aku ♥ musik

ehemmmm....

2011-12-02T14:33:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

it's been almost a year i didn't update my blog. well i think I've lost my writing skill as well. forgive me if my sentences all upside down. i feel like i am a newbie here.

anyway, chambering had over. i've called to the bar on 21st November 2011 and now working as LA. Technically speaking, i'm officially a lawyer. welcome to adulthood Shafiqah!!!

my circle of life is almost complete.

2011 is almost over. and it is not too much for me to claim 2011 as the most challenging year i ever face.

Chambering was challeging but still i have fun during the 10 months period. Chamber at Messrs Nik Saghir & Ismail was an exciting moment. No matter how people try to put me down, i still have friends that helped me to stand back.

When i'm done with chambering, i thought it is something that i should cheer for. (as how i did when i've completed my degree) but i'm wrong. totally wrong. there's something that more challenging awaits. it's call working.

working is a serious issue. it's all about yourself and your presentation. honestly, sometimes i think i'm not yet ready for this phase. i'm still a young girl who loves to fool around, make stupid jokes and always have a happy moment.

but i'm wrong again. i'm 24 years old and i have a lots of responsibility.

Being a lawyer requires u to be far more mature than your age. you cant have a good laugh at the office unless your boss shows some sense of humour which require you to laugh. being a lawyer means you're always mentally prepared to be scold in front of others. in another words- you must have a very thick face. being a lawyer means you will never have a good rest until the time when everyone wish you R.I.P.

one of a senior lawyer once said that law is a jealous mistress. it may destruct your family institution, your friendship and even your personal interest. but, my inner thoughts says, if law is my mistress, she's under my control. she's nothing without me.

thus, i take pride to always hold on my life principle that whatever shits happen in my life, my family is my priority. if u don't love your family as much as i love mine, that's your personal problem. don't drag me into your lifestyle.

thanks.

Mirr0r mirr0w on the wall, please wake her up.

2011-03-22T15:05:00.001+08:00

N0rmal situati0n:

u enter a new office. Everything is new to y0u. The pe0ple, the smell, the envir0nment. Everything are total strange to y0u. Once you enter, the first thing to do are to smile and give g0od impressi0n b0ut us to every0ne.

The sec0nd thing t0 do is to make friend. Wait!!! Yes y0u can make friend but it must be with cauti0us cuz everything are new to y0u. To make friend, y0u must listen n just speak when it's necessary. Make sure u speak s0mething w0rth to be c0ncern.

The next thing is w0rk. Y0u're in the office. So of c0s y0u'll be assign to w0rk related or s0metimes err m0st of the time n0t related to ur j0b sc0pe. But, since u're new, y0u're under obligati0n to abide. And whatever it takes, y0u have to finish ur w0rk on y0ur own.

*imp0rtant n0tes: never g0ssipping or asking awkward questi0n that may tarnish ur reputati0n. Ur curi0sity may kill y0u.you may kn0w bout anything in the office as time g0es by.

Awkward situati0n:

on y0ur 1st day, u speak as u're having pr0blem with Letter R.

Next,u keep speak in english with every0ne as u're b0rn in UK, study in Aussie and live in canada. Which u actually just same like every0ne.

Next awkward situati0n, it's ur 2nd day in the office and u're g0ssipping b0ut staff.

Apart fr0m that, u also asking awkward questi0n. C0me 0n peep!! Keep ur curi0sity until certain time.

Last but n0t least u're n0thing here s0 st0p elevate urself as if u're wiser than every0ne here.

And n0w ur attitude ann0yed people here. Sigh...

why i don't blog as much as before

2011-02-16T20:48:00.004+08:00

here i am in the office at night.

i'm quite boring now. i'm currently waiting for my cute lil lawyer finalized her submission before we can bind it.

thus, i take this "precious moment" to write something here.

honestly i miss writing. i miss the time when i can blog about anything at anytime i want.

but now, sadly.. i have no internet connection at home and it is not appropriate for me to blog at the office when i have other things which are more important to do.

sigh...

and more terrible, i cant register the mobile blog thinggy!! fuck~~ i've tried several times but no response..i wonder where does it goes wrong.. T_T

my dear blog, it is not that i purposely abandoned u. u're always in my heart. u're the only place where i can expressed my deepest words..

ok peepsss~~have to go.. its already past nine!!

self-obsessed

2011-01-12T14:00:00.003+08:00

hello people.

today is a twelfth day of 2011. so far everything is just ok. ouh i'm at the office now. been very lazy to complete my job, so i decided to write here and makes it LLB (looks like busy) time.

just now, i was browsing a blog that recommended by my sweet, cute, fashionable friend cik in-chan. well neway it just a blog of a girl that very into herself.

her picture are all over her posts. yes her photos are beautiful. kudos to the photographer. but to much photo of you in your blog sometimes will make it looks like you're self obsessed. sory babe..

i've read some of your post and most of ur post are concern on people who offended you. i wonder whats wrong with you. if there are only two or three people that offended you, well that's considered normal. but when it is more than that, i bet there's something wrong somewhere about you.

i dont know you at all. so i will not judging you. but i assumed that maybe they are sick of your self-obsessed act.

hopefully this girl realise that she is living in a huge community. so put photos[i mean a lot ] of you on your blog and talking like u're fashion diva may make people want to puke!!

however, as u states in ur blog, it's ur blog and it is up to you what u gonna say or publish. thus, don't pissed off if anyone critics or makes some idiotic comments because just like u, they also have the same freedom of expression. if u hates those comments, then dont published.

Kesha - We Are Who We Are

Hot and dangerous
If you’re one of us, then roll with us
‘Cause we make the hipsters fall in love
And we’ve got hot-pants on enough
And yes of course because we’re running this town just like a club
And no, you don’t wanna mess with us
Got Jesus on my necklace

I’ve got that glitter on my eyes
Stockings ripped all up the side
Looking sick and sexy-fied
So let’s go-o-o (Let’s go!)

[chorus]
Tonight we’re going hard
Just like the world is ours
We’re tearin’ it apart
You know we’re superstars
We are who we are!
We’re dancing like we’re dumb
Our bodies go numb
We’ll be forever young
You know we’re superstars
We are who we are!

DJ turn it up
It’s about damn time to live it up
I’m so sick of being so serious
It’s making my brain delirious!
I’m just talkin’ truth

I’m telling you ’bout the s— we do
We’re sellin’ our clothes, sleepin’ in cars
Dressin’ it down, hittin’ on dudes (HARD!)

I’ve got that glitter on my eyes
Stockings ripped all up the side
Looking sick and sexy-fied
So let’s go-o-o (Let’s go!)

[chorus]
Tonight we’re going hard
Just like the world is ours
We’re tearin’ it apart
You know we’re superstars
We are who we are!
We’re dancing like we’re dumb
Our bodies go numb
We’ll be forever young
You know we’re superstars
We are who we are!

DJ turn it up
DJ turn it up
DJ turn it up
DJ turn it up

Tonight we’re going hard
Just like the world is ours
We’re tearin’ it apart
You know we’re superstars
We are who we are!

We’re dancing like we’re dumb
Our bodies go numb
We’ll be forever young
You know we’re superstars
We are who we are!

OW!

it's 2011....

2011-01-01T00:11:00.003+08:00

time now is 00.11 date 1.1.11

good bye 2010. it's so sad to leave you 2010. 2010 is a year of joy. i love 2010 as much as i hate 2009. all the good things happen in 2010. [you guys can browse my post in 2010. i'm so happy and everything when so well.] even though there were things that make me sad there are always good things that can cheer me up again.

i do enjoy my self in 2010. i thing 2010 is so meaningful year. however, it's time for 2010 to closing down so no matter what i have to move on and enjoy my life in 2011.

seriously i dont feel happy with this new year. i'm scared to go thru this year. all i can hope for is a fine life, without any emotional problems and no fuck up things happen on me. hopefully everything that i plan when well.

happy new year readers!!! may this year brings more joy to us.

A love letter

2010-12-22T13:24:00.002+08:00

To: MR. "i have no idea who you are"

Dear sir,

REQUEST TO APPEAR AS SOON AS POSSIBLE
_______________________________________

I refer to the above matter.

Please be informed that my mother had mention about our wedding for numerous time. Thus, it will be much obliged for you to appear before me as soon as possible. Your presence would be much necessity at this time so that i have someone in mind when my mother talk about our wedding once again.

I also would like to enlighten you that, regardless where you are, it is mandatory for you to be presence before me.

Your cooperation in this matter are highly obligated.

Your prompt attention and urgent action upon this matter are highly appreciated.

Thank You.

Yours Faithfully,

when my mom ask me about M.A.R.R.I.A.G.E

2010-12-09T14:07:00.003+08:00

ting tonggggg....hellooo anybody home......

hello dusty blog. so sorry for not updating u about two months!! i'm so busy with my new life and KL sux!! i dun hv internet at my place here. sigh~~

anyway..im currently striving and surviving as a chambie at this coolest office. everybody seems so nice here. =D

ok straight to the topic of marriage, last night i was on the phone with my mom. i was telling her about my future planning on becoming one most successful lawyer. i also told her that i think i want to work abroad.

then my mom ask me " abih tak yah kawen??" at that point of time, i'm speechless. it feels weird when my mom asking me about marriage which is something that i never think of. once i hung up the fon, i started thinking bout it. seriously i never thought that my mom will concern about me getting married since she always treat me like a young naughty girl.haha

as always i answered her in a ridiculous way when she ask me about marriage. my common answers are"tunggu la dekno ngorat anak menteri" or "dekno nak kt ashraf muslim je. mak gi ar masuk meminang dia"

i bet my mom suddenly become concern about my marriage because i already finish my study. thus, the next thing to concern on is about marriage. no momm...i need to build my career first. let me have something in hand then maybe i can think about marriage. and i'm still young to0o. i'm just 23. i have plenty of time to dive in the sea of man and find someone that fit me best. =D "people said, there's a plenty fish in the water :D"

but for now, seriously i dont really into marriage. maybe i cant find any suitable partner, or maybe because i feel comfortable living on my own. - no commitment-

however, i cant say anything bout something in future. i'm not a fortune teller~!! :D

we'll see in 4 to 5 years time. maybe i'm married or maybe i'm still single and ready to mingle.

* to meet a guy that really can take u as u are and being so much understanding is so difficult. if i do find one, it's either he's TAKEN or he's GAY. heheh

A Man's World - Jadyn Maria feat Katy Perry

heeeeeey, ay ay ay ay ay ya (x3)
i bought him a drink before he could get away,
and in the morning sewed his jeans, they look better on me anyway
yeah i got the beauty but i got the brains,
so don't play with me boy cause i'll beat you at you're own game.

CHORUS:
it's a man's world but i'm the type of girl
really doesn't matter cause i can do it better
in a man's world but i'm the type of girl
it won't even phase me cause i'm that kind of lady (x2)

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
know where i'm going, don't need directions.
sit back boy, i'll teach you a lesson.
i'ma kiss you first, don't need your permission.
cause girls like me break the tradition.

it's a man's world but i'm the type of girl
really doesn't matter cause i can do it better
in a man's world but i'm the type of girl
it won't even phase me cause i'm that kind of lady (x2)

you gotta be
kiddin' me
to think that i should be listening
every word
you're telling me
... it's not working
they must be outta their mind
they must be crazy
this could be just a waste of time
cause it's a, cause it's a

it's a man's world but i'm the type of girl
really doesn't matter cause i can do it better
in a man's world but i'm the type of girl
it won't even phase me cause i'm that kind of lady (x2)

is this the end?

2010-09-29T22:41:00.007+08:00

i save my blog for quite a long time to wait for this moment. to write up about the day that i will walk away left Multimedia University.

i just finished my very last paper today and i highly hope that i will pass all the 7 subjects. the feelings are so mixed up now. it does not seem be the happiest moment but why i should be sad when it's over? it is something that what i waiting for all this while.

after all, what i'm thinking is the precious moment that i've got with my fellow "better than the best" friends.

2006

it's started up so weird. when i know no one here. my first friend in MMU is Freda. i met her during we want to register course. and yeah we talk to a each other and found that we're on the same track.

next person that i met was Sue. one drop dead gorgeous lady. i went for a lunch with her and freda before we want to our first class. she's very kind and cute :D and the first time i saw her, i really thought she's a chinese.

next, when i went up to the class, i say a guy sitting at the wall with sleepy face. my first thought of that guy is "eh mcm abang la dia ni." not that his face like my brother but his style is not much differ than my brother. as we enter to the class, during the ice-breaking, i came to know that this guy name is faisal. this the "look alike brother" boy is at first looks so snobbish that i cant stand him. he only reply a word everytime i ask him question. i hate him. haha. then, we became closer went we're in the same group for philosophy and actually he's sooo much talkative that what i' thinking.

then i came to know other's friend like keat, which confused his name with eng lian. i still remember that keat said his friends said he supposed to take law as he loves to talk. *if i'm not mistaken*then i know chiam, as she talks a lot in class and of courseeeeeeeeeee andrew. haha. the big guy with a tag line ketandusan kasih sayang.

as class started i've mingle with all my classmates. there are only forty of us if i'm not mistaken and it's not hard to be friend with everyone.

after about 2 months in mmu, i'm closed to redza. he's one funny guy that i met. and we can talked for hours. he's a good friend of mine that always helps me during exam :) after that, i closed to rima as she's redza's sista. hehe. rima is one funny and easy going girl that i know. we enjoy doing stupid things together :)

and the listtsssss of friends goes on like
jing en, doreen, hasnur, intan, tan, sahana, jing jau, winnie, vageetha etc.

(sorry if i miss out any names. 2006 is just my beginning)

i still remember the business project of car wash. how helpfull we all when everyone came and helps to wash cars. we're one. and we enjoy helping each other.

the english drama also was unforgettable. it is certain that we PL40 are so talented and we're better that the real actor/actress. we sing, we dance, we do jokes. i miss those time :)

2007

the're nothing change with me. i do enjoy with my fellow friends. they're just crazy as i am. during this time, i getting closer to intan since she's rima's best friend. so indirectly i close to her because we do go lunch together. me and intan always be a person that wants to slim down. we went to gym sometimes and we joint aerobics club.hehe.

aih..i hardly remember what happen in 2007. seems like i'm mentally tired and it's hard for me to remember things that happen three years back.

what i can remember is at this time, i always went out chill with rima, redza and andrew. and by this time, i also had mingled with people beside my classmate such as my roomates which both of them are married, one had just deliver a baby girl on end of july :)

afta all, 2007 just went well and my friendship with my friends are getting stronger day by day.

2008

i could say that 2008 is one of my best year as i've been very good in studied. when i refer back to my 2008's notes, it's so neat, my handwriting are so finedd and i do study hard. hehe.

i dunno what spirit that had possessed me at that time. ouh in 2008, i've become sue's roomate and it just made our friendship getting stronger. i think she's my best roomate :D

during 2008, i also became closed to nik. the smallest classmate i think.haha. we always went for dinner together at kedai kuning and talk for long hours. we also do stupid things sometimes like skipping class and went to saloon to dyed hair and just for the sake of lazy.

ouh..i met my crush in mmu!!haha. but afta all...it just a crush.hurmmmm.

2009

i think 2009 is my worst year. in terms of study to be exact. haha. i always lost in class. you may check my 2009 posts and i'm such a person that emotionally unstable.

maybe because i feel lonely staying alone at ep. haih. i still remember the fucked up feelings. i thing i want to skip this awful year. fuck 2009!!!

2010

so much better year for me. thank God. this year i have so much fun. this is my final year and only in this year i'm getting closer to my other classmates like jing en, doreen, jing jau and hasnur. thanks God i moved to ixora. if not i'll be dead alone in ep!

hasnur - is my PA when i need mcD. in the middle of the night when my stomach sing some awful song, i will just call hasnur and said "ano lapa" and of cos she will reply "u nak order apa?" she undertstand me already.

jing jau - i enjoy went shopping with her. she's one shopaholic that i know. and she's a picky too. she's always spend a lot of time in choosing stuff and thinking whether to buy it or not. she's also is one of funny friend that i have especially when she try to speak a proper malay. it's ok jing jau..ur bahasa is much better than hasnur!!

jing en - i think jing en is eng keat female version.haha. they forms such a great love relationship. both are funny and loves to talk crap. and i do enjoy listen to their jokes. i found jing en to be very enthuasiastic in what's she's doing. she also is a very kind friend that love to send encouragement msg during everyone are stress out for exam.

doreen - she's smart but can be blur sometimes. haha. doreen is such a very helpful friend. i still remember that she help me and freda to print the bundles for mooting. her kindness are so much appreciated.

after all, in 2010, my best friends during alpha are still my best friends now plus with new best friends that always support me, make me laugh and always there for me.

friends...i'm not sure if this is the end. i highly hope, the friendship last forever. hopefully we can still chill enjoy high tea after mentally exhausted at the office. i pray that we will forever keep in touch.

i always wanting to dedicate this song to all of you when the time come. and now, it's the time. and this song specially dedicated to all of you. :)

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1]
As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

meaningful

2010-09-07T00:15:00.004+08:00

people around us can never understand why there's thing that is so meaningful to us.

when i said that i lost my baju kurung. the very first expression that people may say is 'haha~!!how can that be?' haih..it's a sad case. people will never understand how meaningful that baju kurung for me and how it has lots of sentimental value in it.

it also is the same case where i lost my most loyal boyfie - Abu (my pc). people hardly understand why i've been totally sad and lost when my pc was complete dump. they didn't know how much my pc means for me. some may call me crazy for giving name to my pc :D

or as example of serious case, where people can never understand why we still fight to be with someone that we love. they may say that we are crazy or they may say that we can find someone else. but the issue is not about there is someone else, but it is a matter of meaningful.

and maybe people will said that we're crazy for still using old school hp when ppl around are using touch screen hp, qwerty keyboard hp, but i'm still using my old nokia silde hp that i've bought in 2006. the reason is meaningful.

last but not least, song. some songs it may sound very meaningful to me, but for my friend, it such a lame song with very poor of musik arrangement. *whatever*

obviously, people can never understand or actually know things that are meaningful for us. maybe it's our duty to tell people around us that these are the things that are meaningful to us.

this post is tribute to my lost meaningful baju kurung :(

ANDAI KAU PERGI by INDIGO

Dikau pernah berkata
Akulah segalanya
Tanpaku tak mungkin kau bahagia

Namun di sebaliknya
Setelah ku percaya
Kau bersikap dinginku terpinga

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Dengan sepenuh cinta
Daku tanam di dada
Dengan harapan terbina istana

Apakah di mindamu
Mengapa kau membisu
Hanya katakan kau masih menyinta

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

Daku tak mengerti
Mengapa kau bersikap sebegitu
Andainya
Kau tahu hatiku
Betapa penuh di dada menyintamu

Sayang
Ku masih tidak mengerti
Ke manakah hilangnya cintamu
Jiwaku resah dan sepi
Andainya kau pergi

