Wednesday, September 29, 2010

is this the end?

i save my blog for quite a long time to wait for this moment. to write up about the day that i will walk away left Multimedia University.

i just finished my very last paper today and i highly hope that i will pass all the 7 subjects. the feelings are so mixed up now. it does not seem be the happiest moment but why i should be sad when it's over? it is something that what i waiting for all this while.

after all, what i'm thinking is the precious moment that i've got with my fellow "better than the best" friends.


it's started up so weird. when i know no one here. my first friend in MMU is Freda. i met her during we want to register course. and yeah we talk to a each other and found that we're on the same track.

next person that i met was Sue. one drop dead gorgeous lady. i went for a lunch with her and freda before we want to our first class. she's very kind and cute :D and the first time i saw her, i really thought she's a chinese.

next, when i went up to the class, i say a guy sitting at the wall with sleepy face. my first thought of that guy is "eh mcm abang la dia ni." not that his face like my brother but his style is not much differ than my brother. as we enter to the class, during the ice-breaking, i came to know that this guy name is faisal. this the "look alike brother" boy is at first looks so snobbish that i cant stand him. he only reply a word everytime i ask him question. i hate him. haha. then, we became closer went we're in the same group for philosophy and actually he's sooo much talkative that what i' thinking.

then i came to know other's friend like keat, which confused his name with eng lian. i still remember that keat said his friends said he supposed to take law as he loves to talk. *if i'm not mistaken*then i know chiam, as she talks a lot in class and of courseeeeeeeeeee andrew. haha. the big guy with a tag line ketandusan kasih sayang.

as class started i've mingle with all my classmates. there are only forty of us if i'm not mistaken and it's not hard to be friend with everyone.

after about 2 months in mmu, i'm closed to redza. he's one funny guy that i met. and we can talked for hours. he's a good friend of mine that always helps me during exam :) after that, i closed to rima as she's redza's sista. hehe. rima is one funny and easy going girl that i know. we enjoy doing stupid things together :)

and the listtsssss of friends goes on like
jing en, doreen, hasnur, intan, tan, sahana, jing jau, winnie, vageetha etc.

(sorry if i miss out any names. 2006 is just my beginning)

i still remember the business project of car wash. how helpfull we all when everyone came and helps to wash cars. we're one. and we enjoy helping each other.

the english drama also was unforgettable. it is certain that we PL40 are so talented and we're better that the real actor/actress. we sing, we dance, we do jokes. i miss those time :)


the're nothing change with me. i do enjoy with my fellow friends. they're just crazy as i am. during this time, i getting closer to intan since she's rima's best friend. so indirectly i close to her because we do go lunch together. me and intan always be a person that wants to slim down. we went to gym sometimes and we joint aerobics club.hehe.

aih..i hardly remember what happen in 2007. seems like i'm mentally tired and it's hard for me to remember things that happen three years back.

what i can remember is at this time, i always went out chill with rima, redza and andrew. and by this time, i also had mingled with people beside my classmate such as my roomates which both of them are married, one had just deliver a baby girl on end of july :)

afta all, 2007 just went well and my friendship with my friends are getting stronger day by day.


i could say that 2008 is one of my best year as i've been very good in studied. when i refer back to my 2008's notes, it's so neat, my handwriting are so finedd and i do study hard. hehe.

i dunno what spirit that had possessed me at that time. ouh in 2008, i've become sue's roomate and it just made our friendship getting stronger. i think she's my best roomate :D

during 2008, i also became closed to nik. the smallest classmate i think.haha. we always went for dinner together at kedai kuning and talk for long hours. we also do stupid things sometimes like skipping class and went to saloon to dyed hair and just for the sake of lazy.

ouh..i met my crush in mmu!!haha. but afta just a crush.hurmmmm.


i think 2009 is my worst year. in terms of study to be exact. haha. i always lost in class. you may check my 2009 posts and i'm such a person that emotionally unstable.

maybe because i feel lonely staying alone at ep. haih. i still remember the fucked up feelings. i thing i want to skip this awful year. fuck 2009!!!


so much better year for me. thank God. this year i have so much fun. this is my final year and only in this year i'm getting closer to my other classmates like jing en, doreen, jing jau and hasnur. thanks God i moved to ixora. if not i'll be dead alone in ep!

