why????

why all this happen to me??
a lot of unwanted creepy things happen
even something that i never ever think of
i really cant take it anymore

it's to0o0o hard for me
to swallow all this
is it karma plays fool with me??
or it just that it's a test for me
OMG.....
this test is beyond my competence

it's very stressfo0ol
i thought there's no more fucked up things happen
but...
it still have..
all this bad things really ruin my life

i want to get out of this messy
somebody plsss pull me off
from this messy probs

when all this bad lucks will end????
God's knows...

i dun kno what i had done..
but what i'm facing now
is just to0o0o badddd..

hope tomorrow will be a better day...

Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today,(backround singer)today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
yeah, it's a different day,
tomorrow,

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't

Give me a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow,tomorrow
its a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow... it may change [4x]

Gua Nak Gula!!!!

lalalala...

kepala gua saket mcm nak meletup..
somebody help me..
da lama gua tak rasa saket cam ni...
last gua saket cam ni was during alpha..

maka dengan itu,
gua suspect rabun dan silau mata gua da bertambah laa
spek yang ada skang ni da tak cukup power daa....

jadi gua rasa gua nak buat spek baru..
wahahhaa...
konpem gua mintak duit kat
abah gua yang terhebat itu..
asal mintak duit je tak penah tak bagi..
i love u abah!!
u're the best!!!

apa laaa gua mencarut ni kaannn..
assignment baru separuh jalan..
kang tak sempat buat ada yang "teghoyak"
(kwn2 berkenaan, uols kno rite.hehe)

o ye...
sejak dua menjak ni
gua rasa somebody curse me so0o0 bad
hahaha
pasal banyak sangat menda bongok terjadi
sampai gua da lali da dengan benda2 bongok ni!

setakat ni takda lagi peristiwa2
yang boleyh dijadikan gula dalam garam...
apakah kenaikan harga gula
telah memberi kesan keatas kehidupan gua??
only god knows...

gua harap sem depan lebih gula dari garam...
gua rasa gua memang terlebih garam laa
tu yang kepala gua ting tong tu...
demnnn..

tapi...
harap2 nye walaupon lebih gula dari garam,
takdak la sampai kencing manis.
yang tu lagi kronik..
gua rela saket kepala dari saket kencing manis.
hahahaha.

ok laaa..
gua nak sambung wat assignment..
semoga gua kembali sehat sejahtera..

uols layan la lagu ini...gua tak stop layan lagu ni..

Shattered Glass by Britney Spears

Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa, hmm
Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa

Did I wake you, we’re you sleepin’,were you still in my bed?
Or is a nightmare, keepin’ you up instead?
Oh baby, are you feelin’ guilty for what you did
If you think you’re hurtin’, you ain’t seen nothin’ yet

[Chorus]
Was it really worth it?
Was she everything, that you were looking for? (Feel like a man)
I hope you know that, you can’t come back
Cause all we had, is broken like shattered glass

You’re gonna see me, in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gonna want me back
When your world fells apart, like shattered glass
Glass, glass, glass

Are you having trouble focusin’ throught the day?
Do you find yourself, still callin’ my name?
Do you wish you could rewind and take it back?
I bet you realize that she ain’t half the woman I am

[Chorus]
Was it really worth it?
Was she everything, that you were looking for? (Feel like a man)
I hope you know that, you can’t go back
Cause all we had, is broken like shattered glass

You’re gonna see me, in your dreams tonight
My face is gonna haunt you all the time
I promise that you gonna want me back
When your world fells apart, like shattered glass
Glass, glass, glass, glass

(Gla-gla-gla)
Glass (ee-ee-ee)
Glass, glass

Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa, hmm
Ha-uh, ha-uh, ha-uh
Haaaaaaaaaaaa

update!update!!!

omg!!!sangat2 rindu nk mencarut kat sini..neway antara sebab musabab utama aku tak mengupdate adalah law night dinner.memang busy hokkayy~siang mlm pagi petang aku buat booklet~pastu tak cukup dgn booklet aku bz dengan assignment lagii..aih..nauzubillah bz.

