i is back

finally...i have time to write here....i am too busy with my work. and i can feel that i am much2 more lifeless than before..huhu.

i start my work at 9 until 5.30. that was tired! on my first day i slept at 8.30pm.hahaha.damn tired! i didnt get enuf sleep during exam and only two days after exam, i need to start my legal attachment. it's such a mentally and bodily torture..T_T

howevaaaa~~[pronounce it like dr MZ] i still enjoy working. i feel so lucky to have such a cool boss and colleague. PLUS my boss ask me whether i want to be a lawyer in that firm..she ask me three times!!! and i take it as an invitation to treat an i already offer myself to be a lawyer in that firm. i hope, the firm will accept me. :D

after two weeks staying with my mom, i can feel that i gain weight.hahah.i cannot say no to mom's cook!though it's only a plain soup.... =D

ouh...starting last week, i learn how to drive back!!weee ho0ooo~~after 2 years i didnt drive, i really forgot how to change gear!hahaha.

another things to go is i'm gonna own a guitar!!yeay..but its too optional :( my mom said that i only can buy a guitar if the firm give me allowance.thats the prob..i hv no idea bout it. hopefully they give me some allowance so i can hv a guitar and learn to play it. but i still uncertain with this idea to learn guitar. im worry if i just learn it for a while and give up..heheh.

okay i'm gotta stop here.i'm off to sleep cuz i'm working tomorow!!gosh!it's saturday. sometimes i wonder how my mom's feel when she work before....didnt she feel bored with work????its like u're doing the same thing everyday and u have no choice but to do it...sigh~~~

okay laaa...enjoy this song!

unintended by muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

no.more.malacca.

yeaayyy~~~aku gembiraaaa...buat perhatian semua, kelibat aku tidak akan kelihatan di bandar heritage melaka mulai esok sehinggalaaaaahhh bulan 1 2010 dan kelibat aku akan kelihatan di royal town kuale kangsar sekitar bas station dan pasaraya sakan yek. juga mungkin di gym di sebelah malam dan di sekitar lembah di dini hari. kalo ade sesape ternampak kelibat aku di malaka, tu maknanya tak laaaamaaa la tu.hahaha

aku sangaaat teramatlaaah gembira tidak terkataaaa.inilaaah masa yang ditunggu2.....enuff of exams and ASS-ignmentss! though there's something that more challenging awaits for me in kuale, i'm fine with it! i just need to stay away from malacca for a while. as long as i'm wif my mom, everything will be perfect!

ouh. afta in a battle for four fucking day, i seriously suffer hardship to breath! yea.yea. to breath. saketnye nauzubilliaaaahhh.rasa macam kene hempap dengan besi ka, konkrit ka...and my heart beat so fast oke!macam baru lepas lari pecut setelah dikejar anjing gilaaa.rasanyaaa balik ni nak gi klinik laaa.nak tanye dokter nape laaa dada aku sakit sangat niiiii. mesti jawapan dokter tu

"ouh kamu ni stress.tak cukop rehat ni..banyakkan berehat yek. jangan skip meal jugak. breakfast penting. ni mungkin sebab angin kot. takpe2. saya bagi ubat angin yek.lagi ada apa2 sakit lagi. kalau takde okay.bleyh kuar." di kaunter." erm ni ubat untuk sakit kepala [pain killer], ni ubat angin dan yang ni muscle relaxant.sume sekali 30 hengget.bayar sekarang sebab kamu takde insuran" itulaaa ayat stendet biler pegi klinikkk.buang duit je. setakat bg nasehat camtu cekgu tadika pon boleyh. cuba la bagi explaination yang meyakinkan sekeytt. cakap la...