Andai kau pergi (3 x)
Hilanglah arahku
Jangan kau pergi
Usah kau pergi
Andai kau pergi hampir pasti
Berteman pilu sepanjang hayatku

an inspirational letter to a friend

2010-09-03T00:21:00.002+08:00

Dear friend,

when things go fucked up, pls remember that

..i'm here to wipe your tears.
..i'm here to make you laugh.
..i'm here to lend my shoulder.
..i'm here to listen to your deepest word.
..i'm here to hear your young and stupid story.
..i'm here to turn the lemonade into caramel.
..i'm here to make you feel better.

all i need from you is to be strong and just ignore all those NONSENSE!! and MOVE ON~! it is normal to have a long period of emotional unstable, i understand that. i FULLY understand that~~! you can cry..cry as much as you want, you can curse as much as you want, you can shout out loud.

but please never let yourself lose to this fucked up things. this is not the end. let's take it as one of precious experienced and just lets call it lesson learned :D

remember, you still have parents and family that always support you and your friends to cheer you up. you're still young to be this sad!!

dun worry dude, there's a plenty of fish in the water. *huggssssss*

Love Hurt by Incubus

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
I don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still as a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I'won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
I stand naked and accused
Should I surface this one man submarine
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
Cause without love I won't survive

s.i.n.g.l.e

2010-08-26T00:38:00.002+08:00

hello! i am single. yes. single and not so available :D

i always confront with cliche question about boyfriend.
everytime i meet my schoolmate, the first question that they ask is not how are you? but do u have boyfriend!?

and i will definitely give this cliche answer
"nope."
"tak de sape nak kat aku :p"

my friends will then reply "ala ko tu jual mahal."

but i have this gay friend that said to me "tu la jual mahal sgt. dah tak laku" *this is fucking hurtful statement nok~!!haha*

anyway it's not about jual mahal, tak laku or takde sape nak. it's about finding the person that i can live with for the rest of my life.

i have this princip that if i gonna have a boyfriend, he will be the person that i'm gonna marry with. so maybe thats why i am single now..

i'm not type of person that can simply accept a guy to be my bf and we broke off and after that, i'll meet another guy, being with him, then broke off again, meet another guy, being in a relationship again, and i dont know how many exes i will have.haha.

actually, i'm not looking for a boyfriend but i am looking for a future husband. yes. i want a forever relationship. not just a relationship or long term relationship. i am serious when it comes to relationship ;)

as for that, i need a guy that can handle me at my worst. he knows how to chill me up when i just started to burst my anger and just by a single word from him everything will be so fine. and i will never get bored when i with him.

most important thing, he also does not only take me as his gf or his new gf, but he will take me as someone that he also wants to be with for the rest of his life.

by now, i still wait for my future husband to come and take me away from this single life :D

The Only Exception by Paramore

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

13th August

2010-08-13T21:36:00.002+08:00

hello bloggers and readers. today is 13th August and it's the 3rd day of Ramadhan. overall my Ramadhan just ok. i've been a bit messed up with assignments. not to forget, illness. yeap.it's been a long time that i dont have any fever or flu but yesterday, i have this freaking terrible flu, sore throat and a bit of fever. i hate the flu so much! haha.

anywaaayyy..it's not about my fasting and sore throat that i'm here. but it's because of this date. 13th August 2009, i've lost someone that i love and had so much meaningful to me. yeap my lovely grandma had passed away a year ago.

it is a year ago and i still remember her face, voice and stories. she's one tough woman that i know. she raised up 9 childrens and none of them had lack of education. my mom once said that my grandma didnt know how to write and read. but she never let her children missed education. she'll do anything to put her children in school.

my mom had been sent to English medium school just to ensure that she get a proper education. however, she only went to the school for one year and later she insisted to change to Malay medium since being in English medium school required lots of expenses.

one day around last year, when my grandma still can talk and enjoy telling stories, she was complaining on my mom attitude that refuse to go to the english medium school. apparently she didnt know the reason why my mom insisted to change school. when my mom told her that at that time the school fees is too expensive, my grandma suddenly getting a bit angry with my mom and said that she dont care about the fees. she just wants the best for my mom. well, i love her spirit in giving her children the best education.

besides education, my grandma also known as very particular and meticulous when it comes to cook. my mom told me that, none of her siblings including her can actually follow the way of my grandma's cook. my grandma had cook for school canteen before and she also will make nasi lemak. my mom and my aunties will sell it at their school. she sounds very patient in raising up her children.

my grandma also known as very firm and she scolded her children alot. she looks very soft but deep inside she's very strict with her children. sometimes, i can see her in my mom. their character more or less are the same.

neway, i do miss her story telling sessions. even though i've heard about it countless of time, i dont mind. i still enjoy listened to it and laugh at it.

dear pah, may you rest in pieces. i miss you.

being 23

2010-07-27T17:47:00.002+08:00

last friday on 23rd July at 6.20pm i am officially 23 years old. so far after being 23, i can feel that there's nothing much changes in my life. i am still
- one lazy person

yes. i am still one lazy person that always skipping classes, not copying notes in class, not doing tutorial and always blur when lecturer asking question. hehe. well that's me and never change even from primary school. i always finding the easiest way to do things and if that thing is just too complicated i'll just ignore it.

- playFool

being playfool is just so0o me. haha. i love talking craps and makes stupid jokes. from school to uni..i think i never being serious. actually being serious is boring and doesnt mean that im playfool i cant do job well. it just for me being serious means u're stressing urself.

- sleeping beauty

this is me~if people ask me to describe my self, i would say that i am the ultimate sleeping beauty. haha. sleeping is one heaven things in this world. lying on bed with lots of pillow around you, gloomy bedroom and very pleasant whether just makes me sleepy. i can sleep more that 12 hours.. but now, i try to avoid sleeping in a long hours as it is not good for your health and brains.

anywayyy~~~after all..23 is just a number, getting old is all about how u bring urself :)

mak saya sayang saya.

2010-07-17T21:37:00.003+08:00

i have a mom. she's one of most garang person that i know. but deep inside, i know she loves me more than stars in a sky.

she do pamper me a lot though most of the time she scold me. yea..she scold me because she loves me. and i love her too. =D

i suddenly feels like to write how much my mom loves me here. because......

just now around 6.30 pm, my mom called me. she called me because my little brother told her that my fb status stated "berdarah hidung"! ouh mom!!u just love me damn much. she called me and right away asked me "idong kamu berdarah ke?akir kata kamu tulih kt pesbuk idong kamu berdarah?"

and me just laugh and said "tak la mak...mane ade.memain je tu" LOL. the reason of that status because i saw one beautiful girl. i mean damn beautiful. so "berdarah hidung" just a hiperbola statement that i just saw beautiful girl.hehe.

when i said the status only "main2" then my mom sounds very relief. she then said "ouh igt kan idong kamu berdarah. yang slalu darah idong ni min (my lil brother) je."
neway i just couldn't explain to my mom the reason behind the status. haha. my mom will say "gilo". haha

the phone call just now was very touchy for me. haha. it just obviosly shows that my mom cares me a lot.

sometimes my mom just called me and ask "kamu sakit ke?" haha. very random right. when i said no. i'm just ok here..she will then said "ouh. ntah la mak rasa mcm kamu tgh sakit."

dear mom...your lil daughter fine here..just missing you a lot. cant wait to go back home. ;)

I Miss You by Incubus

To see you, when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same
as I do is a three-fold utopian dream.

You do something to me, that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line, if I said
I miss you ...

I see your picture, I smell your skin on
the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
but already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

end of part 1

2010-07-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

yeahhh..this trimester going to be end soon. woohooo.. nex week is the mid sem break that's mean it will be the ending of the part 1 of this sem.

as a whole, taking 7 subjects does not that crazy or make people die. so far, i still can cope with the schedule (but i do skip classesss) ;p

throughout this part 1 of my final semester, i've being very busy with world cup. yea thank God that the world cup end already and i am effing happy cuz i've made a good decision to support spain. yeah iker casillas the best. and paul i love you. hehe

i'm glad that i watch world cup with my fellow lovely friend which i bet this is the last time we watch world cup together. the next world cup on 2014, only God knows if i'm still alive to watch the world cup again. if i'm still alive, i have no idea i'm gonna watch it with who. may be new friends, my family, boyfriend or husband?? o0ps! ahaha.

orite enuff for world cup. just now, i've just finished 2 midterms. and totally feel free now though i have another 2 fucking tough midterms nex week. i'm gonna break awhile and maybe will start study tomorrow. God plsss...i need some courage to study.

and, end of nex week, i'm going back to my beautiful home town kuala kangsar. how i missssss my home, my mom and dad, others family and of course mom's curry.hehe. it's been a long time that i've stuck in melaka. i need some fresh air and good quality water for my body and HAIR!! gosh! the water quality in melaka is damn bad! fucking bad. especially in this effing ixora. i cant wait to goin back home. ;]

ouh neway just now i just had a pre-birthday celebration with rima ellani. i love the place. i dunno the exact name of the restaurant but i call it saddam and sometimes colloseum. well it based on the names of the food there. the names of the menu there are kinda weird. some call mee racun, nasi goreng shah rukh khan and last but not least mee basah di puncak. haha. weird is it.

but the foods are superb. so far i never feel regret chosing that restaurant. the fried rice, udang tepung, soup and drinks all are very well prepared. thanks rima for the most enjoyable pre-birthday celebration.hehe.

anyhuuu, i'll stop here. feels like want to play games. dunno what game yet. maybe super mario.haha. daaa.. till we meet again. ;D

malam kita by KRU

Sepurnama... telah kita tempuh duga
Dengan kesabaran
Kini... tiba sekali lagi
Hari yang dinanti kini tiba pasti

Ku bersyukur... kepada yang Esa
Serta anugerahnya
Girang... terasa jiwa
Kerana restu bersamamu cinta

( korus )
Gilang gemilang sinar cahaya purnama
Ketika malam kita bersama
Melengkap keajaiban di malam ini
Wahai teman bisakah kau rasai

Indahnya... hingga tak terkata
Bersama berdua
Moga... kita berpanjangan
Selalu seiringan sejalan

( korus )
Gilang gemilang sinar cahaya purnama
Ketika malam kita bersama
Melengkap keajaiban di malam ini
Wahai teman bisakah kau rasai

Embun pagi... membasahi pipi
Kita berdua di malam yang permai
Ku berdoa kita berdua
Selalu bersama

( korus )
Gilang gemilang sinar cahaya purnama
Ketika malam kita bersama
Melengkap keajaiban di malam ini
Wahai teman bisakah kau rasai

happy birthday

2010-07-03T13:02:00.002+08:00

haapppppy birthday to my dearie blog.
thanks a lot for being the ultimate place for me to share my thoughts.

however, in 2010, i didnt write here as much as in 2009. maybe i'm a bit bz. sometimes i do have things to share here but then i cant find times to write. and sometimes, i'm just being too lazy to write. i wish i can just transfer all my thoughts from my mind to this dearie blog.haha.pemalas!

as for now, i have nothing to share. i'm just bz with my classes and yeah world cup of course. haha. i love that the fact england and brazil defeated from world cup at early stage. but i'm still sad and dissappointed with italy my favorite team. now my aim is spain. hopefully they can go thru to final...hehe.

okaaiii blog. need to go. i've promise freda to go out with her. talk to you later. (see i'm bz.haha)

anyhu..i love this blog as it had becomes part of my life.

enjoy this fooking rock song on my blog bday.hehe

Roc Ya Body by Ping Pong Bitches

He's so young, Wasn't born too late
I know it's wrong but I couldn't wait
Saw him at the smimming pool
The body looked so hot
I couldn't keep my cool

Said I'll be your first - girlfriend
Let's go out tonight
Said don't tell your mama cos it isn't right

Three minutes later on the escalator
I kept waving to his friend, 'See ya later'
Hot as hell, burnin' up
Feeling your touch, Its never enough

Said I'll be your first - girlfriend
Let's go out tonight
Said don't tell your mama cos it isn't right

I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
Pretty boy, you're going to hell
I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
I'll rock your body and I'll ring your bell

You're so young, Wasn't born too late
I know it's wrong but I couldn't wait
Saw him at the swimming pool
The body looked so hot
I couldn't keep my cool

Said I'll be your first - girlfriend
Let's go out tonight
Said don't tell your mama cos it isn't right

I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
Pretty boy, you're going to hell
I'll take you to the devil
(Rock ya body!)
I'll rock your body and I'll ring your bell

after 5 years...

2010-06-23T22:38:00.003+08:00

this post is highly dedicated to my only ABU.

21st June 2010 - Abu physical memory had complete dump. yes! complete dump. my world blackout! lost! i try my best to safe Abu. i kno that he had tries his best to survive, but he just too critical.he is no longer alive. = (

throughout 5 years i spent my life with Abu, he always cheer me up every time i feel like killing myself or just running away from this fucking place. i love u Abu. u always be my emotional savior.

and of course, i cant live this world without Abu. he's my boyfriend, best friend and everything. 5 years in MMU, u're the one that always by my side. i will always remembered him as my most loyal boyfriend i ever had. u chill me up until your last breath.

yesterday, i found someone else that i'm pretty sure that it can replace Abu. yes. i met Natasha. Natasha is more softer than Abu.

However, since i love Abu more than ever, i transfer Abu's heart to Natasha. thus, even though right now, i'm with Natasha but the heart that Natasha's use to live on is belongs to Abu. At least, Abu's heart is still with me.

my wish, my relationship with Natasha will going smoothly and will be the best to each other.

As for Abu, of course i miss u. RIP ABU. = (

Di Pintu Syurga by KRU & Elite

Sekukuh... sekukuh mana ikrar kasih kita
Setebal mana masih ada sempadannya
Akan tiba nanti... harus ditempuhi
Apa daya kita melawan masa
Takdirnya... takdirnya dunia hanya sementara
Walau begitu cinta suci 'tuk selamanya
Ini realiti... hilang tak terganti
Namun ku tahu kau dan aku akhirnya kembali bersatu

*Chorus:
Andai daku pergi sebelummu
Kenangkanlah ku selalu didalam doamu
Kaulah cinta pertama dan terakhir untukku
Ku berjanji kan menantimu
Setia menunggu di pintu syurga

Di sana... di sana menati gemilang cinta
Jadi lenyapkanlah titisan airmata
Tabahkanlah hati... mengharungi hari
Abadikanlah saat indah... kita kan tetap bersama

Epsilon 2nd Trimester.

2010-06-09T21:05:00.002+08:00

starting 7th June..i have been officially a final year, final trimester student in mmu. hopefully i manage to go thru this final trimester. as i mention before, i'm taking 7 subjects which is not easy at all. and of course i need to be more focus and play less. and yea be more HARDWORKING!

apart from studying, i've plan earlier to be more consistent with my jogging activity. HOWEVER.........there's no MMU field. eff off okaaayy! the field is under construction and i bet may be it can only be used 2 months later. sigh. i am eager to jog and suddenly now i hv no place to jog. maybe hiking bukit beruang will be another option.hehe.

ouh..i also would like to share that, this trimester must be my super duper bz trimester. on thursday, i have 6 hours back to back classes from 1pm to 6 pm. gosh! readers...please pray for me. i really need a super duper strength this trimester.

for now, i really need to well prepared both mentally and physically since this trimester will be my very most important trimester. hopefully i'll pass all the 7 subjects and graduate at the end of this year ;D

anyway, enjoy this beautiful song.

Warning by Incubus

Bat your eyes girl.
Be otherworldly.
Count your blessings.
Seduce a stranger.
What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness...yeah

Over and over and over and over...........

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves,
Before its made illegal
When will we learn, When will we change
Just in time to see it all come down

Those left standing will make millions
Writing books on ways it should have been

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious
Soon the water starting to boil,
Now I flinched and we all float face down

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
Pass you by

walimatul urus

2010-05-30T23:57:00.003+08:00

di penghujung mei..maka sejarah telah tercipta..akak aku telah selamat dinikahkan dengan pasangan yang di kasihinya. dan majlis perkahwinan telah berjalan dengan lancar skali.

makaa...aku nk wat post mortem skeyt.secara umumnya..aku rasa kenduri itu memenatkan dan meletihkan. the preparation adalah sangat membunuh.orang kuale kata "tumpo". bukan pe..nak siapkan umah kemas2 tu da letih..pastu gift2 nk bg kt org dgn bermcm2 peringkat persediaan adalah sangat memenatkan..sampai aku rasa mcm da serik dgn kenduri kawen.huhu.tu belom lagi dengan segala mcm arahan dan permintaan yang nak kena ikut. kadang2 aku rasa aku ni runner, pengapit dan juga orang suruhan. sumpah letih.

tapi yang syok tu mesti ada.heheh.aku rasa yg syok time tgk2 baju pengantin, time hias2 bilik pengantin dengan pakai inai.lagi satu bila semua saudara mara aku berkumpul kt umah dan maka terciptalah suasana yang sgt menghiburkan. da lama rasanya kiteorg ni tak bersembang sakan sambil sakat menyakat.hehe..best sgtt.

ouh ye..gambo2 perkahwinan adaaaa...tapi gua malas ar nk letak kt sini..kalo nak tgk pandai2 la gi pesbuk gua.kat situ ada banyaaaakk gamba.tapi gamba gua la..gamba pengantin tak byk.kalo nk tgk byk gi dekat pesbuk pengantin.haha.

ni hal kawen baru 1st half. 2nd half 6hb ni kt melaka.tp xpe laa..hat tu aku pi makan je.xde la ape sgt nk di buat.skang ni aku lega skeyt dpt rehat.kalo tak kaki mcm nak cabut.hehe.mcm org tua laak.

pepehal pon..tahniaah la kt akak aku pasaaaii da jadi bini org..tak sabo teman nak tunggu baby deme nnt.haha.

ok laaa..gua nak tido.letih daah.

mengkome layan le lagu nii..arab campo omputih.layan gak laa.hehe

Barak Allahu Lakuma - Maher Zain

We're here on this special day
Our hearts are full of pleasure
A day that brings the two of you
Close together
We're gathered here to celebrate
A moment you'll always treasure
We ask Allah to make your love
Last forever

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

From now you'll share all your chores chores
Through heart-ship to support each other
Together worshipping Allah
Seeking His pleasure

We pray that He will fill your life
With happiness and blessings
And grants your kids who make your home
Filled with laughter

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

بارك الله
بارك الله لكم ولنا

الله بارك لهما
الله أدم حبهما
الله صلّي وسلّم على رسول الله

الله تب علينا
الله ارض عنا
الله اهد خطانا
على سنة نبينا

Let's raise our hands and make Do'a
Like the Prophet taught us
And with one voice
Let's all say, say, say

بارك الله لكما وبارك عليكما
وجمع بينكما في خير

this is it!!

2010-05-10T20:42:00.002+08:00

finaaaaaaaaallllyy..final exam is over! that's mean i just completed my fourth year 1st trimester which means the next trimester is my final trimester in MMU!!

hopefully i pass all the papers for this sem and next sem will be the ultimate craziest sem ever. i still cant imagine me - the laziest person ever, taken 7 subjects! woo0oow~~God bless me!

neway, i am currently enjoy each moment of today. i ate at sushi king when actually i need a sleep. i feels like a zombie there staring at all those sushis. but...thanks for jing en, doreen and freda for wake me up with stupid jokes. then i bought mask at faceshop just thinking that i need to pamper my self especially my face as i have abandoned them for a week.

when i got back, i just right way 'pengsan' until 6.30 where i have an appointment with this pretty beautiful lady lisa surihani. who doesnt want to date her right~hahaha.

as for now, i just online and enjoy my 'nothing to do' moment. actually i have things to do lar..i need to tidy up my messy room which is just not much differ as a paper recycle center. it's A LOT of paper on my table, my bed, under my table, on the floor....aaaihh..but i'm not goin to collect all the papers now. now is the ti,e for me and myself and of course my dear lovey dovey hard disk.

ok peeps... see u guys next time. i want to chill my self with some good musik and of course my possessive bed! till then...enjoy this song...