neway aku nk start cite pasal HARI BONGOK aku..hehe

tanggal 3 april 2009, aku ada exam company law...kire memang aku agak well prepared gak la utk this exam...TATAPI...i dun know what makes my fucked up mind thinking that this exam start at 10.30!!the exam start at 10 am hokkayyy.thats mean i was late 30 minutes!!OMG! malu dan terasa bongok yg teramat!da la lecturer tu da pesan dun be a hero by coming late!demnnn~

kendian...lagi satu nauzubillah bongok, aku lupe bawak act!!!OMG..bongok oke! menjawab exam company law tanpa act!sgt la hero!bile aku nak pinjam act. lecturer aku tak bg.mesti sb aku dtg lmbt..#%$^&%%#$

lepaih tu aku pi dataran pahlawan..konon nak cari baju utk pyjamas party..gi ar mkn johnny's...and again i dun kno why being so stupid..aku bleyh plak tumpahkan air..aih...lepaih tu, aku ada la beli baju..pastu bile masuk MNG bunyi sensor, masuk Parkson pon sensor bunyi...bile kuar Parkson guard da mai tanya..rupe2nye casher tu tak cancell sensor..

okay abih cite bongok...

lepaih tu cite pyjamas party..hehe.pyjamas party ni under aerobic club..best la that night.and worth it to come.sape tak dtg tu memang rugi laa..concept yg sgt slumber dan sgt santai tu mmg best laa..

tp sorry la gambaq takda...sume gamba kt cik intan..die tak bg lagi..tiada mengapalah..

o ye pastu aku busy dgn assignment plak daahh...giler letih...sepanjang mlm langsung tak tido oke..wat assignment 12 jam tanpa henti...sangatttt gila!

kemudiannnn........welcome to Le Banquet 2009!!!fuh...inilah penghujung segala2nya..ha yg ni aku bleyh letak gambaq..hehe..

bersama cik hansur..eyh hasnur.hehe

18 April, hari yg sesangat letih...pagi kul 7.20 bangun dan hanya tido jam 4 pagi esoknye.demnn...sepanjang hari aku ada kat holiday inn.

camera dan aku tak mungkin boleyh dipisahkan

pada aku majlis nye oke laa..just kekadang tu jd bosan..pastu time mkn lambat gileee..kul 10 bru mkn.da naik kebulur aku tunggu.and luckily the food is so0o0o yummy~hehe
bersama puan seri datin sahana..hehe

from all the performance, the best is douglas lim.OMG!!he's soo0o0o funny and very spontaneous..mmg worth it la to invite him.he really safe the night!!!
with the most gorgeous jye mei and cik freda.

and today...aku da tak stabil...kepala aku sangat2 saket and so my eyes!!tadi aku pi klinik doktor kate aku ni STRESS!!ahaha.paling stress laaa.skang pon kepala aku saket lg...semoga aku cepat sembuh.ada lg 2 assignment nak kene settle ni..adoi..

saya suka gamba ini..=P

nak tgk gamba2 lain..rajin2 la jenguk facebook or friendster aku..=p


lagu kali ni...

High School Rocker by Bunkface

it started off as a reason
a reason for the season
the plan of the mission was about to go
the other way of possition
a multi expedition
time after time it helds me up!

now im in a mess
such a stress
i dont wanna know

where it goes
how it flows
never mind lets go
to a better place, off this chase
i will leave it all

so i better run away
coz all i wanna be is just a

HIGHSCHOOL ROCKER!
A MIGHTY MIGHTY STOPPER!
NOTHING`S GONNA CHANGE MY MIND TO BLOW!

JUST ANOTHER BELIEVER!
A LOUSY LOUSY LOVER!
NOTHING`S GONNA CHANGE MY MIND TO BLOW!

its off alone to be a disaster
and closer to the answer
the cross of my finger could be more than just a WAY! TO! SEE!!
what i will be
and strike away to be me
time after time it wakes me up!

now im in a mess
such a stress
i dont wanna know

where it goes
how it flows
never mind lets go
to a better PLACE!
off this CHASE!
i will leave it all
so i better run away

coz all i wanna be is just a

busy laa~

buat masa ini chentamusik teramat dan terpaling la sebok di dunia...tiada lah masa untuk mengupdate.maka dengan itu, tarikh update telah ditetapkan pada hari Ahad 19 hari bulan April 2009. harap bersabar yek anak2..

dengan itu, korang layyyyan la lagu ni..hehe

Unusual You by Britney Spears

Nothing about you is typical
Nothing about you is predictable
You’ve got me all twisted and confused
(It’s all new)
Up til now, I thought I knew love
Nothing to loose and its damaged cause
Patterns will fall as quick as I do, but now

Bridges are burning
Baby I’m learning, a new way of thinking now
Love I can see, nothing will be, just like it was
Is that because?

