Thursday, August 22, 2013

All is well

Today, I'm free from any emotion instability. The key words to get out from this unwanted feeling is to keep calm and move on.

It will not be easy at all. but all you need to do is to be super saiyan strong and do not let any negative thinking take over your mind. You must believe in yourself that you're stronger than the negative emotion. You can kill the emotion and that fucking emotion is just one stupid bastard bitch.

Once you move on, everything happens to be easy and positive. At that time, you will love you more than before and appreciate people around you who never ever give up on you. Who always cares and loves you unconditionally.

Last but not least, life's too short to be wasted. Enjoy every moment of it and always look on a positive side.


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

I don't love you

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out while you can

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating

But baby when they knock you down and out
It's where you oughta stay
Well after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up while you can, whoa whoa
When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Well come on, come on!

When you go would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday

Monday, August 19, 2013

My heart skips a beat


There's a lot of reasons to be depressed.

Maybe someone hurts you. or maybe because you had hurt someone so badly that may cause unpleasant feeling to that someone. both way may cause depression.

You know that you're depressed when your heart beats fast. The beats are faster than after you had a 2 km jogathon. Even faster than when you saw your crush across the road. The heart beats too fast that it hurts your chest. Everytime you bend your body a bit, your chest feels like narrowing down and about to broken. It hurts too much that it is actually incomparable to any other feelings than being depress.

To make it even worst, depression may come together with a terrible headache. Just imagine that you're carrying 20kg burden on your head all the time. yea.. That's the feeling. You cant even move your head. When you try to turn your head and your body, You may feel like you're just awake from a week of bedridden. Never feel how difficult to move your body after a week of bedridden? well, i did. and.. It's pain. It pains a lot.

This is what i feel now. Depress.


"I'm scared."

"Scared of what?"

"Scared of losing you"

"I'm not going anywhere"

"But I'm scared of losing your love not your body."


I don't mind if i don't get a chance to see you everyday, but I mind if your heart once turn around and leave me.

Sunday, August 18, 2013

The happy ending

Happy ending is when all the character in the film are happy and satisfied with the situation including the antagonist character. At the end, the antagonist with full heart willing to let go the hero and heroin for them to live together happily ever after.

The antagonist will feel totally content with the situation without even a pinch of hatred, upset and dissatisfaction because the antagonist know that it is not worth fighting for when the love force between both the hero and heroin are just too strong and beyond their capabilities to destruct the love.

The love bonding between the hero and heroin is untie-able. The untie-able love bonding happens when two hearts are very certain with what they want in life and they know that this is worth to die for. Not to fighting for, but to die for. If the love force is only strong at one part while the other part is still in doubt, the love bonding is fragile and can be easily demolish.

When we are talking about love story, it must always be two person dancing tango. Just as love. It takes two hearts to create love relationship. By taking tango as an example, the dancing will be perfectly perform if both of the dancers know how to tango and love to tango. If only one dancer love and able to tango in a perfect way, it is still a tango but not a perfect tango.

So does love. You need a love partner who love you and happy being with you. If you're in relationship but only one part play an active role, and another part is merely follow and not contributing, it is still love but not a perfect love.

But heyyyy, my daddy always advice me that practice makes perfect. If you practice to tango everyday, you will be a great tango dancer just as your tango partner. and so does love. if you willing to open your heart and appreciate your lover in her/his bad or good time, willing to devote yourself and time for your lover.. one day.. eventually it will be a perfect love.a never ending love.

trust me. rab ne bana di jodi - match made in heaven.

if he/she meant for you, i believe all the creature in the world will help you to ensure that you are able to have your own happy ending story.

Happy one year yaobo.