Drive by Incubus

Sometimes,
I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can't help but ask myself
How much I'll let the fear Take the wheel and steer

It's driven me before And it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
But lately I'm beginning to find that I
Should be the one behind the wheel

(Chorus:)
Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there
I'll be there

So if I decide to waiver my
Chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine
And hold my own and drive, ohh

It's driven me before And it seems to be the way
That everyone else gets around
But lately I'm beginning to find that when
I drive myself my light is found

Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there
I'll be there

Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive

Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes, yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings
I'll be there
I'll be there

helllluuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~

2010-04-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

phewwwitttttttttttttttttt...it's been like almost a month i've abondoned my blog. it's not that i'm too lazy or nothing to share..but i have so fucking lots of things to do. assignment, presentation, assignment, presentation, assignment presentation, mid term, and finally.....mock trial.

and today, i am totally free from all this thinggy. i feel bad for myself when i cant even started study and my first paper is next monday. yes. NEXT MONDAY!! so0o0..todaayyy i will start my revision and i'm going to torture my self for sure to absorb all the principles and cases as quick as i can.

hopefully my brain can corporate well with me to absorb and store well all the things that i'm gonna read later. i never start study this late.

anyway..actually i've lots of things to share here but i think that it just no longer fresh to share. so maybe next time when i have anything interesting to share i'll post it here.

for now, i need to study. if i come here later to write that's means i am fucking stress!!

okaayy enjoy this beautiful song. :)

Take It Slow by Estrella

i will keep you waiting
until you say something
baby don't be hating
i’m just doin my thing

no no no no, can u fill me in.

can i get your number
i will be your shelter
through the rain or thunder
break your heart i’ll never

love i’ll promise you forever.

c/o
maybe we can take it slow
i could show you what you’ve been waiting for
maybe we can take it slow
just let me show you what you've been waiting for

Sinking in each other
we will be together
lacing up my fingers
saving all my kisses for you, baby
you’re all that i need and
it’s got me thinking..

al-fatihah pakcik mokhtar

2010-04-02T04:56:00.003+08:00

just now at 3 am i received fon called from my sist. obviously it's weird to received fon call from her early in the morning.but i dun expect that news. suddenly she said "weyh dekno, pakcik mokhtar da meninggal" i feel like my world stop for a while. and of cos i ask her to repeat that again. it's a big shock for me!!i dont expect this at all!!

i just feel down for losing one of my favourite comedian, and then yea i'm losing my beloved uncle. a person that always break the silence with his jokes, riddles and lots of "i have this friend" story.

of cos i'm crying like hell.i never expect this.and my hand is damn shaking.my heart beat so fast that i feel like to faint!!!losing someone is my weakness. thank GOD i have friend to share my feelings with. to faisal and eddy.thanks for those words. yea i know i need to be tough and strong to face all this.

and now i'm preparing my mental to face the situation in kuala kangsar later. of cos the emotion is running high. and i promise myself to be tough so that i can comfort my cousins as i know this must be hard time.damn hard time.

i hope and pray to Allah that may He bless my uncle and placed him among all good persons.

and of course, i'm gonna missed you pakcik mokhtar!! Al-fatihah.

In the name of Allah, the most beneficent, the most merciful

"All the praises and thanks be to Allah, the lord of the "Alamin" (Mankind, Jinns, and all that exists).* The most Beneficent, the most merciful.* The only Owner (and the only Ruling Judge) Of the Day of Recompense (I.e. the Day of Resurrection)* You (Alone) we worship, and you (Alone) we ask for help (for each and everything).* Guide us to the straight way* The Way of those on whom you have bestowed your

Grace, not (the way) of those who earned your anger, nor of those who went astray."

Al-fatihah

2010-04-02T01:35:00.003+08:00

Al-fatihah kepada Allahyarham Din Beramboi. sangat2 sedeyh rasanya hati ini.i feel down all of sudden :(

baru kejap td aku attach video dia yang memang lawak gilaaa.yang aku tengok juta2 kali pon mesti aku gelak.tapi sekaraangg dia da tiada lagi...

macam stop kejap jantung ni bila dapat tau dia dah takda lagii. ingatkan faisal memain je bagi tau.sekali betoi2 dia da takdaa.what a lost~~

dan tadi jugak la habih aku layan semua episod spontan kat u tube sebelom aku attach video dia kat blog aku.

semoga abg din ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yang beriman. besar pahala abg din sebab selalu buat orang ketawa dan mengubat hati dengan lawak jenakanya.

i'm gonna missed u abg din!!u're the best!!!

Andai Ku Tahu by Ungu

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan, tolong panjangkan umurku

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba masaku
Ku akan memohon
Tuhan, jangan kau ambil nyawaku

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Andai ku tahu
Malaikat-Mu kan menjemputku
Izinkan aku
mengucap kata taubat pada-Mu

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku dari segala dosa-dosaku
Ampuni aku menangisku bertaubat pada-Mu

Aku manusia yang takut neraka
Namun aku juga tak pantas di syurga

Andai ku tahu
Kapan tiba ajalku
Izinkan aku
mengucap kata taubat pada-Mu

Aku takut akan semua dosa-dosaku
Aku takut dosa yang terus membayangiku

Ampuni aku dari segala dosa-dosaku
Ampuni aku menangisku bertaubat pada-Mu

telinga syaitannn!!!

2010-04-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

yea...tajuk post aku kali ni berbaur mistik sikitt. dan yang pasti post kali ini berkenaan dgn kawan aku sorang ni yang memang terlampau la hebat ilmu mistiknyaaa. tapi identiti kawan aku tu terpaksa la dirahsiakan atas sebab2 tertentu yek.

dia ni ilmu nyaaa memang tinggi. bela membela ni memang menda biasa. dia ada 4 kottt...selalu orang ada 1 pon susah nak maintain, dia ni sampai 4. dasattt. mengikut ceghita kawan aku ni yang hat 4 tu nama depa Nudin, Cristabelle, Minah dgn Francesco.

aku pon tak tau la cam na nak nasehat dia nii....taksub bebeno.sampaikann kemana saja dia pegi mesti dia bawak menda 4 niii.

ni video yang aku letak ni la yang buat dia taksub sgtt dengan bela2 niii.

kepada berkenaannn..insap la. aku ni kawan yang baiikk.tu yang aku nasehat kamu nii. lepaih ni kamu bawak2 le buang yang 4 tu.

dengan itu, wabillahi wataufiq wahidayah, wassalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh. ;)

lagu ni aku tujukan khas kepada kawan aku tu..... ;D

Let There Be Love by Oasis

Who Kicked A Hole In The Sky
So The Heavens Would Cry Over Me?
Who Stole The Soul From The Sun
In A World Come Undone At The Seams?

Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love

I Hope The Weather Is Calm
As You Sail Up Your Heavenly Stream
Suspended Clear In The Sky
Are The Words That We Sing In Our Dreams

Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love

Come On, Baby Blue, Shake Up Your Tired Eyes
The World Is Waiting For You
May All Your Dreaming Fill The Empty Sky
But If It Makes You Happy Keep On Clapping
Just Remember I'll Be By Your Side
And If You Don't Let Go It's Gonna Pass You By

Who Kicked A Hole In The Sky
So The Heavens Would Cry Over Me?
Who Stole The Soul From The Sun
In A World Come Undone At The Seams?

Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love
Let There Be Love

my greatest drugs!!!

2010-03-25T17:30:00.004+08:00

1. my pc!!

- obviously i cant live without my pc. i'll feel something missing in my life if i dont use it for one day. and i'm gonna miss it like crazy when i'm goin' back to my hometown.

2 my musik

- i feel incomplete if i dont listen to my playlist for a day. i'm gonna miss it so0o bad. and i only enjoy listening to the musik i love thru my pc. dun ask me why cuz idk~ =]

3. apo?

- yeah for this greatest medicine i need to credited to my sis as she the one that introduce me to this wonderful magazine or comic?i think apo? is both comic and magazine. =) apo? always be the best medicine when i am emotionally unstable.

4. nescafe ice - must be the deep chill sensation manufactured by nestle.

- i love this drink from alpha. yea its taste do helps me to chill. and i will drink it when i need to stay up and study or just to feel good. basically apo? and nescafe ice have the same function and effect.

5. bed

- this is the last resort when all of the above are not working. the best things to do is lying on my bed and sleeep!!!

drugs which i wish to own.

1. punching bag!

- i love punching bag!!!! and i really want it so that when i'm stress, i can punch it like hell!!

2. guitar

- since i love musik. and one of my favourite instrument is guitar, so i wish to own a guitar. but...for now, it still pending until further notice. my mom not allowed me to own a guitar untilll i completed my studyyy. y lar maaakkkk?? :'(

yea for now that's all my greatest drugs. and now i am enjoying my self with all of them. pc, musik, apo?, nescafe and bed. punching bag and guitar are coming sooonn.hahaha.

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched, helpless
As she turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go...

the lots of things!!!

2010-03-24T20:53:00.002+08:00

homaigod!!it's been a long time i didnt wrote here.

it's not that i have nothing to share. but it just me that so damn effing busy. i have tonnessss of things to do.

and here is the list.

1. assignments
2. mid terms
3. mooting
4. law night
5. shopping [as it related to law night]
6. yea most of the time MOOTING!!

up till now...i still hv 3 assignments to go, 1 mid term, law night is coming this friday and i've done with my fucking mooting and soo does shopping.

ermm the shopping...i'm not so sure if i'm done.hahahaha. i'm thinking of buying some accessories but i'm not a person that loves them. they are just for the sake of law night. so0o i'm not sure bout that.hehe.

the mooting. yea i've done it!!completely done!!and as usual we lost!!hahaha. i dont care and i dont want to care. whatever sir "locus standi". i kno u loves so much locus standi until u keep asking that. wish to see u one fine day :)

then what??nothing.

actually there's a lot of things that i would like to share..but i cant remember them. nvm. maybe next time.

ok laaa.i just drop by to update something.or else i forget my blog password.hehe.daaaaa~~

just now, i've this sentimental mode and been listening to this sad love song. to all readers, enjoy this song =)

That's Why You Go Away by Michael Learns To Rock

Baby won't you tell me
why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

Chorus:
Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

all the good things!!

2010-03-06T02:22:00.002+08:00

2009

i hate 2009.
i hate this year!!
i feel like someone cursing me soooo bad!
i need sugar to add into my life!!
my emotional is running so0o high like it just took lots of ice!!
obviously i am emotionally sick!
i am fucking restless and sick of exam!!
lots of issues and lots of dissatisfaction heart!
lots of relationship problem!

2010

yea it's a good beginning.
good long day.
my emotion is under control.
a bit upset but then being compensate with something that obviously unexpected!!
all those 2009's misery seem like gone already!!
everything is just going well.
lots of unexpected things happen!! and i ♥ it!!
create good relationships and the relationships are like strengthening day to day!!!!
being a good positive thinker with high self respect!!

* the list are up till march and i hope those good feelings will always with me until the end of this year and continue to the upcoming yearssssss.

no words can express how do i feel right now. i am content with all the good things!! thanks to ALLAH for all these goodness!

In Joy And Sorrow by HIM

Oh girl we are the same
we are young and lost and so afraid
there's no cure for the pain
no shelter from the rain
All our prayers seem to fail

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

Oh girl we are the same
we are strong and blessed and so brave
with souls to be saved and faith regained
all our tears wipe away

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart

In joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
(And my home's in your arms)
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
(And it is breaking my heart)
in joy and sorrow my home's in your arms
(My home's in your arms)
in world so hollow it is breaking my heart
(And it is breaking my heart)

in between

2010-02-24T22:58:00.003+08:00

should i? or should not i?

should i? or should not i?

whutta tough decision~~

Crushcrushcrush by Paramore

I got a lot to say to you
Yeah, I got a lot to say
I noticed your eyes are always glued to me
Keeping them here
And it makes no sense at all

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies
They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
You little spies

Crush
Crush
Crush
Crush, crush
(Two, three, four!)

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this now

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
No, oh

Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone
Just the one-two of us, who's counting on
That never happens
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than
More than this
Ohoh ohoh ohoh
Oooh...

after all the shits, hey look!! there's a flower!!

2010-02-23T20:51:00.007+08:00

ermmm...[smiling, scratching head, thinking, blurring, smiling]

after all the unacceptable "judgment" that i've face before, it's totally unbelievable that me and my co-counsel make it to the next stage. i do happy and speechless..wondering how they calculating the marks..neway i've make it to top four over 44 group...wooo hooooooo~~

obviously i really feel like i'm dreaminggg! and it's kinda weird when all my friends congratulate me and my co-counsel miss freda :)

anyway the question is there,and it's the same question. hopefully i can do better than before.

at this moment, i really thankful to ALLAH for this good things. after all the shits happen to me, now i can smile. and with full heart i pray that all the good things will always with me.

ok ciao! i'm so speechless to say anything else. it just that i am so fucking happy!! *grinningggg*

*if only i could share this happy moment with u...*

Don't Dream It's Over by Sixpence None The Richer

There is freedom within, there is freedom without,
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup.
There's a battle ahead, many battles are lost,
But you'll never see the end of the road,
While you're traveling with me.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
They come, they come,
To build a wall between us.
We know they won't win.

Now I'm towing my car, there's a hole in the roof.
My possessions are causing me suspicion but there's no proof.
In the paper today, tales of war and of waste,
But you turn right over to the T.V. page.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
They come, they come,
To build a wall between us.

We know they won't win.

- MUSIC INTERLUDE -

Now I'm walking again to the beat of a drum.
And I'm counting the steps to the door of your heart.
Only shadows ahead barely clearing the roof,
Get to know the feeling of liberation and relief.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
They come, they come,
To build a wall between us.
We know they won't win.

Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in,
Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now,
When the world comes in...
Hey now, hey now,
Don't dream it's over.
Hey now, hey now... [FADE OUT

speechless

2010-02-20T21:55:00.004+08:00

pesal tuuu?
motif?
apsal ngengada sangaattt?
giler gedik.
perlu ke??
nape macam sgt seswatu??
ouh tak paham.
maseh tak paham.
perlu ke mcm tu?
eyh maseh nak tau motif?
pelik giler perangai.
eiii tak suke.
lagi skali memang gedik.
tak sukalaaahh.
ntah hape hape.

ouh oke aku menyampah.

Piano Song by Meiko

Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Jealous of the way they walk, the way the talk
'Cause I don't think they know just what they got
I'm jealous of the way they look, the way they are
When I just want to be the way we were

And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me

Well, I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me, this side of me
This side of me

kalaaaahhh laahhh~~

2010-02-12T22:20:00.003+08:00

last nite i was in this competition called mooting. frankly, i am content with my team preparation. we have strong cases to support and strong arguments as well. we compare and contrast everything. we even provide a strong provision to support the respondent.

however, we still lost the case.

actually the issue right now is not that i try to persuade people to agree with me that my team deserve to win. but the issue here is how the judge judging. i am a bit disappointed with the judge last nite. he only comments that the applicant present the case well while my team is a bit lack of confidence. and because of that my team had lose the case.

yes i am not ok with that call "judgment". if the presentation is all about and not the content of the presentation, then dun ever have the applicant and respondent. maybe a public speaking contest is the appropriate one instead of mooting.

i am not the only one that face the above situation, some of my friends also face the same thing. it's all about presentation. and it could be that the judge had already set in their mind that they are with applicants.

anyhu...what pass is pass. this competition really makes me realize that no matter how good is your submission, it's all depends on judge.

i'm still not happy with my first ever submission, cuz i know that my team deserve to win this case. maybe our presentation is not fluent as them but in terms of the submission content, i believe that my team had done well.

anywayyy...still congrats to the applicants!! yes i do agree with the judge that u guys had present the case well!

You know you're right by Nirvana

I will never bother you
I will never promise too
I will never follow you
I will never bother you

Never say a word again
I will crawl away for good

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it would come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail
Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!

You know you're right
You know you're right
You know you're right

I'm so warm and calm inside
I no longer have to hide
Lets talk about someone else
Steaming soup against her mouth
Nothing really bothers her
She just wants to love herself

I will move away from here
You won't be afraid of fear
No thought was put into this
I always knew it'd come to this
Things have never been so swell
I have never failed to fail

Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!
Pain!!!

You know you're right (x14)
You know your right (x3)
Pain...

musik is the best damn thing!

2010-02-09T01:59:00.002+08:00

musik is the only things that can suit people no matter in what kind of situation they are in.
musik is so universal that unite people.
musik is for everyone regardless their status, age, religion and race.
musik could be a means for people to express their feelings.
musik, though it's not a living things, but it makes people feel alive.
musik inspired every heart that hopeless, lost and empty.
musik shares our joy and sorrow.

musik is the best damn thing that idk how to describe how it helps me to go thru every single day in my life.
when i'm happy, mad, lost temper, sad, confuse, falling, drowning well in short no matter what i feel, musik is there to shares my feeling.

♥ i LOVE you MUSIK ♥

The Story by Zee Avi

Broken dreams, broken dreams,
hopin' some day you'll see me.
Sky is gray, sky is gray,
but I'm dancin in the rain.
Live to sway, live to sway,
will you remember my name?
Live a lie, live a lie,
why don't you ask yourself why?

Don't you open your eyes?

Only the moon, only the moon, only the moon,
will hear my plea.
Only the creatures of the night,
will harmonize with me.
Missed you so, missed you so,
and I wondered if you know;
The wind has blown me in this corner
and it's hard to let go.

That's the story, that's the story
of you and me

That's the story, that's the story
of you and me

good night good day!!

2010-02-04T02:22:00.002+08:00

as i declared 3rd february 2010 is the best day i ever had, now it's 4th february and i hope this goodness will always with me. i am so happy today. everything is just going well and lots of unexpected things happen. it's been quite sometimes that i didnt feel this good.

ok then. i'm just being here to remark my best day. nanytess everyone!! *drowning mode*

Bring Me Flowers by Hope

I haven’t got a clue if you’re the one
But I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
I wanna do this right
Don’t wanna waste this night
But I’m drowning
Drowning in your love

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
Kiss my face
Your warm embrace
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

I’m a little scared to hold you close
Cause I just might never ever let you go
Caught up in your smile
I’m happy as a child
But I’m still drowning
Drowning in your love

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
Kiss my face
Your warm embrace
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

Oh, do do do do do do do

Your heart cares for nothing in return
And I’m just taking
Taking you in
Caught up in your smile
I’m happy as a child
But I’m still drowning
Drowning in your love

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
Kiss my face
Your warm embrace
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

Close my eyes
And dream for miles
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

Bring me flowers
And talk for hours
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel
Kiss my face
Your warm embrace
And ooh I like you
And ooh I like how you make me feel

i wish i am invisible.....to certain people.