Baby you’re so unusual
Didn’t anyone tell you, you’re supposed to, break my heart?
I expect you do, so why haven’t you?
Maybe you’re not even human cause
Only an angel can be so unusual
Sweet surprise, I could get used to
Unusual You

Been so many things when i was someone else
Boxer in the ring trying to defend myself
In the private eye to see what's going on
(That's long gone)
When I'm with you, i can just be myself
You're always where you said you will be
Shocking cause i never knew love like this could exist

Tables are turning
My heart is soaring, You'll never let me down
Answer my call, here after all
Never met anyone like you

Baby you’re so unusual
Didn’t anyone tell you, you’re supposed to, break my heart?
I expect you do, so why haven’t you?
Maybe you’re not even human cause
Only an angel can be so unusual
Sweet surprise, I could get used to
Unusual You

Can't believe that I almost didn't try
When you call my name
Now everything has changed

Baby you’re so unusual
Didn’t anyone tell you, you’re supposed to, break my heart?
I expect you do, so why haven’t you?
Maybe you’re not even human cause
Only an angel can be so unusual
Sweet surprise, I could get used to
Unusual You

kuala kangsar

kuala kangsar...the royal town of perak..

oh..indahnya dapat menghirup udara segar kuala kangsar

indahnya melihat sungai perak yang mengalir tenang

indahnya bersiar-siar di bandar kuala kangsar

gembira dapat berada di tempat ku membesar

tempat aku mengenal erti hidup

tempat aku mengenal baik buruk donia

benarlah kata pepatah

"hujan emas di negeri orang hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik di negeri sendiri"

aku sedar...

maaf...

pabila jari jemari
menari di atas keyboard
mengikut rentak hati
tariannya pasti tidak sesempurna mana
pasti akan menyakitkan mata yang memandang hasil tariannya

tiadalah ingin aku menyakitimu..
jikalau kamu maseh ingat kata-kata pujangga ku kepadamu..
"no matter what u always be my priority"
tiada pernah kata-kata itu lenyap

satu yang pasti disini
ku hanya kamu sedar..bangun dari mimpi indah ini
jangan terlalu asyik dengan sesuatu
ku gembira melihat kamu gembira
tetapi..
kegembiraan mu ini mungkin akan memakan diri

aku sedar...
tiada hak bagiku untuk menentukan hidupmu
waima menghambur kata-kata yang sangat pedih itu
aku juga sedar...
aku lebih hina dari kamu..
lebih kotor dari kamu..
cuma aku merasa aku ada satu tanggungjawab
untuk menyedarkan mu

adakah kamu sedar??
beberapa kali aku cuba menarik kamu keluar
keluar dari mimpi indah ini..
tetapi..
kamu makin jauh menyelami mimpi indah mu ini

tiada pernah aku menikam mu...
aku dan rakan2 teramat memikirkan tentangmu
pelbagai persoalan dan amarah telah kutelan

beban yang ku pikul
rasa bersalah atas apa yang terjadi pada dirimu...

tiada salahnya apa yang kamu lalui ini
aku gembira...tidak berpura2
cuma aku tidak mahu kamu terus hanyut..

regards, thefullofsin

*kamu...jangan jadi jenny.hanyut bersama marina.bila marina dah tiada lagi, she fuck her life so hard~maybe kamu tak sebodoh itu..tapi aku rasa bagaikan ada "moral obligation tu remind u"

i have put my word nicely to u before..tapi u dun realise it.sorry for the harsh words that i've thrown to u.yes the scars remain.OUR scars remain..

