my greatest drugs!!!

1. my pc!!

- obviously i cant live without my pc. i'll feel something missing in my life if i dont use it for one day. and i'm gonna miss it like crazy when i'm goin' back to my hometown.

2 my musik

- i feel incomplete if i dont listen to my playlist for a day. i'm gonna miss it so0o bad. and i only enjoy listening to the musik i love thru my pc. dun ask me why cuz idk~ =]

3. apo?

- yeah for this greatest medicine i need to credited to my sis as she the one that introduce me to this wonderful magazine or comic?i think apo? is both comic and magazine. =) apo? always be the best medicine when i am emotionally unstable.

4. nescafe ice - must be the deep chill sensation manufactured by nestle.

- i love this drink from alpha. yea its taste do helps me to chill. and i will drink it when i need to stay up and study or just to feel good. basically apo? and nescafe ice have the same function and effect.

5. bed

- this is the last resort when all of the above are not working. the best things to do is lying on my bed and sleeep!!!


drugs which i wish to own.

1. punching bag!

- i love punching bag!!!! and i really want it so that when i'm stress, i can punch it like hell!!

2. guitar

- since i love musik. and one of my favourite instrument is guitar, so i wish to own a guitar. but...for now, it still pending until further notice. my mom not allowed me to own a guitar untilll i completed my studyyy. y lar maaakkkk?? :'(


yea for now that's all my greatest drugs. and now i am enjoying my self with all of them. pc, musik, apo?, nescafe and bed. punching bag and guitar are coming sooonn.hahaha.

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched, helpless
As she turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go...

the lots of things!!!

homaigod!!it's been a long time i didnt wrote here.

it's not that i have nothing to share. but it just me that so damn effing busy. i have tonnessss of things to do.

and here is the list.

1. assignments
2. mid terms
3. mooting
4. law night
5. shopping [as it related to law night]
6. yea most of the time MOOTING!!


up till now...i still hv 3 assignments to go, 1 mid term, law night is coming this friday and i've done with my fucking mooting and soo does shopping.

ermm the shopping...i'm not so sure if i'm done.hahahaha. i'm thinking of buying some accessories but i'm not a person that loves them. they are just for the sake of law night. so0o i'm not sure bout that.hehe.

the mooting. yea i've done it!!completely done!!and as usual we lost!!hahaha. i dont care and i dont want to care. whatever sir "locus standi". i kno u loves so much locus standi until u keep asking that. wish to see u one fine day :)

then what??nothing.

actually there's a lot of things that i would like to share..but i cant remember them. nvm. maybe next time.

ok laaa.i just drop by to update something.or else i forget my blog password.hehe.daaaaa~~

just now, i've this sentimental mode and been listening to this sad love song. to all readers, enjoy this song =)

That's Why You Go Away by Michael Learns To Rock

Baby won't you tell me
why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

all the good things!!

2009

i hate 2009.
i hate this year!!
i feel like someone cursing me soooo bad!
i need sugar to add into my life!!
my emotional is running so0o high like it just took lots of ice!!
obviously i am emotionally sick!
i am fucking restless and sick of exam!!
lots of issues and lots of dissatisfaction heart!
lots of relationship problem!

2010

yea it's a good beginning.
good long day.
my emotion is under control.
a bit upset but then being compensate with something that obviously unexpected!!
all those 2009's misery seem like gone already!!
everything is just going well.
lots of unexpected things happen!! and i ♥ it!!
create good relationships and the relationships are like strengthening day to day!!!!
being a good positive thinker with high self respect!!

* the list are up till march and i hope those good feelings will always with me until the end of this year and continue to the upcoming yearssssss.

no words can express how do i feel right now. i am content with all the good things!! thanks to ALLAH for all these goodness!

In Joy And Sorrow by HIM

Oh girl we are the same
we are young and lost and so afraid
there's no cure for the pain
no shelter from the rain
All our prayers seem to fail

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

Oh girl we are the same
we are strong and blessed and so brave
with souls to be saved and faith regained
all our tears wipe away

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
(And my home's in your arms)
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
(And it is breaking my heart)
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
(My home's in your arms)
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
(And it is breaking my heart)

in between

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?


whutta tough decision~~

Crushcrushcrush by Paramore

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this
Ohoh ohoh ohoh
Oooh...

after all the shits, hey look!! there's a flower!!

ermmm...[smiling, scratching head, thinking, blurring, smiling]

after all the unacceptable "judgment" that i've face before, it's totally unbelievable that me and my co-counsel make it to the next stage. i do happy and speechless..wondering how they calculating the marks..neway i've make it to top four over 44 group...wooo hooooooo~~

obviously i really feel like i'm dreaminggg! and it's kinda weird when all my friends congratulate me and my co-counsel miss freda :)

anyway the question is there,and it's the same question. hopefully i can do better than before.

at this moment, i really thankful to ALLAH for this good things. after all the shits happen to me, now i can smile. and with full heart i pray that all the good things will always with me.

ok ciao! i'm so speechless to say anything else. it just that i am so fucking happy!! *grinningggg*



*if only i could share this happy moment with u...*

Don't Dream It's Over by Sixpence None The Richer

There is freedom within, there is freedom without,
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup.
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost,
But you'll never see the end of the road,
While you're traveling with me.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
They come, they come,
To build a wall between us.
We know they won't win.

Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof.
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof.
In the paper today, tales of war and of waste,
But you turn right over to the T.V. page.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
They come, they come,
To build a wall between us.

We know they won't win.

- MUSIC INTERLUDE -

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum.
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart.
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof,
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
They come, they come,
To build a wall between us.
We know they won't win.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in...
Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now... [FADE OUT

speechless

pesal tuuu?
motif?
apsal ngengada sangaattt?
giler gedik.
perlu ke??
nape macam sgt seswatu??
ouh tak paham.
maseh tak paham.
perlu ke mcm tu?
eyh maseh nak tau motif?
pelik giler perangai.
eiii tak suke.
lagi skali memang gedik.
tak sukalaaahh.
ntah hape hape.


ouh oke aku menyampah.

Piano Song by Meiko

Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Jealous of the way they walk, the way the talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got
I'm jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When I just want to be the way we were

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Well, I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me

kalaaaahhh laahhh~~

last nite i was in this competition called mooting. frankly, i am content with my team preparation. we have strong cases to support and strong arguments as well. we compare and contrast everything. we even provide a strong provision to support the respondent.

however, we still lost the case.

actually the issue right now is not that i try to persuade people to agree with me that my team deserve to win. but the issue here is how the judge judging. i am a bit disappointed with the judge last nite. he only comments that the applicant present the case well while my team is a bit lack of confidence. and because of that my team had lose the case.

yes i am not ok with that call "judgment". if the presentation is all about and not the content of the presentation, then dun ever have the applicant and respondent. maybe a public speaking contest is the appropriate one instead of mooting.

i am not the only one that face the above situation, some of my friends also face the same thing. it's all about presentation. and it could be that the judge had already set in their mind that they are with applicants.

anyhu...what pass is pass. this competition really makes me realize that no matter how good is your submission, it's all depends on judge.

i'm still not happy with my first ever submission, cuz i know that my team deserve to win this case. maybe our presentation is not fluent as them but in terms of the submission content, i believe that my team had done well.

anywayyy...still congrats to the applicants!! yes i do agree with the judge that u guys had present the case well!

You know you're right by Nirvana

I will never bother you
I will never promise too
I will never follow you
I will never bother you

Never say a word again
I will crawl away for good

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!

You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Lets talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it'd come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail

Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!

You know you're right (x14)
You know your right (x3)
Pain...