2010-01-25T01:28:00.002+08:00

Case 1

i was walking from my office to the restaurant nearby, suddenly;

"hye awakkk.sorang je??baik2 jalan tuuu. nak abang temankan ke?"

Case 2

i was waiting my bro to fetch me and....

"fuiyooooo...anak mami tuuu..giler cantek. ada nombor telepon?"

Case 3

i was cleaning my house and then came the annoying voice againnn

"fewwwitttttttt. hye awak. nama saya faiz.kawan saya adam. awakkk.oooo awakk. nama awak ape??"

case 4,5,6,7,8,9,10...........................[countless]

"different situation with similar kind of statement"

well..yeah i bet 99.99% of girls had face this annoying situation until we're like immune to it. but sometimes, i highly wish i can choose to be invisible in real life, just like in ym. i can choose to whom i am visible and to whom i am not. and with that i dont need to face all sorts of persons that obviously annoyed me to the max!

unfortunately, i cant. and i apparently i have no choice but to face it.

i wonder why some boys enjoy doing all those annoying thingy. cant they just let girls live freely in this world? urghh~ i understand if they do love girlss but i dont understand the need to disturb our peaceful life.

anyway~may God bless them! and i highly hope one day, it will be the other way around. people says karma exist. so maybe one day, it's girls time to tease boys. and on that particular time, they will understand how unpleasant the situation they are in.

i dedicated this song to all boys out there :D

Listen Up by Oasis

Listen up
What's the time said today
I'm gonna speak my mind
Take me up
To the top of the world
I wanna see my crime

Day by day
There's a man in a suit
Who's gonna make you pay
For the thoughts
That you think and the words
They won't let you say

One fine day
Gonna leave you all behind
It wouldn't be so bad
If I had more time

Sailing down a river alone
I've been trying to find
My way back home
But I don't believe in magic
Life is automatic but I don't mind being on my own
No, I don't mind being on my own

(repeat from top)

Sailing down a river alone
I've been trying to find
My way back home
But I don't believe in magic
Life is automatic
But I don't mind being on my own
I said that I don't mind
Being on my own
No, I don't mind being on my own
I said I don't mind being on my own

2010-01-19T20:44:00.003+08:00

yeaa!!akhirnya dapat tulis kat sini.

tadi selesailah sudah presentasi aku. syukur alhamdullillahhh. segalanya da habihh..la ni aku nak focus tang mooting plak.

aku rasa mcm susah je mooting nii..hehe. nak kene keje keraih skeyt.kang malu je dgn junior.huhu.

aku rasa tahun ni adalah tahun bz aku. mcm2 agenda. memule presentasi. kendian mooting, pastu midterm and final exam, pastu kakak kawen. pastu ntah la ape lg.

hah! kakak kawen. ni aku nak citer skeyt. sepanjang 4 bulan aku kat kuale, aku je yang gi settle hal kawen kakak. mcm aku plak yang nak kawen.

pegi kedai printing, amoi tu tanye, "u yang nak kawen ke?"
gi kedai nyonya bunga telur "u nak kawen bulan berapa?"
gi kedai gambo "ooo ini ke anak yang nak kawen tu?" - uncle tu tanye kt mak aku.
gi kedai pengantin "yang ini ke yang bertunang hari tu?"
gi deal dgn org catering "yang ini ke yang nak kawen nye?"

haihhh~~ape nak buat sume pn aku yg handle. jatuh saham aku je.heheh.

ape2 pn since aku pengapit akak aku, so aku pn nak la glemer gak.hehe. tapi tu laa mak andam kata takleyh mekap beria. kang aku kawen da tak naik seri katanye. haih~mcm2 pantang larang.

tak kurang gak member2 kat opis kate kang kawen lambat kalo jd pengapit. haha. tapi aku tak kesah ponn~kawen la umor berape pn. bukannye umor 30 ke ataih tu haram kawen ye dak..

anyway..apa yang pasti aku da gumukk!! oh no~~skang ni aku betoi2 nak kena kuruih balikkkk sebelom raya cina. pasai nnt raya cina aku nak pi tempah baju pengapit.haha.

maka dengan itu, bermulalah diet aku. makan sehari sekali je. ayaq mati 2liter setiap hari dan rajin2 la berjalan. wat mase ni aku tak pi jogging lg pasai idop maseh tak stabil.haha.

maybe esok lusa la aku pi jogging. td igt nak pi jogging, tapi da letih. kang pengsan plak aku tgh padang.haha.

ha lagi satuuu haiii~~ni memang sadisss! aku rasa macam nak ilang nyawa. pc aku ni aku rasa bervirus.pasai dia suka restart. so aku igt nak format balik. esok lusa la kot aku antaq pi kedai. nak format sendiri takot tak jadi plak. pasai ni melibatkan virus jahanam trojan! eloklah orang yang lg expert yg formatkan..haih..format lg.sian pc aku nii.ntah berapa kali format aku pn tak berapa igt.huhu.

jadi dengan itu tamat la post kali ini. nanti kot ada mende menarik aku nak share ke, nak ngumpat ke, nak mengadu nasib ke aku mai lg. skang ni idop tonggang langgang lg.tak leyh nak pikiaq.haha.

Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse

I'm desperate for changing

Starving for truth

I'm closer to where I started

I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all i've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking

Completely incomplete

I'll take your invitation

You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all i've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing i know

I'm running and not quite sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose

Nothing else to find

There's nothing in the world

That can change my mind

There is nothing else

I'm desperate for changing

Starving for truth

I'm closer to where I started

I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I've held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and not quite sure where to go

I don't know what i'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment

Hanging by a moment

Hanging by a moment here with you

fucking goodbye 2009. a very big welcome 2010.

2009-12-31T21:45:00.003+08:00

finally, akhirnya, inilaaahh ni laaah diaa dia ni laaah yang dinanti2kan. fucking goodbye 2009. woooooohoooo!!!

setelah dirundum malang bertimpa2, akhirnya berakhirlah 2009 ini. dengan harapan malang yang bertimpa2 ini berhentilah di sini.

kalo korang2 pembaca blog perasan, tahun 2009 ni mcm2 jenih masalah menimpa. tengok la balik previous2 post aku. hehe.

esok, bermulanya tahun baru. dan aku sangat mengharap 2010 akan menjadi tahun yang bertuah buat aku. semoga apa yang akan aku lalui esok dan 12 bulan mendatang adalah hari2 yang bahagia.

ouh ye..resolution aku utk 2010 ni adalah:-
- aku nak kurus.kalo tak dpt selim mcm dulu pn, at least aku fit. hehe.

- aku jugak nak belajar rerajin. since aku da EPSILON ni, aku xmo la main banyak sgt. aku nak tumpukan pada setadi plak. most important, aku berdoa semoga aku dpt habiskan sume subjek dalam tahun ni.amiiiinnnnnnnnnnn. [korang pon doala utk aku skali]

- erm lagi pe ek azam aku.urmmm. tu je kottt.

yang penting aku nak aku go thru 2010 ni dgn penuh semangat juga tanpa masalah2 yang akan mengganggu gugat kesejahteraan hati dan nurani aku.heheh.

ha lagi satu. tadi tamat lah sudah prektikel aku td.heheh.sempat la buat gudbye party kt opis.huhu. pasni bleyh la aku tido lama2.hahahaha.

rasanye tu je aku nk tulih sempena berakhirnya tahun puaka 2009 dan kedatangan tahun baru penuh harapan 2010.

dengan itu

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 READERS!!!!!!

This Is It by Staind

Here we are
With nowhere else to go
And that's so far from where we all could be but
If you feel like disappearing you should take this for what it's worth

This is it, and it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be that the grass is always green

There you are, you dream of something better
What's so wrong with what you thought was true
If all the colors are disappearing
You should take this one for what it's worth

This is it, and it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be that the grass is always green

This is it, this is it, this is it, this is it
If you feel like disappearing
You should take this for what it's worth

This is it, and it fits
And it feels like this is good enough for me
Could it be that the grass is always green
This is it, this is it

fresh air

2009-12-18T13:41:00.003+08:00

when i'm not in the good mood, i need fresh air. fresh environment. maybe a different panorama will do.

i need to do something outside of my routine just to cool down this anger, my dissatisfaction heart, to forget everything that just mess my mind.

thus,

i choose to stay far away from "this" mess for awhile.
i choose to go to window shopping just to have a "beautiful" scenery.
i choose to eat something that i really craving for :D
i choose to listen to some songs which i less listen to.
i choose to cry which i'm not into it.
i choose to do something that obviously i hate it.

i choose all that just because i have buried everything deep inside my heart for quite sometime and now, my heart cant take it anymore.

people do said that we should always forgive and forget.

i am forgive and forget until the same thing happen and i cant my help my self from think of the past! the fucking PAST!

how on earth i can love and respect someone that never show me one. fuck off!fuck it! whatever!!

people might say that i'm silly and childish to upset over nada-nada things. but they never know how i try to respect and mingle someone that never respect me.

it such a bullshit when u expect someone that u never respect to respect u!!

u dun deserve anything from me until u show me some respect! huh~~

towards the end

2009-12-06T23:48:00.004+08:00

December. yeay~finally we're in december. but i'm not talking bout the end of this year but the end of LEGAL ATTACHMENT!!!!yes!yes!yes!

tak sabar nak habisss.neway tak sabar nak habis bukan sebab i hate the job, but just i think i need rest. [refer to my previos post :D]

on 31st Dec akan tamatlah tugas aku sebagai prektikel "loyer" kat firm yang pada aku sangat cool. dari loyer ke manager ke kerani - sumenye cool belaka. and i really dun hv to think twice to become one of them. [macam tak sabar plak nak chamber kt firm tu.heheh.]

kalau dikira2 ada la lebeyh kurang 3 minggu lagi.tolak cuti krismas dgn awal muharram, 20 hari je lagi. erm..sekejap je lagi~~

pastu da kena busykan diri dengan final repot.aih cam ne la aku nk buat final repot ni...maseh takda idea lagi niyh...nex week aku igt nak start da skeyt2. ye la nnt takde la rushing sgt. *huhu.semangat plak nak buat final repot.*

ouh.lagi satu agenda aku.mooting. hurm...aku da baca case.nampak mcm ok.tapi tak tau laaa kot2 susah nak dapat case support. hal mooting ni pon nak kene pikir gak.aih~~banyak plak menda nak pikir.

ouh.another thing that towards the end-aku nye study laaa.harap2nye aku dapat complete study aku in 2010. pembaca2 blog doakan la aku ek. cepat sket aku jd loyer.huhu.dan aku paling teramat berharap, 2010 akan jadi tahun yang better than 2009. kalo korang ada follow blog aku, korang paham la betapa bermasalah nya aku dalam tahun 2009 ni.huhu.

ok laaa.nak tido.esok teman keghoje.hehe.daaaaaa~

Sing for Absolution - Muse

lips are turning blue
a kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
my beautiful

tiptoe to your room
a starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
and you never knew

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

there's nowhere left to hide
in no one to confide
the truth runs deep inside
and will never die

lips are turning blue
a kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
my beautiful

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

sing for absolution
I will be singing
falling from your grace

our wrongs remain unrectified
and our souls won't be exhumed

what the fuck is wrong of being single???

2009-11-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

so what if i choose to be single instead of "double"??

does it makes me abnormal??no-no.

the one who is abnormal is the person who think i am.

i enjoy myself being single. and i'm not the type that doing something just to be one of them~

sometimes i wonder - is it a MUST for someone to have partner?

i wish i can stood up and said "so what the fuck is wrong of being single???

Dont Get Me Wrong by Lily Allen

Don’t get me wrong
If I'm looking kind of dazzled
I see neon lights
Whenever you walk by

Don’t get me wrong
If you say hello and I take a ride
Upon a sea where the mystic moon
Is playing havoc with the tide
Don’t get me wrong

Don’t get me wrong
If I'm acting so distracted
I’m thinking about the fireworks
That go off when you smile

Don’t get me wrong
If I split like light refracted
I’m only off to wander
Across a moonlit mile

Once in awhile
Two people meet
Seemingly for no reason
They just pass on the street
Suddenly thunder, showers everywhere
Who can explain the thunder and rain
But there’s something in the air

Don’t get me wrong
If I come and go like fashion
I might be great tomorrow
But hopeless yesterday

Don’t get me wrong
If I fall in the mode of passion
It might be unbelievable
But lets not say so long
It might just be fantastic
Don’t get me wrong

am i gay?

2009-11-24T23:38:00.003+08:00

it's kinda weird when i always received spam emails saying - "guaranteed married women for a date", "18sx: female with experience is waiting for u", "married female looking for a date" and etc2.

the issue is why female?why sending me email promoting married women?!

obviously i registered as a FEMALE for my yahoo id.

i wonder why they dont advertise a hawt GUY for me?or maybe unhappy married GUY looking for girls, or bla bla bla a GUY.

weird and funny at time.heheh. i just clean up those spams.haih~i think later if i still received the spams, i want to keeps it all and show it here :P

*still wondering why.*

anyhu..i'm not interested to see whats inside the spam email...i bet it might has virus in them.

Supermassive Black Hole by Muse

Ooh, baby don't you know I suffer?
Oh, baby can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretenses
How long before you let me go?

Ooh, you set my soul alight
Ooh, you set my soul alight

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul)

I thought I was a fool for no one
But ooh, baby I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
And how long before you tell the truth?

Ooh, you set my soul alight
Ooh, you set my soul alight

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul)

Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole
Supermassive black hole

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul alight)
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstars sucked into the supermassive
(Ooh, you set my soul)

Supermassive black hole

i need a fucking rest

2009-11-20T10:00:00.004+08:00

a month and two weeks of attachment - i feel bored, sick, lifeless, exhausted.

i need a fucking rest! a day for a rest is just not enuff. more than that, i'm fucking lifeless here!

everyday is the same day. from home to office, and from office to home. no lepak-ing, no movies, no window shopping, no day out!

the working commitments - stop me from doing anything that i really want. i cant have a vacation since i'm working 6 days a week. i cant follow my parents travel here and there because of this fucking attachment!

after work-stay at home, online like i fucking enjoy it or watching CSI from my hdd. luckily i have hdd. if not i just drop dead boring.

weekend-home. watching hindustan movie, tamil movie, english movie, malay movie - all sorts of movies. i really has no where to go.

i wish i have a car, so i can travel on my own.
i wish i have friends here to hang out with.

but still....thank God for the family.at least i am not alone..i still have parents to talk with, lil baby to play with and cousins to laugh with.

"Join Me In Death" by HIM

Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death
Baby join me in death

We are so young
our lives have just begun
but already we're considering
escape from this world

and we've waited for so long
for this moment to come
we're so anxious to be together
together in death

Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won't you die
Baby join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death

This world is a cruel place
and we're here only to lose
so before life tears us apart let
death bless me with you

Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won't you die
Baby join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death

this life ain't worth living
this life ain't worth living
this life ain't worth living
this life ain't worth living

Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death
Won't you die
Baby join me in death
Won't you die tonight for love
Baby join me in death

Baby join me in death

riak, dengki, busuk hati, dendam, fitnah

2009-11-16T22:51:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder why people with education can be such a BEAST!

RIAK

kenapa mesti ada sikap ni??perlu ke berbangga2, bermegah2 dengan apa yg kite ade? or to the extend where riak dengan sesuatu yang di ada2kan.. i couldnt understand people that enjoy telling others what they have, how much money they earn per month..urghhhh~can u just shut up!who cares how much money u have. when come to worst, u create a bloody fairytale that u're one rich person in town where the fact that u're slightly above beggar! sometimes i wonder if all those fairytales are purposely created by u or u youself are living in that fucking fairytales thinking that u're filthy rich! HELLo.. duit bukan boleyh bawak mati ponnn! urghh~~~

DENGKI

bila ada sikap riak, sikap dengki akan menyusul. dengki apabila melihat orang lain berjaya membina kehidupan yang lebih baik. kamu takkan pernah suka melihat orang sekeliling kamu ada apa yang kamu tiada. lebih2 lagi apabila apabila mereka ada sesuatu yang sememangnya kamu idam2kan selama ini. susah. untuk menyedapkan hati kamu, maka kamu akan bersikap riak. cuba membuktikan kamulah yang terbaik. sedarlah wahai kamu, tak semua yang ada pada orang lain ada pada kita dan tak semua yang ada pada kita ada pada orang lain. bersyukur sajalah dengan apa yang kamu ada. tak perlu kehulu kehilir pertikaikan harta milik orang lain dan membandingkan status kamu dengan orang lain hanya untuk memastikan kamu lebeyh bagus dari mereka.

BUSUK HATI

apabila menyedari ada orang lain yang lebeyh bagus dari mereka, sikap busuk hati akan timbul. mulalaah rasa benci terhadap orang itu, walaupon orang tu tak penah walau sekelumit menyakitkan hati mereka. apabila dah ada perangai busuk hati, si busuk hati pastinya akan mengata yang bukan2 pada orang yang tak disenanginya. mungkin akan mengganggu ketenteraman orang tersebut. kepada orang yang tidak disenangi itu, jalan terbaik adalah dengan berdiam diri. kerana jika diayan si busuk hati ni sampai bila2 pun dia akan mengata.

DENDAM

inilah penyakit hati paling kronik. kalau diikutkan kalau orang tu marah lebih 3 jam itu maknanya dendam. [if i'm not mistaken laa~] obviously aku pon ada berdendam..tetapi dendam tu akan hilang as time goes by. tetapi malang bagi orang yang tidak pernah nak bermuhasabah diri, mencari kesilapan diri, dan terus berdendam. orang yang berdendam tidak akan pernah puas memburuk2kan orang yang didendami. kepada kamu yang suka berdendam [altho i kno that person never read my blog] sudah2 lah berdendam. sikap dendam membuatkan muka menjadi keruh tidak berseri. apa bila hati dipenuhi dendam, kesannya akan kelihatan diwajah. tak guna pakai skII skali pon kalau hati tak pernah suci dari sikap dendam.

FITNAH

apabila dendam menguasai diri, nafsu menjadi raja, akal kurniaan Allah di ketepikan, Syaitan menjadi rujukan, mulalah memfitnah semata2 nak menjatuhkan musuh. ada pepatah berkata lidah yang sepanjang tiga inci boleh membunuh manusia setinggi enam kaki. manusia jenis ini bagaikan manusia bertuhankan nafsu. melakukan apa saja asalkan dapat memuaskan hati dan perasaan. dengan fitnah, kamu berharap musuh kamu akan porak peranda keluarganya, di ketepikan oleh saudara maranya dan dipulau masyarakat. tetapi haruslah pemfitnah tu ingat yang Allah sentiasa memakbulkan doa orang yang teraniaya.

- begitulah sikap manusia yang bagaikan tidak takut pada YANG SATU.