hasnur - is my PA when i need mcD. in the middle of the night when my stomach sing some awful song, i will just call hasnur and said "ano lapa" and of cos she will reply "u nak order apa?" she undertstand me already.

jing jau - i enjoy went shopping with her. she's one shopaholic that i know. and she's a picky too. she's always spend a lot of time in choosing stuff and thinking whether to buy it or not. she's also is one of funny friend that i have especially when she try to speak a proper malay. it's ok jing jau..ur bahasa is much better than hasnur!!

jing en - i think jing en is eng keat female version.haha. they forms such a great love relationship. both are funny and loves to talk crap. and i do enjoy listen to their jokes. i found jing en to be very enthuasiastic in what's she's doing. she also is a very kind friend that love to send encouragement msg during everyone are stress out for exam.

doreen - she's smart but can be blur sometimes. haha. doreen is such a very helpful friend. i still remember that she help me and freda to print the bundles for mooting. her kindness are so much appreciated.

after all, in 2010, my best friends during alpha are still my best friends now plus with new best friends that always support me, make me laugh and always there for me.

friends...i'm not sure if this is the end. i highly hope, the friendship last forever. hopefully we can still chill enjoy high tea after mentally exhausted at the office. i pray that we will forever keep in touch.

i really want to dedicate this song to all of you when the time come. and now, it's the time. and this song specially dedicated to all of you. :)

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


people around us can never understand why there's thing that is so meaningful to us.

when i said that i lost my baju kurung. the very first expression that people may say is 'haha~!!how can that be?''s a sad case. people will never understand how meaningful that baju kurung for me and how it has lots of sentimental value in it.

it also is the same case where i lost my most loyal boyfie - Abu (my pc). people hardly understand why i've been totally sad and lost when my pc was complete dump. they didn't know how much my pc means for me. some may call me crazy for giving name to my pc :D

or as example of serious case, where people can never understand why we still fight to be with someone that we love. they may say that we are crazy or they may say that we can find someone else. but the issue is not about there is someone else, but it is a matter of meaningful.

and maybe people will said that we're crazy for still using old school hp when ppl around are using touch screen hp, qwerty keyboard hp, but i'm still using my old nokia silde hp that i've bought in 2006. the reason is meaningful.

last but not least, song. some songs it may sound very meaningful to me, but for my friend, it such a lame song with very poor of musik arrangement. *whatever*

obviously, people can never understand or actually know things that are meaningful for us. maybe it's our duty to tell people around us that these are the things that are meaningful to us.

this post is tribute to my lost meaningful baju kurung :(


Dikau pernah berkata
Akulah segalanya
Tanpaku tak mungkin kau bahagia

Namun di sebaliknya
Setelah ku percaya
Kau bersikap dinginku terpinga

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Dengan sepenuh cinta
Daku tanam di dada
Dengan harapan terbina istana

Apakah di mindamu
Mengapa kau membisu
Hanya katakan kau masih menyinta

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Daku tak mengerti
Mengapa kau bersikap sebegitu
Kau tahu hatiku
Betapa penuh di dada menyintamu

Ku masih tidak mengerti
Ke manakah hilangnya cintamu
Jiwaku resah dan sepi
Andainya kau pergi

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Friday, September 3, 2010

an inspirational letter to a friend

Dear friend,

when things go fucked up, pls remember that

..i'm here to wipe your tears.
..i'm here to make you laugh.
..i'm here to lend my shoulder.
..i'm here to listen to your deepest word.
..i'm here to hear your young and stupid story.
..i'm here to turn the lemonade into caramel.
..i'm here to make you feel better.

all i need from you is to be strong and just ignore all those NONSENSE!! and MOVE ON~! it is normal to have a long period of emotional unstable, i understand that. i FULLY understand that~~! you can cry..cry as much as you want, you can curse as much as you want, you can shout out loud.

but please never let yourself lose to this fucked up things. this is not the end. let's take it as one of precious experienced and just lets call it lesson learned :D

remember, you still have parents and family that always support you and your friends to cheer you up. you're still young to be this sad!!

dun worry dude, there's a plenty of fish in the water. *huggssssss*

Love Hurt by Incubus

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
I don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still as a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I'won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive