Tuesday, October 23, 2012

the day I lost my love


23.10.2012 / 9.00 am

I was rushing to court. And my love is missing in action. I'm searching for my love. I try my best to find my love but my love is nowhere to be found.

I lost control. Sad, frustrated, upset, angry. where is my love?

Since I was rushing to court, I need to forget bout my love for awhile. But of course I can't concentrate on my driving. I kept thinking bout my love. What happened to my love. All the negative presumptions running through my mind.

Back from court, I try for another luck. But it seems like luck is not on my side today. Still my love is missing, unsearchable. I went to my room, get a  nescafe ice cool just to reduce my sorrowfulness. 

I'm going to office with my sadness face. Obviously I can't live without my love. I feel uncomfortable without my love with me. During lunch break, I once again try my best to find my love. still unlucky. I try to think positive. I convince my heart that I will meet my love this evening.

Back from the office, still not giving up, with full of hope, I'm searching for my love everywhere. Negative. It is hard for me to let go my love. To actually moving on and find a new love. But, if this is a faith that my relationship with my love end here, I accept. 

Still... deep inside, I wish, I can find my love and back together again. To find a replacement for my love is something that may take months or years. I am a choosy person. Once I fall in love, it is impossible to just forget and move on. Every thing will not be the same again without my love.

My love, I wish I can meet you again back together again. If not, may you Rest in Peace. Sigh.......


Losing You by Dead by April

What I have in me,
in my mind is you

(I would die if we were through)

What I'm feeling now,
what I´m heading into

(I am lost in pain without you)

(So cold, so alone)

All I have is you
It is all that I`m breathing for
All I need is you

(Now I can't make it through)

All the nights I've prayed,
must this all be untrue?

(I am unprepared to be strong)

I just can't believe 
I am losing you

(Unprepared to carry on)
(I can't see you walk away)

(So cold, so alone)

All I have is you
It is all that I´m *breathing* for
All I need is you

(Now I can't make it through)

I am losing you forever

(I am lost in pain without you)

I am leaving ground forever (Forever, forever)

(Distant, so far, destiny is selecting me)
(I can't be strong, life is disconnecting me)

(Now)
(Loneliness infecting me) 
(Gone are the days you were there protecting me)

(So cold, so alone)

All I have is you
It is all that I´m breathing for
All I need is you

(Now I can't make it through)

I am losing you forever

(I am lost in pain without you)

I am leaving ground forever (Forever)


All I have is you

(It is all that I´m breathing for)

All I need is you

(Now I can't make it through)

It is all that I'm breathing for, (breathing for, breathing for), (breathing for, breathing for, breathing for)