Pada hari kiamat Allah berfirman, ketika semua manusia melihat catatan amalannya, “Pergilah kamu semua kepada apa yang kamu jadikan harapan (riak) di dunia. Lihatlah apakah kamu semua memperoleh balasan daripada mereka.” (Hadis riwayat Ahmad dan Baihaqi)

Firman Allah yang bermaksud: “Maka kecelakaanlah bagi orang yang solat (iaitu) orang yang lalai dari solatnya dan orang berbuat riak.” (Surah al-Maa'um, ayat 4 - 6)

Rasulullah SAW bersabda bermaksud: â€œAkan muncul suatu ketika di mana ilmu Islam dihapuskan, muncul pelbagai fitnah, berleluasa sifat kedekut dan banyak berlaku jenayah.â€ (Hadis riwayat Muslim)

Sabda Rasulullah SAW bermaksud: â€œTidak masuk syurga orang yang suka menyebarkan fitnah.â€ (Hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)

"Siapa yang menahan perasaan marah sedangkan dia mampu untuk melaksanakannya (melepaskan kemarahannya), maka kelak pada hari kiamat, Allah akan memanggilnya di hadapan sekalian makhluk, kemudian disuruhnya memilih bidadari sekehendaknya." (Hadis riwayat Imam al-Tirmidzi)

boipren?kawen?

2009-11-09T23:51:00.003+08:00

Acik Ica: nur tahun depan 22 la ek.
saya: tak laah.tahun depan dekno da 23 daa.
Acik Ica: o0o0oo0o...da buleyh kawen le kalo mcm tu.
Saya: ?????????. kawen mende. xnak laa.dekno nak beli umah, beli kete dulu nak bayor utang banyak lagi..

yang sebenarnya, aku tak pernah terpikir bab2 kawen. tapi tu laa..resam kehidupan.bila da 20an. blajo pon da nak habih.mesti kua punye soklan pelik seperti:-

- dekno, ada boipren?
- my answer is - pe barang boipren2 nii..tak majula ada boipren.hahaha.indahkaaaan.

-tak lama laaagi kenduri dekno le plak. [means pas kakak aku kawen, turn aku le plak.]
-aku menjawab - jaaaaaaaaauhhh laaagi..dekno muda lagi. nak kumpul duit banyak2 dulu.nak beli kete, nak beli umah, nak beli macam2. [impian aku nak bg mak and abah duit tiap2 bulan sampai mak and abah tak perlu pkai duit diorang utk belanja apa2. sume pakai duit aku je.]

makcik A:dekno, boipren org mana?
saya: mane ade boipren laa.
makcik A:isyhhh..tipu la xde..
saya:[whatever]

Atta: nur, kamu nnt kalau nak cari suami, cari yang elok sikit. kamu kena tau keluarga dia macam mana. dia pon kena tau keluarga kite macam mana.
Saya: baik atta.
Atta: kamu kene igt tu. org jantan zaman skang ni banyak perangai tak elok. tak bertanggung jawab. cari yang elok2. yang hormat org tua.
Saya: ok atta. :)
Makco: die budak lagiiii..nak buat ape ckp mende2 tu sume kat die.
saya: [thanks makco]
Atta: dakk..ni penting nii..kene bagi tau diaaa. orang jantan zaman le ni bukan bleyh percaye sgt.
Saya: [ape2 laaa...]

haih...macam2 la. biler kuar sume ayat2 berkaitan kawen tetibe terasa TUA.hahaha. dah la ada kawan2 aku yang da kawen, beranak pinak lagi...haih~~laaaagi la terasa betapa aku sedang di mamah usia.

apa la aku carut niii..tapi itulah hakikat.aku da TUA. in boipren matters, bukan le aku nk kate
sape de boipren tak maju.tapi yang benornye aku tak jumpe yang berkenan lg.hahahha. maklumlaa kalau bleyh aku nak ashraf muslim.hehe. tu yang malaih nk pikir2 boipren niii. biorle dulu boipren2 nii..aku muda lagiii.lagipon tak bebas le berboipren. nanti2 la boipren sume niii.tak lari gunung di kejar. ye dak?hehe. ok le.awok nk beghansor dulu...bubyee~

Sweet Dreams by Beyonce Knowles

Turn the lights on

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes I'm going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide?

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

I mention you when I say my prayers
I wrap you around all of my thoughts
Boy you're my temporary high

I wish that when I wake up you're there
To wrap your arms around me for real
And tell me you'll stay by side

Clouds filled with stars cover the skies
And I hope it rains, you're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Tattoo your name across my heart so it will remain
Not even death can make us part
What kind of dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)

Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
(Turn the lights on)

My guilty pleasure, I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here I'll be floating on air
'Cause you're my

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you
(Turn the lights on)
Either way I don't wanna wake up from you

natural beauty

2009-11-05T23:31:00.011+08:00

make up or not to make up..

first..i admit that i am into make up stuff. specially eye liner..hehe.purpose to make up is to make my look be more fresh. i think without make up i'll look dull.

however, i myself hate those who over make up. specially all the celebrity..most of them are fake..not most but 99.99% of them are fake! too much make up just make ur face look weird and sometimes it will make their face ugly! but then they are celebrity of cos they need more make up to make their face looks fresh all the time..hehe. here are some celebrities face with and without make up.

Angelina jolie without make up

ni noryn aziz plak.

ni gamba sebelum..selepas tgk bwh...

ni diana danielle. she has the natural beauty.hehe.

rossa plaaak.kalo tak mekap nampak bese je..

ni scha alyahya special utk faisaal. "sal dia tak mekap pon lawaaa~maka aku approve la relationship hang dgn dia.hahahah."

with all those photos maka tamatlaah sudah kajian to make up or not to make up.

its ok to make up if u're public figure that require you to look "cantek" and fresh look most of the time but just make sure the make up is not too thick..heheh.however, if u're commoner just unwrap ur natural beauty. =D

paparazzi by lady gaga

We are the crowd
We're c-coming out
Got my flash on it's true
Need that picture of you
It's so magical
We'd be so fantastical

Leather and jeans
Your watch glamorous
Not sure what it means
But this photo of us
It don't have a price
Ready for those flashing lights
'Cause you know that baby I

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

I'll be your girl
Backstage at your show
Velvet ropes and guitars
Yeah cause you'll know
I'm staring between the sets
Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt
Yellow dance and return
My lashes are dry
But with teardrops I cry
It don't have a price
Loving you is cherry pie
'Cause you know that baby I

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Real good
(We dance in the studio)
Snap, snapped
(That shit on the radio)

Don't stop boy, rewind
We'll blast it but we'll still have fun!

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

ayam

2009-11-02T22:46:00.002+08:00

ayam adalah makanan peberet kebanyakan manusia di dunia~penulis sendiri menggemari ayam. paling best anak sepupu penulis (adek) yang berusia 2 tahun 3 bulan juga menggilai ayam.

ada beberapa kisah mengenai ayam.

KISAH 1

di zaman kanak2 dahulu kala, terdapat satu reban ayam di depan rumah opah penulis. rebannya taklah sebesar mane.tapi apa yang pasti penulis maseh ingat saat2 dimana penulis mengambil telur ayam dari reban. tidak dilupakan juga peristiwa abah penulis mengejar ayam dari reban opah sehingga sampai ke rumah penulis.jaraknya lebeyh kurang 200 meter.hehe.

KISAH 2

oleh kerana penulis tidak menggemari ikan kerana tulang2 ikan itu pasti mencederakan penulis, maka, di zaman persekolahan, mak penulis pasti akan membeli lauk ayam untuk penulis. sehinggalah sekarang, pasti ada lauk asing untuk penulis yang tidak makan ikan.hehe. walau bagaimana pon, jika tiada pilihan, mak penulis akan memaksa penulis memakan ikan. selalunya penulis akan makan ikan dalam keadaan terpaksa. =>

KISAH 3

mengenai adek yang menggilai ayam. sangat lucu! adek akan "slurppppp" setiap kali melihat ayam. pada suatu hari, sesuatu yang sangat kelakar terjadi. ketika penulis ingin makan nasik mak penulis pon berkata "ada ayam tu kamu makan le..."adek yang mendengar terus berkata "ayaaaaaammmm??slurpppppp~~" tatkala penulis sudah sedia untuk makan, adek datang berdiri sebelah penulis sambil tangan nya menunjuk2 ayam di dalam pinggan. penulis lalu menyuap adek sedikit ayam. sedikit demi sedikit lama2 ayam yang ada habis disuap ke mulut adek.penulis hanya sempat makan sedikit saja. :D begitulah kanak2 berusia 2 tahun menggilai ayam.

KISAH 4

tadi penulis pergi ke pasar malam. lalu mak membeli ayam. mak pilih yang kurus2 kerana penulis menyatakan pada mak bahawa ayam yang gemuk2 taksedap.muak.hehe. setelah ditimbang seekor 12 ringgit. tadi, penulis sempat menonton bujang lapok sebelum abah datang lalu tukar tengok cite ntah ape ntah. dalam cite bujang lapok, mereka beli ayam seekor (2 kati) 2 ringgit. murahnyaaaa! jauhnya beza dengan sekarang. [buat yang tak tahu, 2 kati bersamaan dengan 1.2kg] penulis lalu terpikir betapa kemodenan telah menaikkan living expenses. terpikir penulis mengenai nasib mereka2 yang dihimpit kemodenan. ntah bagaimana mereka menyara kehidupan. yang kaya dan miskin membayar harga yang sama untuk sekampit beras, dan sekilo ayam. tetapi wang diperolehi tidak sama. sedeyh penulis mengenangkan mereka yang terpaksa mencatu bekalan makanaan. =(

KISAH 5

kisah penjual ayam. hehehe. lawak sangat.tergelak penulis dengan ayat yang terpacul keluar dari mulut si penjual ayam yang tengah sebok memotong ayam. kesahnya ketika membeli ayam tadi, ada seorang wanita bertanyakan hati ayam kepada si penjual ayam. lalu si penjual ayam menjawab "hati ayam takde, tinggal hati saya je.nak?"haha. dalam kesibukan memotong ayam tu, sempat lagi si penjual ayam berseloroh.hehe.

tu je la cite pasal ayam. hurrrm...esok mak kate nak goreng ayam...nyum..nyum..bak kate adek slurpppppp~~~

Obsessed by Mariah Carey

I was like, why are you so obsessed with me?

So Oh Oh So Ohhh
Will the real MC please step to the mic?
MC- You need an MC, place to be
MC the MC

All up in the blogs
Say we met at the bar
When I don’t even know who you are
Say we up in your house
Sayin’ I’m up in your car
But you in LA and I’m out at Jermaine’s

I’m up in the A- you’re so so lame
And no on here even mentions your name
It must be the weed, it must be the E
Cuz you be poppin, hood, you get it poppin’

Ooh boy why you so obsessed with me?
Boy I want to know- lyin’ that you’re sexin me
When everybody knows it’s clear that you’re upset with me
Ohh finally found a girl that you couldn’t impress
Last man on the earth- still couldn’t get this

You’re delusional, you’re delusional
Boy you’re losing your mind
It’s confusin yo, you’re confused you know
Why you wasting your time?
Got you all fired up with your Napoleon complex
See right through you like you’re bathin’ in windex
[ Mariah Carey Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Ooh Ohh Ohh boy why you so obsessed with me?
And all the ladies sing, all the girls sing
Soo Oohhhh Soo Oohh Obsessed

You on your job, you hatin’ hard
Ain’t gon feed you, I'ma’ let you starve
Graspin’ for air I’m ventilation
You out of breath, hope you ain’t waitin
Tellin’ the world how much you miss me
But we never were so why you trippin’
You a mom and pop, I’m a corporation
I’m the press conference, you a conversation

Ooh boy why you so obsessed with me?
Boy I want to know- lyin’ that you’re sexin me
When everybody knows it’s clear that you’re upset with me
Ohh finally found a girl that you couldn’t impress
Last man on the earth- still couldn’t get this

You’re delusional, you’re delusional
Boy you’re losing your mind
It’s confusin yo, you’re confused you know
Why you wasting your time?
Got you all fired up with your Napoleon complex
See right through you like you’re bathin’ in windex

Ooh Ohh Ohh boy why you so obsessed with me?
And all the ladies sing, all the girls sing
Soo Oohhhh Soo Oohh Obsessed

i is back

2009-10-23T23:05:00.002+08:00

finally...i have time to write here....i am too busy with my work. and i can feel that i am much2 more lifeless than before..huhu.

i start my work at 9 until 5.30. that was tired! on my first day i slept at 8.30pm.hahaha.damn tired! i didnt get enuf sleep during exam and only two days after exam, i need to start my legal attachment. it's such a mentally and bodily torture..T_T

howevaaaa~~[pronounce it like dr MZ] i still enjoy working. i feel so lucky to have such a cool boss and colleague. PLUS my boss ask me whether i want to be a lawyer in that firm..she ask me three times!!! and i take it as an invitation to treat an i already offer myself to be a lawyer in that firm. i hope, the firm will accept me. :D

after two weeks staying with my mom, i can feel that i gain weight.hahah.i cannot say no to mom's cook!though it's only a plain soup.... =D

ouh...starting last week, i learn how to drive back!!weee ho0ooo~~after 2 years i didnt drive, i really forgot how to change gear!hahaha.

another things to go is i'm gonna own a guitar!!yeay..but its too optional :( my mom said that i only can buy a guitar if the firm give me allowance.thats the prob..i hv no idea bout it. hopefully they give me some allowance so i can hv a guitar and learn to play it. but i still uncertain with this idea to learn guitar. im worry if i just learn it for a while and give up..heheh.

okay i'm gotta stop here.i'm off to sleep cuz i'm working tomorow!!gosh!it's saturday. sometimes i wonder how my mom's feel when she work before....didnt she feel bored with work????its like u're doing the same thing everyday and u have no choice but to do it...sigh~~~

okay laaa...enjoy this song!

unintended by muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

no.more.malacca.

2009-10-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

yeaayyy~~~aku gembiraaaa...buat perhatian semua, kelibat aku tidak akan kelihatan di bandar heritage melaka mulai esok sehinggalaaaaahhh bulan 1 2010 dan kelibat aku akan kelihatan di royal town kuale kangsar sekitar bas station dan pasaraya sakan yek. juga mungkin di gym di sebelah malam dan di sekitar lembah di dini hari. kalo ade sesape ternampak kelibat aku di malaka, tu maknanya tak laaaamaaa la tu.hahaha

aku sangaaat teramatlaaah gembira tidak terkataaaa.inilaaah masa yang ditunggu2.....enuff of exams and ASS-ignmentss! though there's something that more challenging awaits for me in kuale, i'm fine with it! i just need to stay away from malacca for a while. as long as i'm wif my mom, everything will be perfect!

ouh. afta in a battle for four fucking day, i seriously suffer hardship to breath! yea.yea. to breath. saketnye nauzubilliaaaahhh.rasa macam kene hempap dengan besi ka, konkrit ka...and my heart beat so fast oke!macam baru lepas lari pecut setelah dikejar anjing gilaaa.rasanyaaa balik ni nak gi klinik laaa.nak tanye dokter nape laaa dada aku sakit sangat niiiii. mesti jawapan dokter tu

"ouh kamu ni stress.tak cukop rehat ni..banyakkan berehat yek. jangan skip meal jugak. breakfast penting. ni mungkin sebab angin kot. takpe2. saya bagi ubat angin yek.lagi ada apa2 sakit lagi. kalau takde okay.bleyh kuar." di kaunter." erm ni ubat untuk sakit kepala [pain killer], ni ubat angin dan yang ni muscle relaxant.sume sekali 30 hengget.bayar sekarang sebab kamu takde insuran" itulaaa ayat stendet biler pegi klinikkk.buang duit je. setakat bg nasehat camtu cekgu tadika pon boleyh. cuba la bagi explaination yang meyakinkan sekeytt. cakap la...

"ouh kamu ni tak cukup oksigen ni. tu yang sakeyt dada tu..jantung tu degup laju sebab nak pam oksigen yg ada secepat mungkin. kalau kamu sakit dada macam tu kamu ambil plastik dan bernafas dalam plastik tu. itu la cara paling mudah untuk kurangkan saket dada. tak cukup oksigen ni bahaya. kalo oksigen tak sampai otak buleyh mati!"

kalau dokter cakap macam ni at least terasa gak la yang aku ni memang sakeyt. sampai tahap bleyh mati. ni setakat kate stress la angin laa...takyah la jumpe dokter.mak aku pon tau sume tu.

okaylaa cukup la mengumpat dokter.hahaha.

ni nak story skeyt...

dikala exam, buat sekelian kalinyaaaa..aku menangihhh!menangihhh sampai keluar hinguih... sebab aku stress!! da la kepala sakeyt.dada sakeyt.pastu kena paksa diri setadi...sampai at one point, ilang segala kebaiii...lalu mengalirlaaah ayaq mata membasahi pipi, juga baju, juga bantal dan notes....

tak pernah aku se-stress ni!haih~~~ni baru third year.kalo fourth year ntah macam mane laaa...tapi satu je aku mintaaakk.jangaaan la buat keja gila letak exam 4 hari berturut. ni dah kire torture da ni.ghasa macam nak pi lari kedutaan turki daa~

lagi satu~~~~~~mesti aku rindu kat GP..haha.da la nak nampak dia pon susah...ni da jauh....laaaagi la tak nampakkkkk..hehe.

neway, fyi aku akan prektikel 3 bulan.hehehe. walopon neves, tp excited balik kuale mengatasi segalanyaaaa~ tatapi...sedeyh tu ada laaa jugaak.. mesti nanti aku rindu dengan kengkawaannn. huhu.tahun depan la baru jumpe balik mereka2. kepada kawan2 seangkatan...selalu2 ber-fb-ing dan selalu2 la online yek... sob..sob..

ok laaa...aku nak gi packing barang....ntah cukup bag ke tak ni...banyak tu nak kena bawak balik....ni kalo tak cukup ni terpaksa la aku bungkuih gune selimut ala2 faisal rosli. hehe. okayyy sume....see you guys next time. next post maybe tentang experience berkerja aku..hehe. kome layan le lagu ni....

Pergi Untuk Kembali by Ello

Syu Du Du 2x
Walaupun langit pada malam itu
Bermandikan cahaya bintang
Bulanpun bersinar betapa indahnya
Namun menambah kepedihan...oooh...

Ku akan pergi meninggalkan dirimu
Menyusuri liku hidupku
Janganlah kau bimbang
dan janganlah kau ragu
Berikanlah senyuman padaku...

Selamat tinggal kasih
sampai kita jumpa lagi
Aku pergi...Takkan lama..
Hanya sekejap saja ku akan kembali lagi
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti

Ku akan pergi meninggalkan dirimu
Menyusuri liku hidupku
Janganlah kau bimbang
dan janganlah kau ragu
Berikanlah senyuman padaku...

Selamat tinggal kasih
sampai kita jumpa lagi
Aku pergi...Takkan lama..
Hanya sekejap saja ku akan kembali lagi
Asalkan engkau tetap menanti

Syu Du Du 2x
Aku pergi...
Takkan lama..
Syu Du Du 2x
No, No no Ou.. Oh no
Menanti
Asalkan Engkau tetap menanti
Asalkan Engkau tetap menanti.......
Menanti.....................

suicidal!!!!!!

2009-10-03T22:22:00.003+08:00

arghhhhh!!!!never been this stress before! stress!stress!stress!

i dun get it.i dun understand!
how the ERU as well as the lecturers can approved the effing exam schedule!
heloooooo!!!this is a third year law degree final exam!
it such a ridiculous when you put all subjects in a row!!
whatdaya expect from students?????
we are like forcing our brain to absorb all the principle, and all sorts of cases!
u guys shud be a bit moderate!
give us some space AT LEAST a day.
or maybe two subject in a row then break for one day and another two subject after that..
i would be fine with it.

giving three days break and then i would be in a battle for four days is not helpful!
plus i'll finished my third exam in evening and the next day my exam at 9 a.m!

hope God give me lots of strength to go thru this!
i reallyy is SOS condition~

Drive by Client

Down down the backstreet
And you know I can't stop searching
I'm running from the nightmares
But I just can't stop the hurting
I feel like a loser
'Cause you won't god forgive me
I'll show I'm only human
Face the long dark road alone

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
Night driving on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

Another endless evening
Chasing shadows in the darkness
Impossible to silence
Have to face myself alone

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
Night driving on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
White lines on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive
Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive
Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive
Drive, drive to feel I'm alive
Drive, drive to keep me alive

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
Night driving on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

I want love I can't resist you
I cannot lose what I'm not gonna have
White lines on a motorway
I'm alive, I'm alive

I'm alive, I'm alive
Driving through the endless night
Guiding me your blinding light
Driving through the endless night
Guiding me your blinding light

Fight the pain, fight the pain
Fight the pain, fight the pain
It's in my soul, behind the wheel
Don't let go, don't let go
Fight the pain, fight the pain
Fight the pain, fight the pain
I'm alive, I'm alive

ntah hape2 ntah

2009-10-02T04:46:00.002+08:00

oppp!!oppp!!haroo0ooo~~~~

hari ni aku nak meluahkan perasaan sikit.bukanlaa nak berpiling2, tapi nak menceritakan laaa tentang seswatu.hehehe..

kesah nye macam ni....aku ni saje berpoya2 kat fb.lalu ternampak seseorang punye profile kat page megan fox..lalu aku pon menengoknye. kendian da aku belek2 profile tu aku peghati "someone" important takde dalam friendlist orang ni.

pastu aku bagi le link profile tu kakak aku, kakak aku pon tengok le....dan kakak aku nampak le someone yang aku tak nampak tu..macam pelik laa.nape kat aku takde.pastu kakak aku bagi link profile someone tu kt aku. tp bile aku klik je terus direct ke home page.

lalu aku pon inbestiget. selesei inbestiget gho0o0o0openye..............................someone tu block aku dalam fb!! padan le aku tgk takde.kakak aku tengok ada.

jadi issue yang nak diketengahkan adalaaah...peghangei tak cukop umor someone tu. biorle aku panggey die BITCH. sedap sekeyt name.

ko nak ber-fb silekan le.takyah le nak block2 orang dalam fb. childish gile. hek eleh igt aku kebulor sangat ke nak nyebok kat fb ko...poyo nak mamposss. selame ni pon aku lepak fs, ko yang selalu nyebok kat fs aku. ntah mane datang tetibe view.muke tak tau malu. dah view lepaih tu kate aku plak kaco ko. heh~ bawok2 le sedor diri.kome tu umor da lanjut. da berlaki pon. tak yah le wat peghangey orang tak beghakei.

macam le aku ni takde keje lain.nak ngekor [bahse omputeh - stalk] kome aje.banyak lagi mende lain aku bleyh buat. main restaurant city lagi best lar!

lagi satu, cukup la ko private page engko tu kalo ko takot sangat aku ni nengok. selame ni pon tak peghonah aku sebok nak cari2 ko dalam fb. aku jumpe pon sebab aku ternampak muka laki ko kat page megan fox. means selame hari ni ko le yang sebok2 cari aku kt fb. biler da jumpe teros block. hahahah. fucking freak!!!

kalo aku laaa...kalo aku da benci tahap longkang kat someone, aku takde teghingin nak tau ape2 pasei org tu. yang ko ni kononnye benci nak mampos kat aku ni boleyh plak cari aku dalam fb. aku pon tak tau le bile yang ko block aku. pasei selame ni aku tak peghonah tau kewujudan ko kat fb. haha. kesiaaaaaan. ntah2 bile nampak je profile aku mesti teros gelabah biawak. tu yang teross block tu. perasaaaan le tu kononnye nnt aku stalk ko kat fb.

kepada BITCH,

getta life. ko ada laki, ko ada keje, ko ader unfinished master. so tak yah la nak sebok2 pasal aku. tolong laaaa bawak2 move on. it's almost two years since all the stupid dramas. tak reti bahse letih ke??? orang lain sebok nak bersedara ko plak sebok nak bergadoh. sebok nak kesah hal sekufu~ kampong nak mampos. kalo nak kire sekufu, ko tu memang langsung tak bersekufu dengan aku..tapi ade aku kesahh??tak peghonah terpikir pn aku hal sekufu sume nii~pada aku kalo da sedara, miskin ke kaya ke burok ke busuk ke tetap sedara. tapi species manusia macam ko ni memang tak rugi pon ilang sedara. wat malu je ade sedara macam ni.

i'd rather have thousands of enemy than having you as my cousin.

21 Guns by Green Day 

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth  dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself  suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place  to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One,  21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up  your arms into the sky
You and I

When you're at the end of the  road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their  toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on  broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to  last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the  fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did  you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did  you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a  stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another  try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21  guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your  arms into the sky
You and I

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give  up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I  

raya ke???

2009-09-28T22:38:00.007+08:00

yeayyyy..akhirnya dapat jugak aku mengupdate story pasal raya.ni sume pasal lambat dapat gamba..huhu. maka dengan itu, untuk post yang ni aku lebeyh kan gamba dari kata2.chewahhh.

sebagai pembuka selera, aku tujukan kari kambing ni untuk tatapan sume. nyum nyum..

di malam raya, ruang angkasa kat umah aku diserikan dengan bunga api..cantek2 bunga api nye..tapi tu le tak dan nak tangkap.ni je le yang nampak.

sesi berpoya2 selepas takbir..=)

mak tengah iron baju raya.. =)

kemudiaaaaaannnnn......tralalala...sarung kusyen terbakar di malam raya.. lol. ni sume terjadi bile mak letak iron kt atas kusyen ni.tak tau plak die nye sensitip.angkat2 koyaaaakk. terpaksa la tukar dengan sarung yang da buruk.huhuhu.

kanak2 dikerah tenaga untuk tukar sarung kusyen..haha.

pepagi raya selepas balik semayang raya..

abang yang sangaaaat suka mengusik adek aku yang emo.hahaha

berangannnn...actually aku tgh pegang cincin yg aku pakaaaiii. cincin tu ketat. dan lupe nak gi besarkan.huhu. cincin tu tok aku yg bagi.maka.....di kala nak gi beraya kat umah dia tak kan tak pakai.kang kecik plak hati die.huhu

sesi bersalam salaman [salam dengan abah]

salam dengan mak.

dalam kete on da way nak balik butterworth. malangnya takda gamba kat butterworth.tak taw la nape.macam tak berminat je nak bergambar kat sanaa.haha.

ni gambo kat umah makcik aku. petang raya tu sesampai je kuale teros ke umah makcik aku ni. budak kecik yang paling bijak bergambar tu anak cousin aku. sangaaaat pandai, bijak, baik,nakal, cute etc.

neway tu je la gambo raya yang aku adaa.tak banyak sangaattt. kalo ade pon dengan kamera orang lain.maka tak dapat le aku nak menguploadnye.hehehe.

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Menjelang Hari Raya by Dj Dave

Menjelang hari raya
Berakhirnya puasa
Bergema takbir senja
Menyambut syawal tiba

Suasana riang ria
Terlihat sini sana
Menyeri malam raya
Terhias indah rupa

( korus )
Oh... cantik berseri-seri
Tua dan muda berpakaian serba baru
Oh... sungguh meriahnya
Miskin kaya pun turut bergembira

Selamat hari raya Aidil fitri mulia
Semoga berbahagia
Hidup aman sentosa

raya ke exam?

2009-09-10T21:14:00.004+08:00

since nak raya sesangat daah aku nk wat post pasal raya laaaa.heheheh.

taaaapiii [ayat stendet drama]

sat je raye.pastu da kena study untuk exam. :(

raya kah? raya tu kan tanda kemenangan?

macam tak raya lagi je.

8/10 baru la aku betoi2 raya. sebab da abih exam.

yang raya syawal ni....macam kemenangan sebab berjaya puasa di bulan ramadhan. tu je.

sedey sebab tak dapat enjoy raya at the fullest.

macam mana laaa nak raya sakan kalau dalam otak asyik ingat notes yang paling "bulky" itu?

da laaa badan ni semakin menjadi2 naiknye. nak makan time raya pon rasa bersalah. :(

macam kurang semangat je nak raya. yang ada cuma semangat nak balik umah.

sebab da lama sangat tak balik umah dan dah tak boleh tahan stay kat malapetaka eyh melaka.haha.

dengan pelbagai pressure-nye. masalah study, masalah kawan2, masalah dengan diri sendiri.

di kala diri dirundung kemurungan, rumah lah tempat yang sesuai untuk dituju. suara mak lah penenang jiwa, kata2 abah laah penguat semangat, gelak tawa adek beradek lah pengubat serabut.

maka, esok, dengan hati yang girang gembira, akan ku tuju ke tempat yang paling menenangkan.

i dont need a luxury vacation, i need no spa, all i need is a superb place call HOME.

menjelang hari raya yang mulia, aku menyusun 10 jari memohon maap kepada semua pembaca blog aku, kawan2 aku, family aku, cikgu2 aku, dan juga sesapa la yang "ter"offended dengan kata2 aku. al maklum laaaa aku ni kan mulut puaka skeytttt.hahaha.

ouh yaa..halal kan la makan minum, or ada terambik barang ka, or ada apa2 yg terkurang or terlebeyh harap dihalalkan laaa donia akhirat.

akhir kata,

semoga aku selaaaaaamaaat pergi, selaaaaamaaaat balik.

adios kawan.

Balik Kampung by Sudirman Hj Arshad -

Perjalanan jauh tak ku rasa
Kerna hati ku melonjak sama
Ingin berjumpa sanak saudara
Yang selalu bermain di mata

Nun menghijau gunung ladang dan rimba
Langit nan tinggi bertambah birunya
Deru angin turut sama berlagu
Semuanya bagaikan turut gembira

Balik kampung oh oh...( 3X )
Hati girang
Ho ho... Balik kampung (3X)
Hati girang

Terbayang wajah-wajah yang ku sayang
Satu-satu tersemat di kalbu
Pasti terubat rindu di hati
Menyambut kepulangan ku nanti

ramadhan & syawal =)

2009-09-01T15:22:00.002+08:00

salam ramadhan..

hari ni 11 ramadhan. lg 19 hari nak raya.
tak sabar rasanya nak balik ke kampung halaman.
puasa ni tak bukak pose lagi dengan mak and abah.
dan dikala puasa ini jugak la aku rindu dengan masakan mak.
rindu dengan hiruk pikuk di rumah bila tiba masa berbuka.
rindu nak dengar bunyi mercun bola yang boleh buat orang sakit jantung goal.

biler nak bukak puasa je,
tugas aku buh nasik kat dlm pinggan.
kendian buh air plak.
pastu amik kurma pas kt sume orang.hehe.
lepaih habih bukak pose, keje aku kemaih meja, kendian lap meja balik bagi kilat.hehe.
pastu gi terawekh.balik terawekh makan lagi!hehehe.

menjelang raya.

selalu bila nak raya, aku akan sebok buat kuih raya.
time sekolah2 dulu aku buat kuih mazola.kome tau ke kueh ni?yang gune kacang tanah tu..hehe
pastu kuih tat nenas.walopon aku tak berapa kenan kuih ni, tp aku buleyh la buat.hehe
lepaih tu tang nak bersih umah,
keje aku lap tingkap, lap kipaih.
lap frame2 gambo. dan juga cuci peti ais.hehe.
lagi pe ek aku buat...........
ermm...
haaaaa!polish sofa..kendian tukar sarung kusyen.
pastu gantung langsir.hehehe.

tapi bukan le buat sesorang.....tumpo le nak wat sesorang,
mesti le buat dengan adek bradek aku yang lain.
selalunye kiteorang akan bergotong royong le kemaih umah.

tahun ni...

aku tak rasa aku bleyh wat kueh raya.pasei balik pon lg berapa hari je nak raya.
kemaih umah pon maybe takde nak buat banyak.mesti mak da settle awal2..
siaaannn mak kena kemaih umah sesorang.nak harap adek aku yg kecik tu..................
mcm mengharap bulan jatuh ke riba.huhu.

tahun ni raya mcm simple giler.

baju raya beli siap!tak dan nak tempah daah.
kasut raya pon aku tak beli..hehe.
pastu kuih pon tak de buat.kek xsure laaa.kalo rajen aku buat.hehe
then takde pon nak beli apa2 yang baru kecuali lapik meja.hahahha
makna kata umah aku kali ni pakei je ape ade.tak de tuko2.elok bebeno le.

selalu di malam raya

kami sekeluarga akan sebok buat touch up kat umah tu.
ye la nak ubah2 position kerusi ke, or pasang langsir ke..sume malam raya!
ouh...malam raya gak la malam paling best!sebab malam ni mak akan masak kari kambing.
maka kami 5 beradek akan konon2 nak rasa kari mak masak.
dan tanpa disedari dah suku periuk abih kami makan.
selalunye memang mak akan bising takut tak cukup utk esok.

p/s: selalu utk raya mesti atleast 3kg kambing.huhu.terliur haku.

dihari raya...

pepagi mak da kejut daaa..
sesorang mandi dan siap2.
selalu sebelum pegi semayang raya kiteorang akan makan dulu.
menu dipagi raya putu mayum dgn kari kambing.sllurrrrrppppp~
da makan2 then baru gi semayang raya.
balik semayang raya, balik umah dan salam2 collect duit raya! =D
kendian amik family picture.
pastu baru la ke umah pah.jumpe pah.pastu salam la dengan sesape yang ada.
da jumpe pah baru la ke kubur tok.
lalu mulela marathon aku ke umah makcik2 aku.hehe.
kalo aku tak marathon, cousins aku yang berkejor ke umah aku.
well umah aku ni mmg tempat berkumpul time raya.hehe.

tapi raya tahun ni mesti lain....

sebab..
mane de pah lagi...
ntah la kemana arah tuju.mcm tak lengkap je pah xda time raya.
dan aku macam terlupa yang pah dah takda.
sebok je pikir baju raya pah le..sape yang masak utk pah le.
aih~~~
sedeyh biler tersedar dari lamunan yang aku da takda pah.. ='(

tapiiiii...tetapku tabahkan hati ni...
pepagi raya, pas semayang raya akan aku terus ke kubur pah and tok.
semoga pah dengan tok tenang disampingNya.

since raya tahun ni balik penang..
maka raya kedua la baru aku bermarathon. hehe.

dan raya keempat pulang lah kemelakaaa!~
dammit!final exam kill me!

ok laaa...cukup la cerita aku, puasa dan raya.hehe.

Lebaran Ini by Raihan, Rem, Ajai & Now See Heart

Mendayu suara meniti angkasa
Alunan takbir mengulit pagi
Insan tersenyum tanda gembira
Lebaran mulia menjelma lagi, kali ini

( 1 )
Di hari lebaran mulia ini
Jangan pula membuat dosa
Begitulah hakikatnya hari raya
Bergembira tanpa melupakannya, Allah Yang Esa

Indah suasana dalam senyuman
Seluruh alam turut raikan
Mengucapkan syukur pada Tuhan
Atas nikmat yang datang, limpahannya woo..oh..

( korus )
Ikhlaskan hati mohon kemaafan
Leburlah dosa di tapak tangan
Lupakan segala silap dan salah
Insan bersatu membina ummah uh.. uh..

gayish

2009-08-24T17:53:00.004+08:00

point that should ponder upon..

"What's the point of being a lesbian if a woman is going to look and act like an imitation man? " ~Rita Mae Brown

hell yeah...what's the point eyh~~urmm..

maybe because SHE wanna be hotter than a GENUINE man.hahaha.

ouh...menyampah ai...

2009-08-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

ewwww~~ tu je la yang mampu aku katakannnn.hahaha.

ni sebelom aku mule study aku nak ngumpat sikittttt..sikit je laaa..

ni la nak cite ni...kisah yang dah tak terpendam lagi..haha.
ada la sorang makhluk tuhan ni, tak taw la ape jenih penyakit ada kat dia ni
tapi penyakit tu serius buat aku rasa macam nak muntah balik biskut 4 sagi yang aku makan td.
al-kisah nye macam ni..

si anu ni...macam orang culture shock. aku tak kesah la ko memang gile barang2 branded. tapi bile ko snap gamba bersama plastik2 o0o0ps~~ PAPER BAG barang2 branded, bajet baru pas shopping barang2 tu *tak tau la betul ke dia shopping or orang lain punye kan* obviously ko nak tunjuk kat sume orang ko pakai barang2 branded!

*alaaa tapi takde la branded mana pon.stendet student2 je laaa. ouh...maybe dia dok parit..so orang parit mana reti nak shopping2 sangat kaaannnn. kesian aku tgk si anu ni..mintak le di suluh jalan terang dihadapaaannn.semoga terhenti lamunannyaaa.*

yang aku tak tahan tu barang2 tu orang lain pon pkai laaa.tak de pon nak kecoh2 tangkap gamba mcm tu. eiii..serius aku menyampah.

and aku tak kesah langsung ko pakai pe jenih brand pon..heh! *ada aku kesah* tapi aku kesah bile ko tak habih2 sembang mcm manusia yang paling branded di doniaaa...

*si anu penah berkata....boring la kat parit ni takde brand G.tak best shopping.hek elehhhh...sian gilaaa..macam tu je la brand yang terpaling branded.da takde brand lain daah. gambo pon dengan plestik brand peberet.hahahaha.*

ye laa..tu duit kamu..suke hati kamu le.TAPI aku yang mendengor setiap labun mcm baguih kamu tu.erghhh.....kenapa la wujud manusia mcm ni.

maap le ngate..tapi memang mcm orang kampung yang tetibe masuk jj lalu sexicted dengan barang yang dibeli...

dan yang paling aku tak leyh tahan.....kot kaya sangat apsal tiap kali nak ckp dengan aku, suh aku yang call.bila aku suh call dia kata credit takda...ouh pelissss laaa.nak call orang pon duit takdaaa...
maka dengan itu tutup le cite ngumpat.haha. aku nak study plak.

*ni kalo si anu ni baca mampoih aku kena maki.haha.*

lagu tiada kaitan dengan cerita.harap maklum.

Oops I Did It Again by Britney Spears

yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

I think I did it again
I made you believe we're more than just friends
Oh baby
It might seem like a crush
But it doesn't mean that I'm serious
'Cause to lose all my senses
That is just so typically me
Oh baby, baby

[CHORUS:]
Oops!...I did it again
I played with your heart, got lost in the game
Oh baby, baby
Oops!...You think I'm in love
That I'm sent from above
I'm not that innocent

You see my problem is this
I'm dreaming away
Wishing that heroes, they truly exist
I cry, watching the days
Can't you see I'm a fool in so many ways
But to lose all my senses
That is just so typically me
Baby, oh

[Repeat CHORUS]

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

"All aboard"
"Britney, before you go, there's something I want you to have"
"Oh, it's beautiful, but wait a minute, isn't this...?"
"Yeah, yes it is"
"But I thought the old lady dropped it into the ocean in the end"
"Well baby, I went down and got it for you"
"Oh, you shouldn't have"

Oops!...I did it again to your heart
Got lost in this game, oh baby
Oops!...You think that I'm sent from above
I'm not that innocent

losing someone

2009-08-16T22:24:00.008+08:00

Date - 13th August 2009
Time - 8:53:50 a.m
Place - Contigency lab

i got a phone call from unknown number. i didnt recognized the number, then i checked it back. yeap.that's my grandma's house number. i feel uneasy with the phone call. so i decided to call it back. the maid picked up the phone.while talking with the maid, i heard from back my mom's voice "mak da meninggal." i really crying like hell. then my mom take the phone. i really cant talk. my mom said that my grandma just passed away around 8.30.

i decided to go back.then i entered class with tears on my eyes. i told rima what happened and then i told my lecturer that i'm going back.luckily he understand my situation. sue sent me to MC. thanks sue. really appreciate it.

i hate that i fuck up on that day!!!!

- i hate the facts that i choose the wrong bus!

yeap.i choose to take the direct bus thinking that i could reach early.but actually i miss it all! that fucking bus is really make me cry harder!!!i swear that i will never take that bus again!!

- i hate the fact that i missed the important moment.
- i hate that i couldn't kiss my grandma for the last time!
- i hate that i'm the only one that missed the moment!

but at least i'm happy cuz i've done everything that i should do as her grandchild...

during my childhood......

still remember that i always accompany her at her house while she stay alone. sometimes i will took shift with my bro or cousin.

or when she stay at my house, every evening, i need to walk with her back to her house. i need to hold her hand cuz she cant walk on her owned.

then, during night, if no one there, i will stay overnight there. i still remember how annoying my old grandmama can be when she called me every ten minutes to ask whether i have swithed off the lights or not.

sometimes, we even argued when i wanted to watch american next top model while she wanted to watch the berita dunia.haha.

but how nice she can be when there's one night, her maid suddenly scream, cuz she saw "something". and me sleeping alone at another room. but i can hear my grandma whispering to her maid "jangan jerit2.nanti cucu aku bangun dia takut. diam." i feel so touch with her act. i know she love me.hehe.

after i entered mmu..

everytime i'm going back to KK sure i will visit her. and everytime i visited her, she will shout happily "o0o0o0o adek noorrrrr...cucu aku datang!kamu sehat ka?" then goes her story that i heard it about countless time. =D then when i'm going back she will say jaga diri baik2 naaa..kamu nanti nak jadi loyakaan.nanti da jadi loya kamu bagi duit kat pah sikit naaa."kamu selaaaaaamaaattt pergi kamu selaaaaaaaaaamaaattt balik."

sadly, she dont have that chance to see me as a loya~

last mid term break..

she didnt recognized me at all. she suffered brain stroke. pity her. but still at the same time, her act make me laugh. =D

i even buying her medicine and some foods..all the foods left untouch.

today...

i really feel empty. went i'm going to her house yesterday. everything seems incomplete. no grandma's voice..

all the memories remains. her voice, her eyes, her laugh, her touch..

*thanks to Pah for taking care of me too during my baby time.hehe

may u rest in pieces pah tersayang Kalsum Bibi binti Ibrahim Ghani

pah duduk berbaju purple.

Pergi Tak Kembali by Rabbani

Setiap insan pasti merasa
Saat perpisahan terakhir
Dunia yang fana akan ditinggalkan
Hanya amalan yang dibawa

Terdengar sayup surah dibaca
Sayunya alunan suara
Cemas di dada...lemah tak bermaya
Terbuka hijab di depan mata

Selamat tinggal pada semua
Berpisahlah kita selamanya
Kita tak sama nasib di sana
Baikkah atau sebaliknya

Amalan dan takwa jadi bekalan
Sejahtera bahagia pulang...ke sana

Sekujur badan berselimut putih
Rebah bersemadi sendiri
Mengharap kasih anak dan isteri
Apa mungkin pahala dikirim

Terbaring sempit seluas pusara
Soal-bicara terus bermula
Sesal dan insaf tak berguna lagi
Hancurlah jasad dimamah bumi

Berpisah sudah segalanya
Yang tinggal hanyalah kenangan
Diiring doa dan air mata
Yang pergi takkan kembali lagi

kejadian di kedai pengantin

2009-08-09T15:03:00.003+08:00

itulaaahh love note yang aku dapat dari seseorang..

cerita nya bermula begini..

hari akak aku tunang and aku pi kedai pengantin teman akak aku mekap. kemudian dalam kedai tu adalaaa sorang laki ni..

time tengah akak aku mekap tu tetibe dia bagi aku kertas. aku pon dlm keadaan yang paling blur amik je laaa...then biler aku baca pe yang dia tulis, mula2 muka aku pelik, kendian blur, kendian gelak sorang2, kendian aku ingat mamat ni!!

mamat yang bagi aku kertas tu sebenarnya adalah seorang lelaki pekak dan bisu yang bernama FIRDAUS.

tapi kendian aku tengok dia aku senyum dan lalu terussss buat bodoh...my sign language quite bad~maka tak kose mak nak berinteraksi.heheh.

aku kenal dia sebab time aku derjah 5 and 6 kelaih aku sebelah kelaih dia. masa sekolah dulu, sekolah aku ni mmg ada kelas untuk mereka2 yang istimewa ni...

dedolu time zaman sekolaahh dia sangat suka kat sorang kawan aku nama syima. selalu la dia bagi love note kat syima ni..selalu dia akan tulis i ♥ u or firdaus ♥ syima or syima ♥ firdaus.hehe. mcm2 la love notes dia bagi. kalo tak bagi pon tiap kali dia nampak syima tu mesti dia buat i ♥ u guna sign language tu..hehe.

da la sekolah aku gal school.mana ada jantan lain.maka dia laaa yang paling gatai ponnn. bebudak lain takde la plak nak gatal2 cam tu.hehe.

tapi aku maseh pelik camne dia cam aku.pasal aku tak penah langsung berinteraksi dengan dia. say "hi" pon tak penah. so aku pikir maybe la aku selalu ke kelaih dia cuz coach hoki aku cekgu dia ni. tapiiiii..tu pon long l0nggggggg time ago..

hari tu biler aku jumpe dia aku agak kesian la dgn dia.pasal dia mcm tak betui skeyt..tak silap aku dia ni pekak and bisu je.bukannya ada masalah terencat akai. tapi hari tu akak kedai pengantin tu cakap budak ni slalu dtg kedai tu sebab katanya nak cari baju pengantin.dia kata nak kawen 2011.hurrrrrmm..masalaaahnya lambat lagi...

kendian aku terpikir, mana la parents ka family budak ni..awatla tak jaga betui2..bagi proper education..sian kat dia.dari sehat teruih nampak mcm tak betuii..bila aku dok tangkap gambaq akak aku, dia pon sebok nak pakai baju pengantin pastu suh akak kedai tu tangkap gambaq dia.. sian..sian..

maka begitulaaaahhhhh ceritanyaaaa. semoga mamat yang bernama firdaus ni jumpalaaa pasangan yang sesuaiiiii..hehe.

[teringat plak kat cite L word.hehe]

Private Number by William Bell & Judy Clay

Since I've been gone
You've had your number changed
But my love for you, girl
Still remains the same

Now, I've been loving you and
You've been loving me so long
Baby, what's wrong

So I'm asking
Baby, baby, baby
Please let me have your number
Baby, baby, baby
Please let me have your number

I'm sorry you couldn't call me
When you got home
But other fellows kept on calling
While you were gone

So I had the number changed
But I'm not acting strange
Welcome home
Baby, nothing's wrong

So I'm saying
Baby, baby, baby
You can have my private number
Baby, baby, baby
You can have my private number

Baby, baby, baby
You can have my private number
(Thank you, baby)
Baby, baby, baby
For giving me your private number
(You can have it)

Thank you, baby
Baby, baby, baby
You can have it anytime you want it
You can have my private number

engagement @ royal town

2009-08-03T20:47:00.015+08:00

tanggal 1hb ogos ri tu akak aku telah ditunangkan dgn boipren tersayang..congratz lah diucapkan setelah segala rintangan ditempuh bersama..huhu.

maka kat sini aku nak letak la gamba2 time majlisnye.

ni time malam jumaat.sume orang tengah sebok wat keje. aku pon sebok gak laa..sat ke depan potong daun pandan, sat gi da ke dapor plak tolong masak...tp most of the time aku la cameraman cabuk di malam itu..

hantaran yang belom siap susun lg..huhu

sesi memotong daun pandan

chef tersohor sedang memasak

co-chef sedang bertungkus lumus memotong ubi..

okayy..enuff utk malam bertunang...di hari pertunangan plak...maseh banyak keja tak siap..di dapur kena goreng ayam dan di depan ada lg 2-3 dulang hantanran tak siap..maka aku sat tolong buat dulang, sat tolong tgk ayam goreng, sat pi kemaih bilik..

kendian aku teman akak aku pi siap kt kedai pengantin plak...and time tu la aku dapat LOVE NOTE~

sila klik untuk besarkan gamba

neway aku tak cam mamat yang bagi surat ni..until aku baca pe yang dia tuliss..so damn freaking funny kay..die bleyh cam aku walopon kiteorang knal time skolah rendah..da 10 tahon kotttt..and time skolah dlu tak penah pon aku berinteraksi dgn dia..haha.

actually mamat ni bisu.kat skolah aku dulu ada klas khas utk bebudak pekak dan bisu and kelaih aku sebelah kelaih mamat ni..tak sangka plak dia igt.time skola2 dulu dia slalu tulis surat kt member aku je..hehe

ok laaa...da abih mekap2 balik la umah..hehe.da la ujan time tu.terpaksalaaa aku sebagai runner pengantin payungkan dia..da la sampai2 orang da penuh kat umah..kena la pengantin masuk ikut pintu belakang..huhu.

setelah itu...aku pon sampai..sesampai je depan gate umah, mak aku da suh aku angkat sekontena sudu..huhu. kendian aku masuk la bilik aku..tetibe..MAK DATOK!!! bilik aku da penuh dengan cousins aku..hehe. so pas aku salam2 sume baru la aku make up plak..hehe.takkan nak comot je kaaan..tp tu pon asik tergendala je..ada je la hal2 nak kena buat..

all the girls get together.. [tp time ni aku takdak..ntah aku tang mana pon tak tau laa.] dengan bilik paling bersepah nyaaa..aih~~

tapi sebelom rombongan sampai aku sempat la jugak snap gamba dengan akak aku..huhu.

around 4 rombongan sampai la sudah...mengikut kameraman time tu [abang aku] depa mai 10 buah keta~sumpah penuh umah aku!da la umah aku cumel je..memang full house la time tu...

rombongan baru sampai~

ni time tengah kira.. =)

pertunangan berlangsung...

majlis pon tamaaaattttt~

maka dengan rasminya akak aku jadi tunang orang..wahahaha

setelah selesai segalanyaaaaa, maka bermulalaaahhh sesi kemas mengemas..letih oke!! sumpah letih....

at first tengok akak aku tunang mcm best..hehe.rasa mcm aku pon nak tunang gaaak..tp setelah segalanya berakhir aku rasa kalo letuh cam ni takyah tunag laaa..buat ghenyang!

macam2 la nak kena kemasss.dari bilik, sampai ke barang2 hantaran, dengan lauknye lagi, dengan periuk2 nya laaaaagi~~aih~

la ni...baru settle..tu yang update tu..hehe..

ok laaa.aku nak gi tengok pendekar bujang lapok... [mambang mabuk minum brandy.. =D]

lawak gampang!

2009-07-31T01:52:00.003+08:00

kali ni aku nak cite satu menda lawak yang memang lawak la pada aku..kalo kome sume rasa tak lawak "awak" (aku) mintak maap la yek..

okay cite nye berbunyi macam ni...

tadi aku bersms-ing la dgn kawan aku sorang ni..nama dia W [jantan].hehe.
since W ada kt kuale [kuala kangsar] maka dia pon dgn hati yang girang gumbira msg la kawan kiteorang sorang ni yang bernama Y [betina].

then suddenly Y reply..

Y: sape ni

W: W la..oit aku kt kk...bla..bla..bla..kuar dgn P..bla..bla..nak join?

Y: aku pakwe Y!!!

*omg~~okay bf si Y yg pakai no.fon tu skang..maka bermulalah dramaaaaa...

then W reply...

W: oh sory..ni W best friend Y bla..bla..bla..ajak hang out...bla.. bla..bla..lama tak jumpa..kangan bangat sama die...

bf Y:ko kangen sgt ko crila betina lain!! kalo ko nk Y ko ckp!! *wtf* aku nak ko faham sendiri situasi bf kalu awek dia org kacau!sendiri fhm.

*man....this guy is totally PELIK!!tak pasal2 mengamuk!haha*

W: wei jgn cam tu..bla..bla..takda niat nak ambik or kacau die k.bla..bla..bla..she just my bestfren bla..bla..bla.can u just being polite..mmg die gf ko tp aku ni kawan die.so ko pon phm2la sendiri. aku xnk bertkak dgn ko k!!

W: jgn marah plak sb aku cakap kangan kat dia..we just fren.that's it!bla..bla..bla..kim salam kt Y..k nite.sorry for disturbing u..

bf Y: ko punye tekak skt ske ati ko la!!aku pn ckp iklas bla..bla...bla..sbgai gf org bdk laki lain ajak kuar tak tecabar ke aku dgr!ckp guna otak dan faham situasi org!!!

*againnnn~tak pasal2 tercabar..sorry to say but mamat ni dok ceruk manala agaknyaa? mentaliti kelaih 4*

at the end of the conversation Y's bf say fuck off to W.haha.

then W reply..

W: fuckoff??tu je ko mampu buat?buat perut aku nak ketawa!

Y.... senyaaaap teross!

yang lawaknya mamat yang kononnya die sorang je ada awek ni teros2 nak serang je..masalah dalaman betul laaa..

and the best part is W IS NOT THAT STRAIGHT!! and the effing bf ckp si Y slalu citer pasal W.so0o0o takkan la tak tau how W is right..whatever la bf Y..u're one damn funny person!

seriously aku suruh si W tu admitted that he's gay at the end of conversation..tapi W xmo..heheh.malu kotttt..

tapi katenye kalo bleyh nak cakap depan2 "by the way i'm a gayboy n i fall in love with you bro!!"

heh~how dramatic is that!kan best kalo W betul2 ckp mcm tu!!padan muka kat mamat yang perasan dia la yang paling sayang awek dia!!

bodoh...

Boys With Girlfriends byMeiko

when i first met you i knew you were the one
till you took me home and met her
she had your boxers on
she was listening to your song
and i thought right then that you had everything

but i knew
she was jealous from the start
yeah i knew
she was jealous from the start

cos i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends
oh i know better than that i know better
you play the victim and i'll be the bad guy
i know better than that, i know better
(oh oh oh oh oh oh X 2)

we started hanging around after 9
i couldve sworn you i was yours
you looked at me and said
its a little too late for bed
we went to the hotel and
talked about everything

but i knew
she was jealous from the start
yeah i knew
she was jealous from the start

cos i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends
oh i know better than that i know better
you play the victim and i'll be the bad guy
i know better than that, i know better
(oh)

what she did to us was tragic
oh oh oh
and i have to do what's right
oh oh oh
what we had was really magic
oh oh oh
but i have to get what's mine
oh
i don't get what's mine
and you get yours

cos i know better not to be friends with boys with girlfriends
oh i know better than that i know better
you play the victim and i'll be the bad guy
i know better than that, i know better
(oh)
X 2

saya.jatuh.dia.dan.chenta

2009-07-30T00:21:00.004+08:00

u're freaking hawt...

and i'm freaking madly in ♥.

You give me looks and lead me on, I'm going mad and that's my situation

sensasi-ness~

2009-07-28T20:38:00.004+08:00

dear kamu yang hawt..

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u're so0o0o0o kissable. =D

sindrom 22

2009-07-26T23:24:00.005+08:00

setelah menjadi seorang "gadis" berusia 22 tahun...
aku tidak semena2 menjadi seorang penagih..
tidak ku sangka aku akan menjadi penagih tegar sebegini..
semakin lama semakin menjadi2 gian dan ketagihan aku.. apa yang tlah terjadi???

what's wrong with me?? it's like i'm craving for it everytime..
macam ketagih kus2..eyh kas2..huhu. kenapa begini jadinya??
sampai aku buleyh habis kan duit aku untuk menda2 niyh...
kalo takde menda ni aku rasa tension, rasa nak mengamuk.
ouh matilaaaa..
menda ni da mcm ubat penenang untuk aku..

dikala pelbagai rintangan dan dugaan aku tempuhi,
afta all, i need something to make me stay calm..
and...dalam byk2 menda...aku da gian dengan menda ni..
kenaaaaaaapaaaaaaaaaaaaa???????

*mungkin aku perlu tanya cik intan si dewi chocolate yang sweet lagi cumel. intan..why???*

Until U Love U by [Nicole Scherzinger] Pussycat Dolls

I know sometimes when you see yourself
What you see yourself, is someone not good enough
I know there's times when you feel like, you can do nothing right
And insecurity takes a hold, obscures your vision of your soul
You can't see what's inside, open up your eyes

Take a look in the mirror, you're beautiful
Take a moment to love the one you are
Learn to accept yourself, coz it's the truth
Can't love nobody else, until you love you

I know sometimes it's so hard to keep up your self esteem
Sometimes you can feel so small
And it's so easy to tell yourself, you're not worth much at all
When you're unsure of who you are, and now it's tearin’ you apart
You can't see what is true, change your point of view

Take a look in the mirror, you're beautiful
Take a moment to love the one you are
Learn to accept yourself, coz it's the truth
Can't love nobody else, until you love you

Find, what is real is what's inside you
Know, there's no else in this world like you
Take, maybe just a little time to stop and see just who you really are

Take a look in the mirror, you're beautiful
Take a moment to love the one you are
Learn to accept yourself, coz it's the truth
Can't love nobody else, until you love you

Take a look in the mirror, you're beautiful
Take a moment to love the one you are
Learn to accept yourself, coz it's the truth
Can't love nobody else, until you love

Take a look in the mirror
Take a look in the mirror (ooh ah oooh ooh ah oooh ooh)
Take a look in the mirror (I’ll take a look in the mirror)
Take a look in the mirror (you’re beautiful)

*sekadar gambar hiasan.tiada kena mengena dengan tuan punye blog.. =D

happy chocolate birthday: being 22

2009-07-23T23:57:00.006+08:00

wooohoooo~~

i'm officially 22 years old today!! but nothing change in me..still the same old person that loves sleeping, gossiping and most of the times making stupid jokess!!heheh.

neway the "bloody" is highly dedicated to my midterm exam paper just now..OMG~~ my luck is a bit off today!! *it's suppose to be my lucky day rightt??*

the paper just seriously sucks...i'm totally bullshitting for the third question. hope the other two question can backup me.. =D
oklaarrr..dun want to think bout the "bloddy mid term" nymore.
actually i want to thank to all that wish me happy bday~

start with winnie - one day earlier then my lil bro..ouh suddenly he send me an arabic msg - aid miladin sa'id..luckily i understand..if not free2 i reply him "ape yang kamu mencarut niii??"haha. since i kno what it means so i use my lil knowledge on arabic language then i reply "shukron ya akhi" maksudnya - thanks bro!hahaha.

ouh then comes the day~ begin with a msg from faisal..thanks sal.semangat hang message aku. *terharu* then came sue..heheh.she ym me. the best wish is *happy study old babe!* thanks again sue.hahaha. then rima plak msg me..heheh. *katenye lambat cuz ralit main game.* heheh. funny la rimaa.

kemudiaaaann, ramaila plak wish kat fb kaaan. erm antaranya rima bersama pantun brandy, nisah, intan, sue, joanne ramai laa.heheh.thanks sume..

ouh before i slept i got bday wishes from wan - my bestie ever and keat!thanks guys.

then this morning i got msg from my sist and my bro send comment on fb..heheh.thanksss. happy being u guys lil sista~huhu.

but then, something missing.......................

ouh..my mom and my dad didnt wish me~sob..sob..feel like crying.tapiii ku gagahi diri ini. i'm a bday gal..mane bleyh nangis..huhu.then i just assume that they are too busy until for got my bday. =)

then during classs...i got msg from my dad..hehehe. ingaaaaat pon.my bday is COMPLETE!!! *actually just now my mom told me that they're too busy until forgot bout my bday*

see.....betul je my assumption. =p

rima bersama hadiah2..

ouh this morning i got a lot of gifts from rima..yea yea..ONLY RIMA!haha

the gifts are:

- 4 pieces of chocolate cake..seriously sedaaaaap!!
- mint & bitter chocolate...owh this chocolate really help me. +_+
- tiramisu milk chocolate - loveeee it!

disebalik plestik bag..tersorok a lot of chocs!!

- baucar misteri which a choice whether u want a treat of meal in johnny's, nasik kandar mydin, or home cook by chef rima.. *i think i prefer the home coke!!* acar sendawan semangkuk pelissss~

baucar misteri dari rimaaa...no longer mystery..hahaha

- last but not least a very2 cute card.hehe.

cute okay card ni..i'm lovin' it!!huhu

thanks rima.

in the evening i got toblerone from cik fredaa..ouh chocolate againnnn~ =D

neway after all, though i've been showered with a lot of chocs..i'm still craving for that one. *sigh*

somebody help me...*can i have GP?? takde sesape ke nak bagi GP?hahahha*

okay till then...lots of love~~

*ingat nak letak lagu ku sapu air mata..tapi malang nya tak jumpe.kome layan le lagu ni yeakk..
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Heaven by DJ Sammy & Yanou Feat. Do

Oh, thinking about our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now, nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
that's over now
You keep me coming back for more

-[CHORUS]-
Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh, once in your life
you find someone,who wil turn your world around
pick you up when your feeling down
Now, nothing can change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now
'Cause our love will light the way

-[CHORUS]-
Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

I've been waiting for someone
something to arrive
love to come along
Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times
And the bad
I'll be standing there by you

Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Ohh, ohh, ohh
Ohh, ohh, ohh
We're in heaven

tatkala hati diremuk bagai tin kosong

2009-07-21T03:07:00.005+08:00

i have no guts to write what's inside me here...

ye laaarr...nnt kata i like to blog bout others like i am a divine creation plak kaaannn..

so0o0o...i pictured my words that i wrote inside my sketch diary~

motive????

saje je tak de keje..kalo bleyh baca paling terror la kaannn.kalo tak buleyh baca lantak laa

aku cakap baik2 salah, aku cakap kurang ajar salah...buat la ape korang nak...

** it's nothing to do with updating yourselves or life.. idk which part of it that updating your life, yourselves...

**o0opss~~maybe tertinggal keteapi kott..orang da lama beraktiviti tapi dia baru nak berjinak2..pastu sexcited terlebeyhh..sampai tak sedar suar da terlondeyhh~ nasib hang la laaabuuu~

semoga jalan terang dihadapan...

**soklan pepagi bute..

which part of my word yang fitnah?

Are You Happy Now by Michelle Branch

"Are You Happy Now?"

Now, don’t just walk away
Pretending everything’s ok
And you don’t care about me
And I know there’s just no use
When all your lies become your truths and I don’t care... yeah, yeah, yeah

Could you look me in the eye
And tell me that you’re happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You took all there was to take,
And left me with an empty plate
And you don’t care about it, yeah.
And I am givin' up this game
I’m leaving you with all the blame cause I don’t care, yeah, yeah yeah,

Could you look me in the eye?
And tell me that you’re happy now, oohh oohhh
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now? yeah, yeah, yeah.

Do you really have everything you want?
You can't ever give somethin' you ain't got
You can’t run away from yourself

Could you look me in the eye?
and tell me that you're happy now, yeah, yeah
come on, tell it to my face or have i been replaced,
are you happy now? Ohhh, ohhhh
are you happy now?

Would you look me in the eye?
Could you look me in the eye?
I’ve had all that I can take
I'm not about to break
Cause I’m happy now, ohhh, ohhh
Are you happy now?

ouh..u might missed this..

2009-07-20T18:27:00.006+08:00

to whom it may concern...

i am too concern bout my visitors so i make it BIGGER and CLEARER here... please read this statement before you scroll down and explore my blog!!!!

i take my blog as my diary..if you feel my writing, thoughts or feelings are bullshit then you're highly suggested to leave~i wont live to please people around the world.neway...thanks for the visit. =)

i will not be responsible to any damage or injury that my visitors suffer due to unfortunate events!!!

thus, take it or leave it...THANK YOU!!!

since i am to0o0o0o CONCERN bout my visitors, i dedicate this song to all my visitors..ENJOY!!

Kill the lights by Britney Spears

DANJA INTRO:
Ladies and Gentlemen,
we interrupt our program of dance music to bring you a special bulletin from the Intercontinental Radio News.
Our very own Pop Princess,
now Queen of Pop,
has a special announcement she would like to make.

(Spoken: You're on. I think I'm ready for my close-up. Yeah.)

You don’t like me
I don’t like you
It don’t matter
Only difference you still listen
I don’t have to
In one ear and out the other I don’t need ya
Your words don’t stick
I ain’t perfect but you ain’t either

If you're feeling froggy leap
I ain’t even losin' sleep
There’s more to me than what you see
You wouldn’t like me when I’m angry

CHORUS:
Mr. Photographer
I think I’m ready for my close-up
Tonight
Make sure you catch me from my good side
Pick one
These other ha just want to be me
Is that money in your pocket or you happy to see me?

Kill the lights
(Take 'em out, turn ’em off, break ’em down)
Kill the lights
(Don’t be scared, make a move, see me now)
Kill the lights
(I feel you, watching me, watching you)
Kill the lights
(You can’t handle the truth, what happened to it?)
I killed the lights
The lights Pure. The lights Satis. The lights Faction
I killed
The lights Lights, The lights camera, The lights action
I killed
The lights Pure. The lights Satis. The lights Faction
I killed
The lights Lights, The lights camera, The lights action

All the flashin'
Tryin' to cash in
Hurts my eyes
All the poses
Out of focus
I despise
F me over
Your exposure
Not the best
If that was bad
Watch how I release this stress
Yeah

CHORUS

You’re the star now
Welcome to the big league
They all want a pic
They all wanna see… see… see
What you’re made of
What you're gonna do
Is life gonna get the best of you?

CHORUS

Yeah
Yeah
Yeah

(Laughter)

MACC: murderers, suicide, accident??

2009-07-20T03:05:00.006+08:00

perghh~~tajuk hawt tuuuu~

ok la aku just nak share my thoughts and opinion about this case..ala2 CSI cabuk larr..
at first bila aku baca tentang case ni first thought aku suicide la pasal jatuh bangunan. tapi bila aku tengok gamba si mati..rasa mcm pelik pulak.

first aku tgk seluar die koyak kat belakang..hurm ni pelik..cam ne bleyh terkoyak kt belakang tu?setakat ni aku tengok gamba orang terjun bangunan tak penah plak aku tgk suar diorang ni koyak cam tu..so speku aku maybe sebenarnya dia ni terjatuh..pastu ada orang cube selamatkan and sempat pegang seluar je then seluar tu terkoyak pastu dia pon jatuh lalu mati or; maybe ada orang ugut2 nak bunuh die and grab dia kt bontot pastu suar tu koyak lalu jatuh dan mati..hurm maybe laa. PLUS dia landing ke sisi bukan terlentang. if terlentang then boleyh dikatakan impact koyak selari dengan kesan jatuh.

oh ye...cara dia landing pon macam pelik...selalu kalo orang nak bunuh diri..dia akan set their self free. so maknanya di sini...kalo suicide cara landing tu mungkin terlentang or tertiarap..tapi dalam kes ni simati jatuh mengiring and mengerekot [kome phm ke bahse ni??] skeyt... agak pelik la orang yang mati jatuh cam tu. so kat sini presumption aku dia ni maybe da mati or nyawa2 ikan then di humban ke bawah..konon2 nak di buat ala2 bunuh diri...

kemudiaaannn..

biler aku tgk gamba tu aku agak pelik sebab macam ada something missing...then baru aku perasan..TAKDA DARAH!!! pelik laaa..selalu kalo orang bunuh diri mesti la berdarah2 kan..orang yang eksiden pon berdarah ni kan pulak terjun bangunan.mesti la impact die tu lg dasat.tp memang takde darah langsung. paling busuk pon mesti pecah kepala, then darah kuar kat idung ke, telinga ke. selalu kalo hentakan kuat kat kepala akan menyebabkan pendarahan kat telinga. [ni dokter post mortem la cite time cousin aku eksiden.]

maka teori diatas buat aku percaya yang time dia jatuh atau dicampak dia da mati daa~ so darah pon da terhenti maka meminimumkan kesan kecederaan.chewaaahh~sembang ala2 Frank Tripp dlm CSI Miami..heheh.

lagi ape ek doubt yang ade...hurmmmm...haa...ni apa nama ni dia punya tgn tu mcm tak patah pon..ntah laa.kot la dia terjun..at least bahu dia mesti la senget2 skeyt sb patah kan..ni elok je bahu die..tp kaki tu nampak la mcm patah..so kat sini aku konpius sikit laa..maklum la aku tgk base on gamba yang ada je...KALAAAU ikut pandangan aku kaki dia patah sebab either bila dia jatuh dia cuba nak berdiri or; kalo dia da mati time jatuh kaki dia patah akibat jatuh sebab kat situ permukaan lantai dia tak rata.so maybe la impact kat simen tu buat kaki dia patah.

erm tu teori kalau dia dibunuh or tereksiden terjatuh lalu mati...

maka si pembunuh harus la orang yang berkaitan dengan kes kaaann dalam erti kata lain orang yang mungkin mempunyai liability dalam kes ni..mungkin laaa.

kalau teori bunuh diri aku percaya dia bunuh diri sebab dia tension dengan kes ni or diugut kalo dia bagi tau apa2 yang sulit kt SPRM maka tunang dia akan dibunuh ke hape ke kaan..so kat sini dia mungkin dalam dilemma. kalo tak bg tau SPRM nnt kata tak bekerjasama, kalo bekerjasama nnt tunang dia ka family members dia ka kena bunuh ke kene jual ke..so maybe la time tu dia da masuk ayaq..tak leyh pikir daa..amik langkah mudah bunuh diri...ni teori cabukk aku la nape dia bunuh diri..

tapi kalo nak relatekan cara dia jatuh dengan bunuh diri tu agak susah laaa..dengan cara landing, suar koyak tu, takde darah percik2 lagi..

o yaa..ni info yang aku baca tingkap kt bangunan tu bleyh bukak 45 darjah je...soo maka dengan itu agak musykil mcm mana si mati nak keluar dari ringkap lalu terjun..dan info juga berkata kedudukan tingkap dan tempat mangsa jatuh tak sama..- info ni tak tahu kesahihannye~~ =)

[tang jatuh tak sama tempat ni aku bayangkan maybe angin laa kott...so menolak dia pergi jauh skeyt dari tingkap tu.tapi hal tingkap yg bleyh bukak kecik je tu.....hurm ntah laa.kalo betul dia nak bunuh diri berusaha betul dia nak keluar gak ikut tingkap tu..huhu.]

berkaitan dengan kononnya ini adalah conspiracy government i bet if it YES, that will be the stupidest conspiracy to kill ever..pada aku kalo ni memang well-planned murder, takde la diorang nak campak dia kat bangunan tu..it maybe unplanned murder maybe la time soal siasat tu terpukul lebeyh so mamat tu pon goal so tak mo take liability diorang buat2 la bunoh diri..kire ni dalam keadaan akal pendek laa. IF so happen la kaannn.

lagi pon wat pe laa government nak bunoh die..saksi penting tuuu~

tapi aku maseh dalam keadaan berpendapat dia tak bunoh diri..huhu.

o ye..mengikut kata2 Horatio Caine, orang yang looking forward for happy moment takkan buat menda tak masuk akal seperti membunuh diri..ye laa si matikan bakal bapa and da register nak kawen..huk huk..sian down tunang diaa~

[btw polis da jumpe telepon si mati...kalo bunuh diri nape tak bawak fon skali?perlu ke sebelom bunuh diri campak fon kat tempat lain??owh..maybe taknak di ganggu...]

pepehal pon....biarlah yang berkuasa ni menyiasat..semoga mereka menjadi penyiasat yang telus lagi cekap dan handal ala2 Eric Delko..

sekian..setakat ni dulu saya investigator cabuk melaporkan...

Dead! by My Chemical Romance

YEAH!

And if your heart stops beating
I'll be here wondering
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life
And if you get to heaven
I'll be here waiting, babe
Did you get what you deserve?
The end, and if your life won't wait
Then your heart can't take this

Have you heard the news that you're dead?
No one ever had much nice to say
I think they never liked you anyway
Oh take me from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand? It ain't exactly what you planned.
And wouldn't it be great If we were dead?
Ohh dead.

Tongue-tied and oh so squeamish
You never fell in love
Did you get what you deserve?
The ending of your life
And if you get to heaven
I´ll be here waiting, babe
Did you get what you deserve?
The end, and if your life won´t wait
Then your heart can't take this

Have you heard the news that you're dead?
No one ever had much nice to say
I think they never liked you anyway
Oh take me from the hospital bed
Wouldn't it be grand to take a pistol by the hand?
And wouldn't it be great if we were dead?

And in my honest observation
During this operation
Found a complication in your heart
So long, Cause now you've got (now you've got)
Maybe just two weeks to live
Is that the most the both of you can give?

One, two, one two three four!

LA LA LA LA LA!
LA LA LA LA LA LA!
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!
Well come on,
LA LA LA LA LA!
LA LA LA LA LA LA!
LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!
Oh motherfucker!
If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA!)
Then why are we laughing? (LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
Then why are we laughing?
If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA!)
Then why are we laughing? (LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
If life ain't just a joke (LA LA LA LA LA LA LA!)
Then why am I dead?
DEAD!

jadikan aku yang keduaa wink

2009-07-19T23:09:00.003+08:00

tadi...baru beberapa minit lepas tengah plan2 dgn rima untuk perjalanan balik tetibe kuar plak lagu yang bertajuk jadikan aku yang kedua...

heheh...sangaaattt best ok lagu niyh...

basically lagu niyh pasal seorang gadis yang tak kesah la menjadi "kekaseh kedua" orang yang dia da suke sgt niyhh..wahhh~~best tu...

setakat ni tiap kali aku suke sape2 mesti org tu da berpunya laaa..nak wat camne..yang dah berpunya tu la yang menarek..huehue..

makaaa..lagu ini ku tujukan khas kepada mereka..wahh!mereka tu..byk orang yg aku suke.heheh.

jadi post kali ini ditujukan khas kepada merekaaaa la kirenyee~..hahaha.
[macam laaa diorang baca blog aku kaaaannn.kenal pon tak...hahahaha.]

so sesape yang berminat nak melayan lagu ni aku dengan bermurah hati [mood tgh baik] kasik link utk download lagu ni..

sila tekan disini

ok laaaa...malas nak sembang panjang...korang layan la lagu ni.huhu.

Jadikan Aku Yang Kedua by Astrid

jika dia cintaimu
melebihi cintaku padamu
aku pasti rela untuk melepasmu
walau ku tau ku kan terluka

jikalau semua berbeda
kau bukanlah orang yang kupuja
tetapi hatiku telah memilihmu
walau kau tak mungkin tinggalkannya

jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

jika dia cintaimu
melebihi cintaku padamu
aku pasti rela untuk melepasmu
walau ku tau ku kan terluka

jikalau semua berbeda
kau bukanlah orang yang kupuja
tetapi hatiku telah memilihmu
walau kau tak mungkin tinggalkannya

jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

[interlude]

Ooo...
jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

yang kedua.. yang kedua..
bahagia.. bahagia selamanya..

jadikan aku yang kedua
buatlah diriku bahagia
walaupun kau takkan pernah
kumiliki selamanya

yang kedua.. yang kedua..

aku ♥ musik

ehemmmm....

Mirr0r mirr0w on the wall, please wake her up.

why i don't blog as much as before

self-obsessed

it's 2011....

A love letter

when my mom ask me about M.A.R.R.I.A.G.E

is this the end?

meaningful

an inspirational letter to a friend

s.i.n.g.l.e

13th August

being 23

mak saya sayang saya.

end of part 1

happy birthday

after 5 years...

Epsilon 2nd Trimester.

walimatul urus

this is it!!

helllluuuuuuuuuuuuuu~~~

al-fatihah pakcik mokhtar

Al-fatihah

telinga syaitannn!!!

my greatest drugs!!!

the lots of things!!!

all the good things!!

in between

after all the shits, hey look!! there's a flower!!

speechless

kalaaaahhh laahhh~~

musik is the best damn thing!

good night good day!!

i wish i am invisible.....to certain people.

fucking goodbye 2009. a very big welcome 2010.

fresh air

towards the end

what the fuck is wrong of being single???

am i gay?

i need a fucking rest

riak, dengki, busuk hati, dendam, fitnah

boipren?kawen?

natural beauty

ayam

i is back

no.more.malacca.

suicidal!!!!!!

ntah hape2 ntah

raya ke???

raya ke exam?

ramadhan & syawal =)

gayish

ouh...menyampah ai...

losing someone

kejadian di kedai pengantin

engagement @ royal town

lawak gampang!

saya.jatuh.dia.dan.chenta

sensasi-ness~

sindrom 22

happy chocolate birthday: being 22

tatkala hati diremuk bagai tin kosong

ouh..u might missed this..

MACC: murderers, suicide, accident??

jadikan aku yang keduaa *wink*

jadikan aku yang keduaa wink