i really concern about u..[mesti kamu nak muntah baca ayat ni kan] tapi begitulah hakikatnya. mungkin caraku sama sekali salah.tapi aku da mati akal.bagaimana caranya untuk menarik kamu kembali kepada kamu yang ASAL~

jujurnya..aku kurang mengenali kamu yang ASAL..tetapi..rakan2 lain yang lebih mengetahui, banyak menegur sikapmu..they even surprise that u've change.but me??totally blur...sb aku tak kenal bagaimanakah kamu yang dulu sebenarnya.

dan aku..rasa bersalah menebal dalam diri ini tatkala ada yang mengutarakan kata2 "sejak dia rapat dengan ko habih rosak."maybe u cant remember this but i once said that the rule is this game is always for fun and be on top of the game.but it looks like u take it seriously.

aku yang hina dina ini menyusun sepoloh jari yang kotor ini memohon maaf atas kekasaran yang telah dilakukan.

Forgive Me by Evanescene

Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you

I heard the words come out
I thought that I would die
It hurts so much to hurt you

Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken

I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you

Each time I say something I regret, I cry "I don't wanna lose you!"
But some how I know that you will never leave me, yeah.

'Cause you were made for me
Some how I'll make you see
How happy you make me

I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive

So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry..

And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you

perlukah??

perlukah jadi bodoh??TAK PERLU....rugi je belajar pandai2 tapi jadi bodoh! orang kampung yang sekolah pondok pon nak jadi pandai.maka jangan la jadi bodoh... [bodoh lagi pandai~]

pandai dalam study tak semestinya pandai dalam kehidupan, bodo dalam pelajaran tak semestinya bodo dalam kehidupan.

pandai dlm kehidupan lagi penting dari pandai dalam pelajaran...

belajar pandai2 tapi tak tau mana baik mana buruk dalam kehidupan lagi baik tak yah hidup..pergilah kamu mati dengan kepandaian kamu dalam pelajaran dan kegagalan kamu dalam kehidupan.

kegagalan dalam kehidupan tidak akan selama2nya..tetapi jika kita tidak sedar atau buat2 tak sedar atas kegagalan itu, kita akan tetap mengulanginya.mungkin kita tak terpikir pon bahawa apa yang berlaku itu adalah kegagalan dan kebodohan dalam kehidupan.

bila nafsu menguasai diri, cinta mengaburi mata, hati menutup fikiran dunia luar seakan2 tidak bermakna lagi pada diri mereka yang hati dan matanya telah buta..buta akibat terlalu asyik dengan chenta doniawi...

kemanakah penghujungnya chenta dan kebodohan ini???

chenta doniawi tidak akan membawa kita kemana2...mustahil ke sorga, tinggi kebarangkaliannya ke neraka..

chenta....membuat manusia jadi bodoh..bukan buta tetapi bodoh.

chenta yang wujud atas dasar terdesak dan tiada pilihan bukanlah chenta yang sebenarnya..

perlukah chenta begini???

chenta atas dasar terdesak dikatakan inilah pilihan ku..

tidak perlu menjadi orang yang terdesak dalam membuat pilihan.pilihan sentiasa ada..segalanya ditangan kita...tak perlu tergesa2..

tak mati tanpa chenta doniawi kerna chenta doniawi lebih banyak pahitnya dari manisnya.

fine by bunkface

why is it everytime i try
it always comes back as a lie
i could believe in the words that you say to me
but lately i think i wont agree

what makes the world go by
if you cannot crush my life

what holds you up so high
when you want it all the time

(C/O)
COZ WE WILL BE FINE
IN MATTER OF TIME
SUBJECT TO MY MIND
AS WERE CROSSING THE LINE

DIRECTIONS TO SEE
PERFECTION TO BE
A PAIN OF A KIND
ALWAYS CRASHING ON ME

SUFFERCATE, TIME, MATTER I..LL BE FINE
TODAY

and the days they go on and on
as all the time im all alone
it never pays me to say that im not ok
but you still have time to make fun of me

what makes the world go by
if u cannot crush my life

what holds you up so high
when you want it all the time

(C/O)

and i dont believe
in time we will see
a pain of a kind
always crashing on me

suffercate, time, matter i..ll be fine

today……….

**sory la aku mengarut..=p