"ouh kamu ni tak cukup oksigen ni. tu yang sakeyt dada tu..jantung tu degup laju sebab nak pam oksigen yg ada secepat mungkin. kalau kamu sakit dada macam tu kamu ambil plastik dan bernafas dalam plastik tu. itu la cara paling mudah untuk kurangkan saket dada. tak cukup oksigen ni bahaya. kalo oksigen tak sampai otak buleyh mati!"

kalau dokter cakap macam ni at least terasa gak la yang aku ni memang sakeyt. sampai tahap bleyh mati. ni setakat kate stress la angin laa...takyah la jumpe dokter.mak aku pon tau sume tu.

okaylaa cukup la mengumpat dokter.hahaha.

ni nak story skeyt...

dikala exam, buat sekelian kalinyaaaa..aku menangihhh!menangihhh sampai keluar hinguih... sebab aku stress!! da la kepala sakeyt.dada sakeyt.pastu kena paksa diri setadi...sampai at one point, ilang segala kebaiii...lalu mengalirlaaah ayaq mata membasahi pipi, juga baju, juga bantal dan notes....

tak pernah aku se-stress ni!haih~~~ni baru third year.kalo fourth year ntah macam mane laaa...tapi satu je aku mintaaakk.jangaaan la buat keja gila letak exam 4 hari berturut. ni dah kire torture da ni.ghasa macam nak pi lari kedutaan turki daa~

lagi satu~~~~~~mesti aku rindu kat GP..haha.da la nak nampak dia pon susah...ni da jauh....laaaagi la tak nampakkkkk..hehe.

neway, fyi aku akan prektikel 3 bulan.hehehe. walopon neves, tp excited balik kuale mengatasi segalanyaaaa~ tatapi...sedeyh tu ada laaa jugaak.. mesti nanti aku rindu dengan kengkawaannn. huhu.tahun depan la baru jumpe balik mereka2. kepada kawan2 seangkatan...selalu2 ber-fb-ing dan selalu2 la online yek... sob..sob..

ok laaa...aku nak gi packing barang....ntah cukup bag ke tak ni...banyak tu nak kena bawak balik....ni kalo tak cukup ni terpaksa la aku bungkuih gune selimut ala2 faisal rosli. hehe. okayyy sume....see you guys next time. next post maybe tentang experience berkerja aku..hehe. kome layan le lagu ni....

Pergi Untuk Kembali by Ello

Syu Du Du 2x
Walaupun langit pada malam itu
Bermandikan cahaya bintang
Bulanpun bersinar betapa indahnya
Namun menambah kepedihan...oooh...

Ku akan pergi meninggalkan dirimu
Menyusuri liku hidupku
Janganlah kau bimbang
dan janganlah kau ragu
Berikanlah senyuman padaku...

Selamat tinggal kasih
sampai kita jumpa lagi
Aku pergi...Takkan lama..
Hanya sekejap saja ku akan kembali lagi
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti

Ku akan pergi meninggalkan dirimu
Menyusuri liku hidupku
Janganlah kau bimbang
dan janganlah kau ragu
Berikanlah senyuman padaku...

Selamat tinggal kasih
sampai kita jumpa lagi
Aku pergi...Takkan lama..
Hanya sekejap saja ku akan kembali lagi
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti

Syu Du Du 2x
Aku pergi...
Takkan lama..
Syu Du Du 2x
No, No no Ou.. Oh no
Menanti
Asalkan Engkau tetap menanti
Asalkan Engkau tetap menanti.......
Menanti.....................

suicidal!!!!!!

arghhhhh!!!!never been this stress before! stress!stress!stress!

i dun get it.i dun understand!
how the ERU as well as the lecturers can approved the effing exam schedule!
heloooooo!!!this is a third year law degree final exam!
it such a ridiculous when you put all subjects in a row!!
whatdaya expect from students?????
we are like forcing our brain to absorb all the principle, and all sorts of cases!
u guys shud be a bit moderate!
give us some space AT LEAST a day.
or maybe two subject in a row then break for one day and another two subject after that..
i would be fine with it.

giving three days break and then i would be in a battle for four days is not helpful!
plus i'll finished my third exam in evening and the next day my exam at 9 a.m!

hope God give me lots of strength to go thru this!
i reallyy is SOS condition~

Drive by Client

Down down the backstreet
And you know I can't stop searching
I'm running from the nightmares
But I just can't stop the hurting
I feel like a loser
'Cause you won't god forgive me
I'll show I'm only human
Face the long dark road alone

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
Night driving on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

Another endless evening
Chasing shadows in the darkness
Impossible to silence
Have to face myself alone

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
Night driving on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
White lines on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive
Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive
Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive
Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
Night driving on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
White lines on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

I'm alive, I'm alive
Driving through the endless night
Guiding me your blinding light
Driving through the endless night
Guiding me your blinding light

Fight the pain, fight the pain
Fight the pain, fight the pain
It's in my soul, behind the wheel
Don't let go, don't let go
Fight the pain, fight the pain
Fight the pain, fight the pain
I'm alive, I'm alive

ntah hape2 ntah

oppp!!oppp!!haroo0ooo~~~~

hari ni aku nak meluahkan perasaan sikit.bukanlaa nak berpiling2, tapi nak menceritakan laaa tentang seswatu.hehehe..

kesah nye macam ni....aku ni saje berpoya2 kat fb.lalu ternampak seseorang punye profile kat page megan fox..lalu aku pon menengoknye. kendian da aku belek2 profile tu aku peghati "someone" important takde dalam friendlist orang ni.

pastu aku bagi le link profile tu kakak aku, kakak aku pon tengok le....dan kakak aku nampak le someone yang aku tak nampak tu..macam pelik laa.nape kat aku takde.pastu kakak aku bagi link profile someone tu kt aku. tp bile aku klik je terus direct ke home page.

lalu aku pon inbestiget. selesei inbestiget gho0o0o0openye..............................someone tu block aku dalam fb!! padan le aku tgk takde.kakak aku tengok ada.

jadi issue yang nak diketengahkan adalaaah...peghangei tak cukop umor someone tu. biorle aku panggey die BITCH. sedap sekeyt name.

ko nak ber-fb silekan le.takyah le nak block2 orang dalam fb. childish gile. hek eleh igt aku kebulor sangat ke nak nyebok kat fb ko...poyo nak mamposss. selame ni pon aku lepak fs, ko yang selalu nyebok kat fs aku. ntah mane datang tetibe view.muke tak tau malu. dah view lepaih tu kate aku plak kaco ko. heh~ bawok2 le sedor diri.kome tu umor da lanjut. da berlaki pon. tak yah le wat peghangey orang tak beghakei.

macam le aku ni takde keje lain.nak ngekor [bahse omputeh - stalk] kome aje.banyak lagi mende lain aku bleyh buat. main restaurant city lagi best lar!

lagi satu, cukup la ko private page engko tu kalo ko takot sangat aku ni nengok. selame ni pon tak peghonah aku sebok nak cari2 ko dalam fb. aku jumpe pon sebab aku ternampak muka laki ko kat page megan fox. means selame hari ni ko le yang sebok2 cari aku kt fb. biler da jumpe teros block. hahahah. fucking freak!!!

kalo aku laaa...kalo aku da benci tahap longkang kat someone, aku takde teghingin nak tau ape2 pasei org tu. yang ko ni kononnye benci nak mampos kat aku ni boleyh plak cari aku dalam fb. aku pon tak tau le bile yang ko block aku. pasei selame ni aku tak peghonah tau kewujudan ko kat fb. haha. kesiaaaaaan. ntah2 bile nampak je profile aku mesti teros gelabah biawak. tu yang teross block tu. perasaaaan le tu kononnye nnt aku stalk ko kat fb.



kepada BITCH,

getta life. ko ada laki, ko ada keje, ko ader unfinished master. so tak yah la nak sebok2 pasal aku. tolong laaaa bawak2 move on. it's almost two years since all the stupid dramas. tak reti bahse letih ke??? orang lain sebok nak bersedara ko plak sebok nak bergadoh. sebok nak kesah hal sekufu~ kampong nak mampos. kalo nak kire sekufu, ko tu memang langsung tak bersekufu dengan aku..tapi ade aku kesahh??tak peghonah terpikir pn aku hal sekufu sume nii~pada aku kalo da sedara, miskin ke kaya ke burok ke busuk ke tetap sedara. tapi species manusia macam ko ni memang tak rugi pon ilang sedara. wat malu je ade sedara macam ni.

i'd rather have thousands of enemy than having you as my cousin.

21 Guns by Green Day

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I