUBJECT TO MY MIND
AS WERE CROSSING THE LINE

DIRECTIONS TO SEE
PERFECTION TO BE
A PAIN OF A KIND
ALWAYS CRASHING ON ME

SUFFERCATE, TIME, MATTER I..LL BE FINE
TODAY

and the days they go on and on
as all the time im all alone
it never pays me to say that im not ok
but you still have time to make fun of me

what makes the world go by
if u cannot crush my life

what holds you up so high
when you want it all the time

(C/O)

and i dont believe
in time we will see
a pain of a kind
always crashing on me

suffercate, time, matter i..ll be fine

today……….

**sory la aku mengarut..=p



Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Change

people change..

they might be change physically OR mentally [attitude]

this kind of things happen in every person..

but..if the person change DRASTICALLY, it calls CULTURE SHOCK!!!

i've known person who changes all of sudden..

but y this happen??are they just come out from the box OR;

there's a catalyst that help them to change??

people change from bad to good and also it can be good to bad.

i suddenly remember one of my friends during my secondary school.

at that time, she really a boyish girl who love to hua hua [just a lil bit diff from me]

but now, she really girlish and being kinda religious..wo0o0ow!!thats good for her.

i also have some friends that before this, they really a nice and totally innocent girl.

but now...i'm not so happy seeing their new way of life..

they has been to0 excited with their LIFE..i wish i could tell them that they shudn't be like that.

they better to stay who they are..they just being hypocrite to people around them.

people might think that they really nice and sweet..even their parents!!

so saaadddd...i cant imagine IF their parents know what their daughter turn into~

i'm not saying that i'm good..[daaa~~]baiklaaa sangat.

but i totally grateful that i dont suffer from this culture shock syndrome..

sometimes i think they being like this because, they are STUPID!!

they tend to follow what people around them do..hellooo getta life!

why being soo stupid by following what other people do??

doesn't mean that ur friend wearing 5 inches of make up then u need to do it also..

and doesnt mean ur friends wearing handbag cost 5k then u need to wear it too..

i think it could be the catalyst.MAYBE before this they only closed to person that "Alhamdullillah" OR "they have parents that expect them to be USTAZAH"..so they cant really do what they want to do..

and now...they can do whatever they want to do because, they have new person around them which is maybe a bit "notty" OR they are AWAY from their parents.
.'. FREEDOOOMM~


hurm..pity those culture shock victim.hope they realise their mistake quickly...

o ya...my baby is back..and he also had change..he change a lot!!

well..it will be a new journey between us..=)


word of wisdom
people that suffer culture shock is STUPID and CHILDISH cuz they dunno HOW to build up THEIR LIFE!!

song for the effing culture shocker!

Friend of Mine by Lily Allen

I don't want us to have a fight,
But in the background I can hear you chatting shit,
I hear it every night.
And you think you're being really cool,
You've been doing it since we were both at school,
Now who looks like a fool.

[Chorus]
You're no friend of mine girl
And I've known it for a while girl,
You're just a waste of time girl
Why don't you have another line girl.

Hook
Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck.
[x2]

What happened to the good old days?
I was kinda hoping this was all a stupid phase
Who are you anyway?
I know you've heard this all before
I know some people who are calling you a whore
Don't know you anymore

[Chorus]
You're no friend of mine girl
And I've known it for a while girl,
You're just a waste of time girl
Why don't you have another line girl.

Hook
Tell me what did you expect?
Have you got no self respect?
Reputation to protect?
Soon you'll be a nervous wreck.
[x4]








Friday, March 6, 2009

my darling is dying

uwaaaaaaaaa~~

giler sedeyh siaaaal..

skang ni baby aku berada di clinic semulaa..

ari tu senin bro tu kate okay..

da bawak balik selasa malam die kong terosss..

elok sangaaaattt la time aku tgh sebok wat keja kaaan...

frust i tawww...nyaris aku tak campak ke bawah je baby ku itu..

nape la dn baby aku niyh...da tak sayang aku lagi ke??? [ouh tolongg la jangaaan]

skang ni aku terpaksa pinjam baby cik rima..

skang ni aku maseh sedeyhh mengenangkan kesihatan baby aku tuh..

harapnye2 tak de la ape2 belaku..

for you baby, plsss jangan la tinggalkan i...gonna miss u a lott!!!!

i really cant live without u baby~~

this song is for you..my dear baby

Tanpa by 6ixth Sense

Resah yang ku ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti

Meski pagi itu indah
Tapi akan sunyi tanpamu
Menemani...aku sepi

Tanpa...Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa...Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa....Dirimu aku mati 

Tanpa...Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa...Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa....Dirimu aku mati 

Kini benar benar kurasakan
Dalam relung hatiku tanpamu
Aku tak mengerti

Takut aku jauh dari dirimu
Dan kau tinggalkan aku sendiri
Tanpa mu ku mati

Resah yang ku ungkap dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti

Tanpa...Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa...Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa....Dirimu aku mati