delta year~~

tomorrow~~

is a new beginning. new war. i beg it will be very tough war.very challenging.

with my unstable life and emotion, it will be more obstacles than what it shud be.

i dunno y~~i start my new year with unstable life and i really emotionally sick~~

sometimes i hate myself.but if i dun love myself, then who will right~

urghh~~i really dunno what happen to me...i feel like im dying inside.

a lot of things happen at the same time. all sad fuck up things. fuckkkk~

feel like want to cry..but i really forgot how to cry..

the only thing that really help me and inspired my life back is MUSIK.

i'm glad, i love musik. if i love people, i dunno whether they kno how to cheer me up.

just for fun, i paste the horoscope of me here.

Cancer Horoscope 2009
(22nd June to 23rd July)

Cancer are sensitive, changeable and fluctuating making Cancer moody, so be careful, try to maintain balance. Cancer are oversensitive and remain brooding for hours when someone hurts Cancer. Cancer have strong emotional nature and are romantic and have fluctuating nature. Cancer will love deeply when admired. Cancer are interested to have small sums of money than large ones. Cancer will accumulate wealth through hard work. A good husband or wife are born in Cancer, sincere and caring and sacrifice all for their children.

Career Horoscope 2009 for Cancer
Cancer career horoscope 2009 will have a tough opposition with associates and difficulty in maintaining harmonious relationship with peers and superior can give you stress. However, do not lose heart as the situation would improve soon. Those in business would see fairly good results, but extraordinary success can come with a lot of hard work. You will have a better income from your part-time jobs. Time is right to make the first move profitable deals and spread business.


Love Horoscope 2009 for Cancer
Cancer have some tensions with your beloved, which could even result in major fights and misgivings. It is only after August that the situation would change and you will get to hear some good news. Heavy emotional issues may bring dullness in your life but relationship with the spouse will fair better and there will be happiness in your love life. Unmarried couples may get married and experience the lovely mode of life. [lol...too young hokkay]

Most Compatible Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Capricorn
Most Incompatible Zodiac Signs: Aries, Cancer
Cancer Likes: Romance, Parties and Hobbies
Cancer Dislikes: Opposition, Arguments and Failures
Lucky Color : Golden Yellow
Lucky Month : April
Lucky Holiday Spot : Venice


Leo Horoscope 2009
(24th July to 23rd Aug)

Leo basic characteristic are expressive, forceful, dominant powers, grandeur, show, adventure and strong will power. Leo have definite desire and ability to control, organise and lead others rather to follow. Hard work is Leo key to success. Leo have plenty of hope and faith and not fall to fits of depression and hopelessness. Leo are loyal, sincere and frankly honest but others will hurt Leo often and try to take advantage of Leo. Leo will keep generally a good and fine health.

Career Horoscope 2009 for Leo
You will gain more revenue sources and huge success in your profession [highly hope..hehe], especially after June. Your confidence is par excellence and communication is very impressive to get success in each and every attempt. You need to work very hard to you¡¯re your things works. You will be honored for your outstanding performance from concerned authorities. Money will pour in from all the directions and boost your financial position [i wish its true...haha]. But be cautious of making investments in business in the first six months.

Love Horoscope 2009 for Leo
You may meet your dream partner this year and enter into a long-term relationship too [woww~~]. But you may have to fight things at home as they express disapproval for your relationship. You may talk to your spouse when in a dilemma and shrouded by various types of thoughts. Don't dramatize or allow your temper to explode in order to maintain a happy married life.

Most Compatible Zodiac Signs: Aries, Pisces
Most Incompatible Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Libra
Leo Likes: Drama, Lavishness and Children
Leo Dislikes: Boring routine, miser people and selfishness
Lucky Color : Earthy Browns
Lucky Month : May
Lucky Holiday Spot : Kerala

o ya~~dun confuse.i put both cancer and leo bcoz i fall under both since my bitrh date is 23rd. some horoscope show me as leo but some show me as cancer.so i usually read both.haha.kinda split identity right.

well...seem the horoscope really speaks what i feel.both leo and cancer just like me.demnn~

ok then..gotta go to sleep..daa~enjoy this song

I Hate This Part - Pussycat Dolls

We're driving slow through the snow
On Fifth Avenue
And right now radio's
All that we can hear

Man we ain't talked since we left
It's so overdue
It's cold outside
But between us it's worse in here

The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers
I don't want to try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'for we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

The world slows down but my heart beats fast right now
I know (I know) this is (this is) the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers
I don't want to try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers
I don't want to try now
All that's left's goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

But I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I hate this part

I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here....